One more day, and I'm done. Tomorrow was the big day and I'm not sure if I am going to be able to get out of this one...I sat down in my bedroom, finishing Romeo and Juliet. Juliet was in the same situation as me; being married to a man she didn't love except she had the strength to try and resist it by faking her death.

Why am I such a coward? She's actually trying to stop the marriage, while I'm sitting here doing nothing. I'm sorry Kyuhyun...I let you down. I closed the book and tossed it into the back of my closet.

I don't want to know how it ends..

I got up from my bed and made my way downstairs to where Siwon was sitting at the kitchen table. I pulled out a chair across from him and slammed my head down. He didn't bother to gasp or yell because...this...this has become a regular thing. "What is it now Juli...?"

"My life is a mess oppa." He picked my head up and smiled softly. "Listen, if you're nervous about the wedding, don't be. You can always back down now and I will support you okay? Don't let appa scare you too much about disowning you. Juli, I know you will choose what's best for your heart okay?" He smiled before returning back to his original position.

He was right, I should choose what's best for my heart right? Even if it meant risking everything. Isn't that what love is...?

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