"Huuu.." You look up from the pile of your laundry and look straight to the mirror. You look pathetic, bare faced with just tank top and basic short water splashed everywhere, your hair is hair half wet. It's hideous. The most saddening fact is that your boyfriend right now maybe looking dazzling, entertains million girls out there.

 

You sigh.. What is this? I should be looking so mesmerizing by now, with him as my boyfriend! I can't lose compare to those million other girls!! What should I do? Should I have more hair treatment? Or suction somewhere? What would Stella do? What she's usually did when she's not with Siwon? She has a killer body. You unconsciously touch your belly, to grab on a layer of fat. Deflated, you pout. Work out?

 

And you finally get into vikram yoga again just before you planned to go on spa.

 

"Shin representative.. You come to the class at last." The famous lifestyle magazine editor in chief, Miss Yoo (who usually got into the same yoga class as you and know about Siwon too) talks to you while you put back your shirt when all you are wearing just your sports bra and yoga pants. The class was too hot you open your shirt in the middle of the class just like most of the participants.

 

"Yes.. I.. I've been really busy so..."

 

"Siwon sshi, how's he doing?" She asks you so relax. While her friends behind her directly put all of their attention to you after they heard Siwon.

 

"He's fine..." Satisfied, The magazine editor smirks at your answer. Oops. "Well he's in the world tour and everybody must take a good care of him, I think he should be fine. It doesn't always mean that I.." You knew you just dig your own grave if you let out more lies because the magazine editor smiles to her friends.

 

"Okay.. I just curious about him anyway. By the way, we have a get together next Thursday. I wish you would join us." You just open your mouth to decline, but she cuts you off, "You can't turn it down now, not after you say no to the last hundreds of our offers before. Beside, I heard your friend already get back to US. It's time to mingle around people in your circle." She turns all nice when said those last sentence. "I've got your number and office number anyway."

 

"Well okay.." You have no choice. It just get together anyway.

 

"Okay.. See you around." She turns around. "See.." She whispers to her friends beside her, "... close with Siwon..." You couldn't catch what the rest of her conversation.

 

You didn't put back your shirt and do stretching while bury you face on your knees on the process instead. Ottohke?? What if she published it?? You hope you can just melt and disappear into this hot wooden floor.

 

You'll talk to Siwon once he had time to talk for hours with you. Which the opportunity doesn't seem to come in a near future. He's just got the chance to meet you before you go the office or lunch. Both only an hour or two.

 

"Oppa. Should we watch something tonight? After you got home." You ask him through the phone. "In your home or mine, I'll cook something. Or we can just running at night."

 

"I have a appointment with the director and actors today. I don't know what time I'll finished drinking with them." He sighs. "Run together with you and Bugsy seems like fun though. Lately I never took him to the spa or something. Jiwon is too busy herself for taking care of him."

 

"Ehm.. Since I have time tonight, I'll pick him up from Jiwon eonni's house and take him to the spa, and wait for you at your home. If it's too late and you're not home yet, then I'll run together with him. I'll get him to you tomorrow morning."

 

"Oh? But then both of you just going to have fun without me." Siwon sounds dispirited.

 

"Then try to get home faster. Otherwise, be prepared that Bugsy and I will cheat on you."

 

Siwon is just laugh, "Miss you.."

 

"Me too.. Try to get home early. If you can't we still can meet up tomorrow morning anyway."

 

 

You called Jiwon to pick bugsy up but she's not home yet but she told you the aunty will handed him to you instead. So you assume that no one will be in the house when you'd there, but as you park on the street side. A black sedan with unusual car plat also pull up right in front of the gate. Siwon's mom gets off from it.

 

"Oh, what are you doing here?"

 

"Ommoni, anyeonghaseyo.." You bow deeply, maybe too deep than always, it's the first time you meet her after you officially an item with Siwon. "Siwon oppa wants to run with Bugsy but he still doing some schedule right now. So I'll take Bugsy to the grooming salon first." Siwon's mom acknowledged it so she leads you the way inside. "Jiwon eonni already told the aunty to prepare the carrier and leash.. So.."

 

"Oh really?" She calls the aunty and tells her things to do. Both of you just stand in the living room, waiting. "You're not working today? You have so many times to takes bugsy to a spa."

 

You're near to impolitely agape but manage to quickly turn it into a smile. With this blazer and tight skirt, everybody could easily notice you're a worker. "Oh no I finish my job for today. I just drive by from the office."

 

"Aah.. By the way, Siwon often talk about tea for cold you made for him. I made him one, but he insisted it's not it. I'm sure it's jujube though." Siwon's mother then puts her coat and walk around the dining room.

 

You couldn't help but following her. "It's not jujube ommoni.. Just ginger, cinnamon, cloves and anything available."

 

"Just ginger? And Siwon likes herbs now?"

 

"I think so, he couldn't really eat much these days so.. I think he needs to drink more healthier."

 

Bugsy is all set in the carrier cage when the aunty gives him to you. "Oh here comes Bugsy.." You quickly take the carrier cage. "Hello bugsy.. Oh why are you so quite?" You reach in the cage to rub bugsy's fur.

 

"Alright then.. Please set the table for dinner, Siwon's dad is going to be here soon." Siwon's mom tell the aunty right after she took care of bugsy first.

 

"Then I'll be get going ommoni.."

 

"What? But the dinner is just going to be served."

 

"No, it's okay.. I don't want to be such troublesome. Have a great time, ommoni.." You bow to her and the aunty. "So then, I'm going.. Good bye." You bow again.

 

"Oh oh, okay." She walks you out of the house. Then she left dumbfounded in front of her door. "Did she just come here without bringing anything and left without doing anything?" She asks the aunty. The aunty just slightly bow and lead their way back to the dining room. "What now? She only care about Siwon?"

 

The aunty just sighs. "Siwon goon loves her mam. They're just young lover, that's why." But as soon as Siwon's mom glares, "Yes.. I'll set up the dinner."

 

 

 

While waiting Bugsy getting his spa, you go shopping in the nearby supermarket for the dinner and tons of fruit for Siwon. After all of that, both of you drive away to Siwon's own apartment.

 

"Mwoya igge?" You look around at his kitchen where he stocked so many canned food. "He said he only eats healthy food for the muscle. What the hell is this." You look at the canned chicken s, canned fish, canned vegetables and canned fruits one by one.

 

You call him with your iPhone on speaker while preparing the dishes. Ready to scold him. But he's not answering. You bet he already started mingling with his movie's colleagues. "Bugsy ya. Look how your dad lives. Look at this heartless food. Even you eat better than him right? You always showered with love anyway.." You cleans all the fruits and put it in the fridge. Bugsy enjoys following you round and round in the kitchen. "Bugsy ya..I'll turn on the automatic cleaner, okay? Don't chase it away." You turn on the automatic cleaner and start cooking for your dinner and breakfast at once. So tomorrow morning he just need to reheat it for a few minutes.

 

Getting late, all the dinner is served, Bugsy is now bored so he just laying around in front of the tv, but Siwon hadn't reply any of your messages nor your calls. So you decided to put all of the dinner in the fridge and go for a run in the park with Bugsy.

 

But it turn out to be boring as usual, if it's not because Bugsy is so happy to be out and free, you might be already get back to your home just after 5 minutes.

 

"Are you done? Can we get home now?" You squat down and scratch Bugsy's cheeks. Bugsy's ignoring you and looking somewhere else, "Your appa is not coming, noona already called him." You sigh and just sit in the nearest bench. "Now what should we do?" You slightly pull his leash so he comes closer but he seems more attracted to do something else and going around within the leash distance than listening to you.

 

There's a married couple who walk in front of you, still in their office attire, the woman links her arm in his man's arm. They're looking tired but smiling while talks all the way. And you absentmindedly smile to them. That must be feel nice. Through all of hard day, there's always that one person that will cheer it up no matter what. "I made the right decision, right Bugsy ya? Stay on your dad's side?" You stupidly ask Bugsy. As you look at your hand that hold Bugsy's leash, you realize that your ring on your middle finger is missing. It's a little loose from the day your mom bought for you, but it never dropped unnoticed before. Sad, you decided to take Bugsy home right now. "Come on.. It's late.. I feel more lonely surrounded by couple like this."

 

 

 

 

Kyuhyun walk into the company at late night. He had to redo some part of his song because there're change to be made. The company is quite deserted, the hall that usually filled with trainees or staff now empty. The mellow side of him suddenly relates things, It's empty, like my heart.

 

"They said teacher Park is still in music practice room. Do you want to wait at the recording room, or should we meet her first?" Asks his manager.

 

"I'll go greet her first. Hyung, you can go, you said you have to take care of something. I can do it on my own here."

 

"But I.." He's about to refuse when Kyuhyun reassures him with his gesture. "Okay. I'll pick you up at three, just call me if you done it quicker."

 

By that. Kyuhyun wandering alone in the empty building to find his vocal coach in the music practice room. He can hears people talking inside the room so he knocked beforehand.

 

"Oh, Kyuhyun ah, you already here! Wait a minute let me wrap this things up." She points out some female trainees in front of him. All of them quickly bow their deepest to Kyu.

 

"Oh no no, I just wanted to greet you. That's all. Please continue.." He bows to the vocal coach, "You've work hard.." And he nods to the female trainees. Kyuhyun is about to get out of the room when the vocal coach stop him.

 

"Kyuhyun ah, wait, stay here for a moment. Do you know them?"

 

"Yes, I know.." Kyuhyun looks at all the four female trainees, "You're preparing for your debut right?"

 

"Yes." Answer all of them in sync. Kyuhyun smiles, remembering how's his old days like. He stays in the corner of the room, chatting with Changmin in his phone while waiting for them to finished things up.

 

"Sunbaenim.. Have a water.." One of the trainees picks up her bag just beside where Khyuhyun sits. She passes a new bottle of water inside her bag to Kyu.

 

"Oh, okay. Thanks.." Caught off guard, kyuhyun just take the bottle. "You've got your title song already?"

 

"Yes.. We're working on this." She lets Kyuhyun take a look at her music sheet.

 

"Aah.. It's your part?" Kyuhyun at it closely. "It's nice.." She's politely wait there to keep him accompanied while the other still had something to do with the vocal coach. Kyuhyun's silently peeking at her while he keeps read the music sheets.

 

 

 

 

"Ya! What a life.. I got the morning call from you." Changmin's grunting while answering Kyuhyun phone call, all the way in Japan.

 

"Mwohae?" Kyuhyun's ignoring his bestfriend's rant.

 

"Going to hit the shower. We have a practice session this morning. You! What are you doing this early morning?? You're usually still in bed at this hour."

 

"I didn't get a sleep.. at all."

 

"Yah! It's that girl again isn't it?! Are you going to dwell in your broken heart forever?? Beside, you just get dumped. It's not like she run away on your wedding or something." Kyuhyun just sighs hearing at Changmin's lecture. "What she's doing anyway? Did she cheat on you?"

 

And he can't answer that. "Well, she's just.."

 

"Then move on! It's been too long.."

 

Kyuhyun keeps in silent, "Vocal coach Park tried to make me and one of the trainee date each other last night. You know, they're going to debut for a girls group soon."

 

"With Seulgi? Then do it.."

 

"She's going to debut for god sake.. God.. What do you guys thinking? Haha.."

 

Changmin laughs too, his worries lessen as Kyuhyun can jokes around like this.