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Author’s POV

It’s hard to go out with an idol.. An Idol need a perfect disguise so that he will not be recognized by his/her fans. An idol has limits.. His moves are watched.. Jonghyun is still traumatized in what happen between him and Sekyung.. He is so traumatized to what his fans did. The Blingers.. I didn’t say all Blingers but some.. They left Jonghyun’s heart wounded at that time.. Do you call that love in your idol?Why do fans are so possessive? Do they know that is normal to a person to fall in love? Even animals do experience love? Why can’t they understand it? Do they know how it feels like to be forced to be separated with your love? It is normal to fall in love.. It’s no big deal.. All people experiencing it at this moment …

Back to the story..

This is the first time Jonghyun and Ratae are left together… So this is the chance of Jonghyun to get closer to Ratae.. Jonghyun went to a restaurant that he owned..

They have a private room with her because he know that it is dangerous to be with other people… Jonghyun is still nervous..

Ratae’s POV

I can see Jonghyun oppa is so nervous.. He is not in a calm situation.. I know what he feels. It is hard to be with me.. He knows that there will be rumors that will be spread. And Shawols especially Blingers will probably kill me.. I mean not all but some.. The one that is so possessive to oppa… But I don’t want to mixed up my life to Jonghyun oppa. And I know I didn’t have a single chance to have a relationship with him.. Because you know, I’m just a simple girl. I am not that beautiful unlike others.. Especially Sekyung, I am no compare to her.. She is so beautiful, unlike me that is so ugly.. An ugly duckling who will never be a swan.. I became more ugly whenever I’m with Hwa young.. Because Hwa young is so beautiful, smart and good at all things.. But me, I’m just an average person..

And why am I comparing myself to Sekyung?Omo.. I’m not intending to have a relationship with Jonghyun oppa..

Yah.. Ratae!!~ You like KEY!!!~ YOU LIKE KEY RIGHT!!~

Author’s POV

Ratae didn’t know that is left open.. And  Jonghyun is already laughing because of her face that is dumbfounded. And Ratae suddenly notice that Jonghyun is laughing at her.. And she blushed..

Somehow because of that Jonghyun’s problem decreased..

Jonghyun’s POV

That’s why I love this girl.. She can make me happy even in her own little ways. She can help me in my problems without her noticing…

And when she notice that I was laughing at her..

There is an awkward silence..

Omo… I keep myself busy… To avoid her stares at me..

I texted my mom for my order…

No one is  allowed to enter this room in the restaurant that we are staying right now..

Because my mom is protecting my image..

Before I use to go here with Sekyung..

And  suddenly something flashback at my mind.

-Flashback-

-A DATE WITH SEKYUNG-

I am with Sekyung…

We are having our date.

This is the date the we became officially in a relationship.

A relationship that ended so soon.

A relationship wherein many Blingers cried.

A relationship who left me wounded.

A relationship full of lies.

It is a candle light dinner..

A romantic dinner for the two of us, Me and Sekyung.

I thought this will be the best memory I will have..

I still remember that there is an awkward silence when suddenly a pianist came in.

And play a song piece for us.

I can see her beautifully smiling at that time… I don’t know if it is true..

And suddenly the pianist stop..

And I do what I have planned.

[listen to this]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Z677byNPQs

And I play Hug by the Dbsk Hyungs..

Once I say I love you I think you
Would be gone, oh baby~
Cuz we are too young to love so I can say
Little long~ hold you in my arms

but I will be waiting for you
To say you want me to be with you
I'll live in your love and
Your dream forever and ever

whenever you look in my eyes
There are so many smiles and tears
I was born to love feel so deep inside.
If you need me I'll be your man
(I'll be your man)

[She smiled at me… And make me fall in love with her more at that time.. I don’t know if that time she was true to me.]

whenever you look in my eyes, 
I do want to show you my love
I make up my mind make your dreams come true. nobody can stop me to say I love you.

How can I ask who you're still looking for
I'm the one since love seems to make me blind
I try to find All day long
But I cannot hold

we talk on the phone every night
And so came closer day by day
I touch you and kiss you and hold you
To feel but in dream
whenever you look in my eyes
there are so many smiles and tears
I was born to love feel so deep inside
If you need me I'll be your man
(I'll be your man)
whenever you look in my eyes
I do want to show you my love

 I make up my mind make your
Dreams come true

nobody can stop me to say

I love you~

in my arms, in my soul
I want to hold you baby

You don't know how much I love you
Do you baby

[She blushed so much in the whole song.. Or it was just my voice.. Anybody can blushed if an idol sing for them.. Now I know.. I thought she loves me… When she blushed.]

Like a sun rising up, 
I can't stop loving you.
Can't hold back anymore~

whenever you look in my eyes
There are so many smiles and tears

I was born to love feel so deep inside
If you need me, 
I'll be your man (I'll be your man)

whenever you look in my eyes (in my eyes)
I do want to show you my love

I make up my mind make your dreams come true

nobody can stop me to say, I love you.

“Will you be my girl, Sekyung?” I said

“Amm-“ She stayed silent for a moment.

I was so nervous at that time..

And so excited what will she answer..

Now whenever I think about it I feel disgusted with myself why do I like her before?

I thought she was an angel..

But I was wrong she’s a devil.

She just care about herself.

She is so selfish..

And she answered “Yes”

I shouldn’t hear that words so I will not be hurt so much before..

I shouldn’t hear it so I will expect that she will love me back..

That’s a bad idea to fall in love with her..

I shouldn’t asked her out.

-End Of Date-

-End of Flashback-

My thoughts were cut off when suddenly Ratae say “Oppa, the food is here already..”

“Oh umma. Thanks” I said and bow

“Oh ajhumma you are Jonghyun oppa’s umma. Oh.. Nice to meet you.. Annyeonghaseyo chonun Shin Ratae-imnida” she said and bow

“Oh.. what a respectful kid.” Umma said and left.

“Oppa, your mother is so nice and beautiful.. Now I know why you are good and handsome” she said

I don’t know why.. But I feel fluttered. And I think maybe I blushed now for what she just said.

And we have silence again.. We eat.,. She is cutely eating..

I like her simplicity.

She is a lot different compared to Sekyung.

Sekyung probably at this moment will be disgusted to her.

Sekyung will probably think her as no class.

But for me it is cute.

She is cutely thinking.

“Oppa, Do I have a problem with my face?” She said while wiping .

I was looking at her intensely that’s why she said that.

And we’re done eating.

“Oppa,I have a question?” she asked

“What is it? You can ask me anything.hm” I said

“Oppa, why do you broke up with Sekyung?” she said

I was shocked with her question.

Probably, If she asked me this question long ago..

I’ll probably going to cry at that moment.

“Amm..-“ I was cut off  by her.

“It’s okay oppa, If you don’t answer. It must be a painful memory to you.” She said and caressed my face.

She froze when I stare at her. And she immediately remove her hand. When she realized we’re so close to each other.

“It is like this-“ I said

-Flashback-

It was before Shinee Girl.

I went with Sekyung in a date.

She is in her unusual shape.

She became good to me..

She didn’t treat me as a dog today.

I think this change will be good but not.

This is the sign of my sorrow.

“Amm.. Sekyung you’re different. Are you sick?” I said and check her temperature in the neck.

“Or maybe I’m just hallucinating or dreaming” I said and slapped my face.

“Jonghyun. Stop” She said annoyed.

And I immediately stopped.

And watch her.

And look what will she do.

“It’s like this Jonghyun. I never thought we will go this far. We both benefit each other. To tell you the truth my plan for the first place is to use to you to gain more popularity but as days go by-“ she said but I cut her off.

“You started to like me to.” I asked

“No. It’s not like that. As days go by, I try to have a thick face. I endure it. Until now, But I can’t hold it anymore. I feel so guilty right now. So I’m leaving you right now” she said

“Hahaha.” I laughed to hide my feelings I feel like to cry.

“So you mean all those kisses,touches and words are all lies.And those feelings are just imagined by me..Pinched me.. You are joking me.. This is only a dream.” I said

“Jonghyun this is reality.” She said an innocently A devil who looks like an angel.

“Jonghyun calm down” She said as I angrily throw my chair.

“Let’s broke up.. I like to have a good closure.” She said

“YOU LIAR.. LEAVE ME ALONE..I CAN’T STAY WITH A STINGY PERSON LIKE YOU..LEAVE.. YOU LIAR..A DEVIL WHO DRESSED LIKE AN ANGEL” I said and pushed her away from me.

-end of flashback-

“So that what happens, it’s so tragic oppa.” She said as she wipe my tears away.

“Oppa, you know that person doesn’t deserve your love. She just waste your time, effort and especially love. As I hear your story, I think you love her so much. And do you know, oppa I pity you at the time the fans hurt you because of Sekyung. They’re so mean.. It’s normal for a person to fall in love.. They’re to possessive. I wish you oppa, to have a girl who is deserving of your love. Oppa, Do you still love Sekyung?”she continued

My heart races. And it goes doki doki.

“amm. No.. I love a different girl right now” I said

“Amm.. Who is she? Do I know her?” she said curiously

 If only you know It was you.. But I can’t tell you right now.

“Amm.. Secret.. I will let her meet you at the right time” I said and smirked.

“Amm.. Oppa..I have curfew” She said as she look at her watch..

“I’m going already. See you next time” she said quickly

Author’s POV

Suddenly a pair of two hands stop her.

“Don’t leave alone” Jonghyun said

And her heart races, and she blushed eventually.

“I will drive you home. And it’s dangerous.” Jonghyun said

“Okay , oppa” she said

And Jonghyun drive her home.

And suddenly Jonghyun open his sound system.

And it play:

[Listen to this]:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=smPnT4YstkQ

The Story Has Just Begun

(Ije Mak Shijakttwen Iyagi)
Dong Bang Shin Ki / TVXQ / ToHoShinKi

Meoritsogeul gadeug chaeun 
Ggeuniji anneun senggagdeul
Teoreonoheul su itdamyeon 
Ddo eormana joheurgga eormana pyeonanhejirgga 

(The never-ending thoughts that fills my head
How nice would it be If only I could empty it out
How peaceful would it be)

Jonghyun’s Thoughts “If only I can say to her right now that I love her. But this is not the right time because I want her to know me more. And I want to know her more.And I don’t want to destroy our friendship”

Ratae’s Thoughts “I want to know what Jonghyun oppa thinks. Why do I blushed awhile ago? Why do my heart skips a beat. Why do I feel awkward right now. I can’t look at him now.”

Eonjena neoreul jikyeobomyeonseo 
Geu gyeoteul memdormyeonseo 
Ssahadoeotdeon iyagideul

(The stories I built up while circling you, while watching you)

Jonghyun’s Thoughts “I wish we can be more than friends when it is already at the right time.When I already planned to confess to her. But will that be possible? I can just daydream about it.But I cannot bring it to life”

Ratae’s Thoughts “ I feel there is something within me, who wants to know oppa more”

Geogjeonghaji ma, neon hal su isseo 
Mueoshideun neon hal su isseo 
Ije mak shijagdwen iyagi, iyagi

(Don't worry, you can do it
You can do anything
The story that just begun, 
The story that just begun)

Jonghyun’s Thoughts “Omo.It feels like the hyungs are talking to me. Are they cheering me up? Omo. I feel weird right now. Hyungs, Thanks for cheering me up.. I won’t lose , but promise me you won’t lose hope to. Promise to Believe. DBSK is FIVE. Okay, remember I’m one in the red sea. I’m one of your Cassiopeia.”(A/N:Hahaha.. Just feels like to put it)

Ratae’s Thoughts “Omo.. Oppas are you saying that I can know him more?”

Gaseum sogeul gadeug chewoon 
Ggeutnaji anneun noredeul

(The never-ending songs that fill my heart)

Deurryeojul suga itdamyeon 
Ddo eormana joheurgga eormana areumdawurgga

(How nice would it be if only I could sing it for you
How beautiful would it be)

Jonghyun looked at her. While Ratae is browsing her phone.

Ireoghe neoreul gidarimyeonseo 
Geu gyeoteul ggumggumyeonseo 
Ssahaduotdeon noredeureul

(The songs I built up while waiting for you like this 
While dreaming about you)

Jonghyun’s Thoughts “ Oh I remember.. I am composing a song for her, a song that I gave my fullest. So I’m not yet finished with it. I’m not so satisfied with it. So I edit and edit”

Geogjeonghaji ma, neon gal su isseo 
Eodiyedeun neon gal su isseo 
Ije mak noon ape pyeorchyeojin jageun gil

(Don't worry, you can go
You can go anywhere
A small road that just appeared in front of you)

“Oppa,we’re here” she said

“Ah, oh yes” Jonghyun said

Jonghyun lift the lock up.

Naui soneul jaba jwo 
(Naui soneul jaba jwo) 
Nega neol neuggil su itge
(Nega neol neuggil su itge) 

(Hold me hand (hold my hand) 
So that I can feel you (so that i can feel you)
If only I can do that (if only i can do that)
Be like this forever (be like this forever))

 But suddenly push he pushed it back. And stop her from going.

“Why oppa?” She said and suddenly blushed when she heard the lyrics of the song.

“Amm. I just want to say goodbye.. And can we meet again in another time? I want to be friends with you.” Jonghyun said

“Okay oppa. Friends?” she said and shake hands with Jonghyun

“Friends” Jonghyun said and smiled”

“Bye” Jonghyun said and lift the lock up. And open the car.

“Bye” she said and wave and Jonghyun wave back. He didn’t go until she disappeared from his sight.

Geureol suman itdamyeon 
(Geureol suman itdamyeon) 
Idero yeongwonghi 
(Idero yeongwonhi)

(Listen to my song (listen to my song) 
So that I can dream of you (so that i can dream of you)
If only I can do that (if only i can do that)
Be like this forever (be like this forever))

Geogjeonghaji ma, neon hal su isseo 
Eodiyedeun neon gal su isseo
Noonape pyeorchyeojin ee gireun 
Ije shijagdwen iyagi, iyagi

(Don't worry, you can do it
You can go anywhere
The road that appeared in front of you,
Is the story that just begun, the story that just begun)

“THE STORY HAS JUST BEGUN” Jonghyun said and sigh.

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Omo..It's Intramurals in our school next next week. So exhausted.

We have dance practices and games. :'(