Dear Diary,

It's me again. Today has been another day where I just want to cry about everything.

I hate being so melodramatic but it really feels like my life is spiraling out of my control.

I'm not sure of what I should do anymore. It's just getting harder for me to continue living this facade, 

tricking myself into believing, everything is okay...

But really, it's not.

What should I do?

Oh, something good did happen today though. 

I met a boy. He smiled at me in the hallway during school...

it made me feel a sense of hope, and without even thinking... I, I smiled back.

I've heard the other girls talk about him before.

I think his name is Lay.