You have no right to say that you love me. You have no right to beg for my forgiveness. You left without a word, and now you say you want me back? What did you expect me to do? Wait for you until you were ‘sure’? You never had a clue as to what you really wanted. You still don’t.

You don’t deserve me. You never did. I loved you with all of my heart, but you never cared. I cried and you laughed at me. I was hurting yet you still smiled. Now that I’ve moved on, you’re trying to tear my world apart again. Why couldn’t you have just stayed away? Why did you have to come back?

I could have gone days, years, decades, without you in my life! I was done waiting. I was done believing you would ever come back to me. I was so sure of everything, but now that you’re here, I don’t know what to do anymore.

More than anything, I want to believe you. I really do, but my heart hurts far too much to be able to love you the way I did back then. I’m not capable of that kind of love anymore. I’m done with the tears. I’m done with the drama. But most of all I’m done wishing for something I know I will never have.

Back then, if you asked me to make a wish there was only one thing I would have said: “I wish for forever with you.”