Boa's Entry #6

I run off. Away from them. They don’t have any idea. My freedom. I can finally see it.

The graveyard. That’s where I belong. Beside my parents’ tombs. How I miss them.

We finally meet again. Tears are falling. It doesn’t stop. I just can’t hold it back anymore. My baby. I’m sorry you got involved. I don’t want you to suffer. I’ll end both of our lives. That’s for the better.

I get the knife from my bag. I laugh. My life. Why did I live? It’s just too much. I aim the tip on my stomach. I’m already a terrible mother. I’m really sorry.

Footsteps. Many of them. I become nervous. I’m about to look back…cloth covers my mouth. Formalin. Pitch-dark.

No! Stop it!

Say goodbye to your parents. Then succeeding gunshots. My father falls on the ground. So is my mother. I’m terrified. I run to them.

Be with him. The last words my father utter. I shake my head. Don’t leave me. Please don’t leave me.

He closes his eyes. He is gone. The same as my mother. I’m alone. Someone the gun. It’s that monster. I know he’s smirking back at me. I turn to him. I’m right. A geezer.

I don’t understand. He’s about to pull the trigger. But his son blocks me. Jaejoong. What are you doing?!

Don’t kill her. Please. I love her.

Lies. His words. They are all lies. But I believe him at first. What a fool I am.

They all leave…except for him. He looks at me. Again with those eyes. How disturbing. I slap him. Is this the way he loves me? For my loved ones to die...

I’m in the room again. A dream. The scenes were real. What happened? I was in the cemetery. How come…probably his men. They brought me here.

He enters the room. Why did you leave?! He yells at me. It’s the first. I become startled.

‘You made me worry. Don’t do it again. I can’t live without you’ His tone becomes soft. Easy to say but hard to understand. Nice words but don’t have any effect on me…or so I thought.

I’m sorry.

Fail. Why did I say that? He smiles. I’m doomed.