"I really really really love you... Kris" Tao stuttered. He felt all choked up, with his overwhelming feelings and tears.

Kris looked up, smiled and turned back to the CD on the desk and finished signing it. "Thank you.." He closed the CD cover and gave it back to the fanboy with dark circles under his eyes (that made him strangely look like a cute panda) with a warm smile on his face. "Please keep supporting us... hmm?"

The fanboy, Kris noticed, had a well built body behind that thin black sweater and v-neck of the same colour. He looked like an emo boy but didn’t look scary in Kris's eyes, he looked cute. Could he say that to the boy who came with a dragon plushie and a shy smile plastered on his face?

"Tao. My name is Huang Zi Tao. And I really really really mean it. What I said earlier." Tao bit his lower lip. Tears hung onto his eyes and he wiped it roughly before they fell. "Sorry, I just.. I just..."

Kris nodded, and gave him an understanding smile. "It's okay Tao. Thank you for coming to our fansigning"

Tao was about to jump onto Kris' lap when he heard his name come out from his idol's, no, his only love's mouth; when a staff came to him and told him to leave because the queue was stuck because of him. Tao halfheartedly left the place with the already signed CD on his hands.

Tao hugged it tightly as he looked up at the desk where the guy he loved sat behind it and gave his smile to another fan. He heard the other tell him how much they loved him, Tao sneered. They just love you because of your looks. Not like me who would love you no matter what you look like and what you are, Kris.

Tao couldn't take his eyes off of Kris, who kept smiling and greeting the fans happily. His heart was aching. It boiled him in anger to see how nice Kris treated another person.

Tao was supposed to know, that it was stupid for being jealous over an idol who had million fans that loved him and adorde him. But Tao was really really really fell in love with Kris. He fell, because it did hurt to love Kris. It hurt him so much because he knew his love was foolish.

Kris did not even know him, even if Tao told his name to Kris earlier, he wouldn't remember Tao at all now. Tao might have been completely erased from Kris's memory. Tao knew it all.

But he still loved Kris with all his heart.

Everyone told him that he was a fool to love an idol like that. He used to be called crazy amongst his friends for being too distracted by an 187cm tall half canadian rapper. Everyone told him that it was just a crazy obsession in his young age, and that it was just a phase.

But Tao insisted that it wasn’t.

He knew how it felt when his heart fluttered everytime he heard Kris's name being mentioned by someone. He knew how crazy his heart would beat when he saw Kris, even if it was just on the TV screen or in a magazine. He knew how the butterflies in his stomach tickled him when he heard that magically voice come from his earphone everytime he played EXO-M's songs. He knew it all from Kris, a new experience that he had never known before he knew Kris.

Kris was the one who showed him what is love.

Tao smiled when Kris and the rest of the band waved when the signing session ended.

But then the tears started pouring from his eyes.

Tao could feel his heart ache like it was getting stabbed by million knifes.

And Kris was the one who showed him what it was like to have a broken heart as well.

"Thank you for coming guys! I love you all!!"

It was Kris's voice. It was the voice from the one who could make Tao happy just by hearing it. Tao was supposed to be happy instead of crying right?

"I love you! I REALLY REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU WU YIFAN!!!" Tao screamed.

The fangirls around him turned to look at him with surprise, but it didn't matter because.. Kris looked at him too.

Kris smiled and raised his thumb.

Tao smiled back with tears overflowing onto his cheeks.

Tao knew that his love was foolish. Tao knew that there was no way Kris would return his feelings towards him. Tao knew that forever, Kris wouldn't be his.

But it was okay.

Because like what John Green said, "There's some people in the world who you can just love and love and love no matter what"

And Tao thought that Kris would probably be amongst those people.

And him? Tao would probably be the person who could only love and love and love Kris no matter what.

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