Hey yo guys I'm back again. Sorry for the late update. I've been busy about my school. but now, I have a long holiday. so yeah I will  try to update as soon as possible. And this is the story about myungyeon again. hope you don't get boring and please enjoy it. Kamsahamnida

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-All Myungsoo's POV-

 

I was ready to pack my stuffs. Today, I will move to a new house. I put all my necessary stuffs like  clothes, my favorite books and some of photo album of mine and my friends and family into my luggage. I almost done my job when I saw that wooden box. It was laid out onto my  cabinet. I walked near it and took it. Then, I walked to my bed and sat on it. I put that wooden box on my lap and staring at it for a moment. I was hesitate to open it. With a huge sigh, I finally opened that box. There it was, I saw many things inside it. The things who reminded me about her. About my first and forever love, Jiyeon.

 

-flashback-

 

“Jiyeona, I want to tell you something.” I looked at the young pretty girl in front of me.

 

“what is it myung-ah?” she asked me with curious.

 

I took my breath before I ready to speak. Today, I was prepared myself to tell her the truth. The truth that I am falling for her. All this time, I always keep my feeling and never had any courage to confess her. It wasn’t because I was a coward, but I already knew that she had falling for another person. She was madly in love with our childhood friend, Nam Woohyun . She loves him with all her heart and broken heart after Woohyun left her to move to the State.

 

I couldn’t stand seeing her crying everyday after Woohyun’s left. She, who used to be a very bubbly and happy girl, turned to be a silent one. She never speak too much like she always did. She always pretends that she was happy and showed her bright smile, but I knew that was just a fake. I knew she was so hurt, but she pretended to be strong in front of many people. That’s why I think it’s the best time for me to tell her my feeling towards her. I didn’t mean to take an advantage in her tough time. I only wanted to heal the wound in her heart and made her happy like she used to be.

 

So here we are, I told her to meet me in our favorite cafe where we always hanging out together. I had planned to confess her in this place.

 

I gathered all my courage and tried to look deeply into her eyes. Suddenly, I became so nervous. Her eyes was so hypotizing. I couldn’t focus with what I was trying to say. That wide and beautiful eyes of hers really made me gone crazy. My heart always skipped a beat everytime those eyes met with mine. “focus Kim Myungsoo. You can do this!” I shook my head and tried to get back my sense. Then, I held her hand. I didn’t know where I got that gut of mine. I just felt want to do it, so maybe it can help me to say everything to her, just maybe. I could see the uncomfortable in her face when I held her hand. But I didn’t care, I kept holding her hand anyway.

 

“jiyeona, I... I know this is sounded crazy for you. Actually I want to say this since years ago, but I never had a chance to say it. It was because I was afraid that it will break our realationship as a good friend.” I began to start my confession. I knew Jiyeon was wondering my action because her face looked so confuse. God damn it! She was so cute even when she was confused like that. No wonder I crazy in love with her, hehe. I continued my words. “Ji, I.. actually I.. I think I’m falling in love with you. No, I mean I’m really in love with you. I’m madly in love with you. Could you be my.. lover?” Yes!! finally I confessed her. It was so hard for me but I made it. Thank God you sent me some courages to tell this lovely girl in front of me about my true feeling towards her. But still, I couldn’t feel relief yet. I still had to hear what Jiyeon’s answer for my honest confession.

 

I could see the shock expression in her face when she heard my confession just now. She then looked like she was thinking of what she would to say for the answer of my sudden confession. Meanwhile, I patiently waiting her answer with my mix feeling in my haert. To be honest, I was so afraid that she would reject me. But whatever is her answer, I will accept it even it’ll break my heart.

 

After a moment, I felt Jiyeon loosing her hand from my grip. “myung-ah.. mianhae. But you know very well that I still love woohyun oppa. I still can’t forget him. He is my first love after all and it’s hard for me to open my heart and find another love. I..”

 

“I understand Jiyeon. I’m sorry if I trouble you with my feeling. I can accept it. Anyway, love isn’t something that we can force, right? Just forget about this stupid confession and pretend that I never said all I said to you before. And let’s just be friend like we always be.” I cut her off and gave her a slighty smile. I just didn’t have a gut to hear what she would to say. I knew this will be happened like this. I knew she would reject me for sure. Woohyun was her love and will be her forever love. But, eventhough I knew she will reject me in the first place, I just couldn’t bear this pain in my heart. I was really hurt like there were so many knives stabbed it.

 

“YAH! Why did you cut me off? I haven’t done my words yet.” I heard Jiyeon’s yelling at me. I got startled and looked at her. “what?”

 

She sighed. “why are you so full of yourself, myungsoo ah? You should let me finish my words first.”

 

“but didn’t you want to reject me, did you?”

 

“there you are! You always make your own conclusion, don’t you know that?” she scolded me.

 

“then, what did you want to say me just now?” I asked her curiously. Suddenly I felt there was a little hope for me.

 

“Listen! Just now, I wanted to say you that I still love oppa and can’t forget him.” I felt drop hearing this. “but..” wait! Did she just say but? I nervously listen to her. “but.. I have to move on. I had been in pain for almost a year since woohyun oppa left me. I always try to be strong and wait for him to comeback. But it seems like he will never comeback to me. He never once call me or send me a message or email that tell me about anything, even how’s his life, is he doing fine or not he never told me that. So, I think there is no reason for me to keep waiting for him. I mean, I still have my life, so does him. Maybe, it is not our destiny to be together. So, I’ve made up my mind. I decide to move on and open my heart again. I’ll open my heart for a new love. And I already found it. My new love, it’s you myungsoo.” She finished her sentence.

 

“What? Did you say that you.. you.. I” I couldn’t get my mind since I was too shock hearing what she just said.

 

“Yes. I love you myungsoo” she said with her angelic smile

 

“is it real? I’m not dream right?” I asked her, made sure I wasn’t miss heard her words. She just nodded and gave me smile “so we are a couple now?” I asked her excited.

 

She chuckled and nodded. “yes we are”

 

“Woah, finally my dream comes true. Park Jiyeon is mine. Yah! Everybody’s here, Listen! This beautiful girl in front of me, she is mine now.” I shamlessly yell to everyone in that cafe. They stared at us and started murmuring something. I didn’t know what they were talking about and I didn’t care because I was too happy.

 

“yah pabo! What are you doing? You make me embrassed, you stupid.” Jiyeon scolded me for my action. I could see her face turning red because of embrassement

 

“hehe, mian. I am too happy and just can’t control myself.” I scracthed my neck and smiling like an idiot.

 

“you’re so hopeless myungsoo.” Jiyeon commented and shook her head. But then she smiled.

 

-End of Flashback-

 

It was the happiest day in my life. After waiting for along time, I finally got her heart and made her be my lover. We were a happy couple back then. Jiyeon could always make me smile and happy everytime she was beside me. I always felt grateful because I had her. She was just like a shooting star that granted my wish, made me had nothing to ask to God, because I already got my wish. I had her, and it was more than enough.

 

I stared back to the wooden box on my lap. Then, I saw a piece of picture in it. It was a picture of us. In that picture we were smiling happily like there was no tomorrow. I remembered that day when I took that picture with her. It was our date after being a couple for almost three months.

 

-Flasback-

 

“oppa let’s play that one.” Said Jiyeon excited while pointing at one of ritt spill in that place. We were at amusement park to have a date. Yes, she call me oppa now and my heart still couldn’t stop melting everytime I heard her call me oppa

 

“What? Marry go round? No Jiyeonie, I don’t want to.” I shook my head and refused to play marry go round. What on earth she wanted me to play that kind of game. It’s really not cool.

 

“please oppa!” she begged me, showing her puppy eyes. Kyaaa kiyowo!!!! But don’t fall for her cuteness Myungsoo. Remember! Marry go round is for a kids and it is not cool at all. “No jiyeonie, I dont want to ride that. It just for kids and it’s not cool at all.”

 

“Yah! Do you think I’m a kid?” there she goes, started sulking.

 

“No! That’s not what I said. I just...”

 

“I don’t care. You’re so annoying Kim Myungsoo. I hate chu.” She shouted and started walking away.

 

Oh Great! What have you done Myungsoo? Now, you make her sulking. Otthoke?? my baby dino is so scary when she is sulking.

 

“jiyeonie wait me!” I yelled and chased her, but she didn’t care and kept walking. “jiyeonie please forgive me! okay, let’s play marry go round.” I tried to persuade her so that she will stop sulking.

 

“No!  I’m not in the mood to play anymore. I wanna go home.” She shouted

 

“please jiyeonie, don’t be like this. I know I was wrong. So stop sulking please.” I begged her before she turned to be an angry dinosaur.

 

Finally she stopped walking. She turned her body to face me. Then, she stared at me fiercely and crossing her arms on her chest. “I’ll forgive you with one condition.” She said and made a pose. Seriously, she was too cute with her sulking face and that pose of hers. I couldn’t help but chuckled.

 

“YAH why are chuckling? what so funny, huh?” she shouted and pouted. Another cute expression of hers.

 

I hurried shook my head before she became really angry. “no, it’s nothing. And what’s the condition you are talking about?” I asked her while holding my chuckling.

 

“oh that..” she paused and thinking of something. “I want you to treat me ice cream. A huge cup of ice cream.” She said and  moving her hand to draw a circle symbol to show me how big cup of ice cream she want to eat.

 

I smiled. This kind of thing that I really like from her the most. She was not just bubbly and cheerful. She aslo had so many charms and cuteness that I can’t resist.

 

“okay, Kajja! we get your ice cream.” I held her hand and lead her to the nearby ice cream parlour in that place.

 

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“yah, eat it slowly, there is no one will steal your ice cream anyway.” I grinned looking how’s Jiyeon ate her ice cream. “look! your face is messed up because the ice cream. You’re such a kid jiyeonie.” I took some tissues and wiped the ice cream on her face.

 

“thank you?” she said in her cute voice. I couldn’t help but blushing madly.

 

“stop using your aegyo. It’ll kill me sooner or later.”

 

“kekeke, you love it, don’t you?” she teased me.

 

“ne.. I love it. I love it very much. Happy?”

 

“ne.. I love you too myungsoo.” She kissed my cheeks and once again, I blushed.

 

“look you’re blushing!” she teased me again. “you’re always blushing when I kiss you oppa. that’s the cute side of you. I like it” She praised me.

 

“jinjja?” she simply nodded. “Jiyeonie, can I ask you something?”

 

“what is that?”

 

“do you still can’t forget Woohyun?” Oh great! What on earth suddenly I brought out this topic in our date. Stupid Myungsoo. I mentally cursed myself.

 

Jiyeon didn’t give any response. She’s just quite. I knew she was hurt again because I mentioned woohyun’s name. The name that she tried to forget. I felt regret because of what I said.

 

“are you serious want to know?” finally she spoke.

 

“uhm.. honestly, yes.” I told her the truth. For these past three months since we were officially became a couple. I’ve been curious does she still thinking about woohyun or not. It didn’t like I doubt her feeling toward me, I just curious. That’s all.

 

“Ne.. I’m still thinking about him sometimes. You know, it’s been my habit to think about him and loving him.” DANG! Her words really made me down. I felt little bit dissapointed hearing her honest confession. But I couldn’t blame her. I was the one who bringing this topic in the first palce. “mianhae, oppa. I know you must be disappointed of me. but, I just can’t help it. I thought, it’s easy to forget him after I have you. But I can’t resist his image who always comes to my dream.” She continued with guilty expression in her face.

 

I took her hand and held it. “it’s okay jiyeonie. It’s my fault because bringing this issue. I fully understand how’s your feeling towards him. After all he is your first love.” I tried to assure her.

 

“thank you oppa. You’re so kind to me.” she said, smiling.

 

I smiled back. “but promise me something!”

 

“what?”

 

“you will never leave me. I really afraid that someday you will leave me, jiyeonie. I don’t want it to happen. I don’t know what will happen to me if you leave me.” I told her. Ne.. I really love her and I don’t want she leave me.

 

She tighten her grip and looked into my eyes deeply. “I will never leave you oppa, no matter what happen. I promise.” She said. I could see the sincerity in her eyes when she said that.

 

“then, what if woohyun hyeong’s back and ask you to be his lover again?”

 

“I will reject him immediately and ask him to back to the State.”

 

“if I found another cute girl and has interest in her?”

 

“Then, I will kick her out from your life.”

 

“what if..”

 

“I will always be with you and stick with you. And if you try to go from me, I will chase you until you are back to me. I will be with you forever and  never let you go from me, arasseo!” she said it with her annoyed face after getting teased by me.

 

“hahaha, ara ara. don’t be angry okay.” I laughed knowing she annoyed of my teasing.

 

“stop teasing me and let’s take a photo together.” She asked me.

 

she took her camera. And, one two three

 

KLIK

 

We were smiling ear to ear in that photo.

 

-End of Flashback-

 

I was smiling when I remembered that moment. We were so happy and there was nothing could separate us. I was happy when I knew how was her feeling to me. I was happy knowing she wouldn’t leave me no matter what happen. But, the happiness didn’t happen for a long time. Only few days after our date, that bad thing happened. The thing that made my life became misearable. The thing that made me living in suffer. Jiyeon broke her promise, she left me.

 

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-Flashback-

 

I was really shock when got a news that woohyun cameback to Korea. Out of sudden, I got a bad feeling. The image of losing Jiyeon suddenly popped up in my mind. I shook my head. “No, It will not happen. Jiyeon won’t leave me and back to woohyun. She has promised me.” I said, calming myself.

 

I quickly grabbed my phone and tried to call Jiyeon. I waited for a moment for her to answer my call. After some minutes, she answer my call.

 

“yeoboseyo!” I heard a voice greted me. but it wasn’t her voice. It’s a guy’s voice

 

“yeoboseyo. Who is this?” I asked the guy who was speaking to me.

 

“oh Myungsoo ah. this is Hyojoon.” I felt relief. I thought the one who was speaking to me was woohyun. Luckily it was hyojoon, Jiyeon’s elder brother.

 

“Oh joon-ah. Where is Jiyeon?”

 

“she is going with woohyun.”

 

DEG! My heart’s stopped when I heard his answer. “oh.. thank you joon.” I said weakly and ended up the call. I coudn’t think straightly. My mind suddenly full of worried and afraid. What if woohyun ask her to ber her lover again? What if Jiyeon accept him and leave me for him. That’s the only think that came to my mind. I wouldn’t let it happen. So, I decided to look for Jiyeon and Woohyun. The first place that came to my mind about where they might be, was at our favorite cafe. I quickly took my car’s key and drove to that cafe.

 

I was right, when I got to that cafe, I saw a familiar figure. It was Jiyeon and she was with someone. I coudn’t see who was the one who was with her. I only could see his back. But I was sure he was woohyun.

 

I came to approached her when I saw that scene that made me froze. Jiyeon was hugging woohyun. They hugged for about two minutes and it was like years for me. it hurted me so bad looking her hugging another person, and it’s woohyun who was she hugged with. Woohyun, the guy who she love the most. Woohyun, her first love and my forever rival.

 

After they released their hug, woohyun bid his goodbye and left Jiyeon. i was still frozen. I couldn’t belive that Jiyeon could do that thing, she... was just broke her promise to me. she left me and choose woohyun. I didn’t realized that my tears had started rolling down. I felt my heart was hurting so much. I never felt this kind of pain before. I felt like I was dying.

 

“oppa!” Jiyeon exclaimed when she finally saw me. I snapped back from my thought and looked at her. She was the same as me before, she was stoned in her place. Maybe, she realized that I saw that scene when he hugged woohyun and now she was guilty of it. “oppa, it isn’t like what you’re thinking. I and woohyun oppa...” she approached me and tried to explained me everything.

 

“Stop that! I don’t want to hear everything. It was so obvious for me” I cut her. “So, you want to back with him. Then, just do it! Just do what you wanna do, and I will never disturb you again.” I said before I walked away from that place, leaving her who  was also crying.

 

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“Oppa!! Oppa!!” I heard Jiyeon kept calling my name when I walked out from the cafe. She tried to chase me but I just ignored her. “oppa please wait me!” she yelled loudly, making everyone who was passing by in that street looking at her.

 

I hesitated a little but then I stopped my pace. Then, I felt someone held my wrist. I knew it was her. “please look at me and listen to my explanation.” She said. I could hear her voice was little bit cracked. I turned my body and faced her. I looked at her coldly, something that I never done to her before. “everything that you saw in the cafe, it was all just misunderstanding. There was nothing happen with us. please turst me!” she said seriously.

 

“then, what about the hug. If there was nothing happen with both of you, why you hugged him that long.” I replied. I coudn’t stand my jealousy everytime I remembered that scene of her hugging woohyun.

 

“There you are again! Didn’t I tell you before to not making your own conclusion before you know everything clearly. Yes, I hugged him but I have a reason for that. Woohyun oppa asked me to be his girlfriend again...”

 

“what?” I suddenly shouted

 

“listen to me first!” she scolded me for cutting her words. “he asked me to be his girlfriend again, but I rejected him. I told him that I have another person that has been in my heart. I told you that I have you. He understands and said that he wants to back to State again so I hugged him. It was just an ordinary hug, a farewell hug.” She explained me everything.

 

“so it was like that?” I still couldn’t fully trust her explaination.

 

“Yes, it was like that. Oppa, I have promised you before that I will never leave you. Why you don’t trust me. I...” she couldn’t continue her words because she was crying. I felt regret and very guilty to her. I felt like I was a bad boyfriend. She was right, I should just trust her but I did the opposite.

 

I lead her into my embrace. “Mianhae jiyeonie. Oppa is really bad.” I said to her softly. I could hear her sobs. It made me felt guilty even more. “Please don’t cry!” I said while wiping her tears after I released our hug.

 

“I love you oppa, please trust me for it.” She said, made me felt really bad.

 

“I trust you jiyeonie. I trust you.” I replied and caressed her cheeks.

 

“oh, I forget. I have something for you.” She suddenly said.

 

“what is that?”

 

She began to look for something in her jeans’ pocket but she didn’t find what she was looking for. “Oh silly me! I think I left it in the cafe. Wait here a moment oppa! I will take it in the cafe.” She ordered and made her way to the cafe. I just smiled looking at her.

 

I looked her came in to the cafe and walked to the chair that she sat on when she was with woohyun before. Then I could see, she was smiling and taking of something from the table. I could see it clearly because the window of that cafe was trasparant. After she found what she looked for, then she walked away from the cafe again and came to my direction. She waved her hand to me and showed me a box while smiling. I smiled and waved her back. She wanted to cross the road, that was when I saw there was a car that came to her direction.

 

I began to panic and sreamed to warn her, but I was too late. I saw that car hitted her body, made her thew away and fell to the ground. Once again, I was frozen. That was like nightmare. My body suddenly felt so weak and I coudn’t move it. I wanted to cry but there was no tears came out from my eyes.

 

I looked everyone was gathered and surrounded Jiyeon’s body. After I could gather my energy I immediately run to her and breached the people who was surrounding her. There it was, I saw Jiyeon was laying helplessly with blood covering her face. I sat next to her and placed her head on my lap.

 

“jiyeonie hold on! Please don’t die, don’t leave me alone. You have promised me that you will be with me forever, you must keep your promise.” I said to her. The tears that was held in my eyes finally coming out and rolling on my cheeks.

 

I looked she opened my eyes. “oppa..” she called me weakly and staring at me. “mianhae.. I think I can’t keep my promise to be with you forever.” She said, holding her pain. “this is for you. It’s my present for our third month anniversary.” She showed me a necklace with our initial names as it’s pedant. “mianhae oppa.. I love you.” And with that she took her last breath

 

-End of Flashback-

 

She broke her promise. She is gone and left me alone in this world forever. Tears was strolling on my cheeks again everytime I remembered that painful moment. If only I never doubt her and trust her, I would not be angry with her and we woudn’t have a fight. I wouldn’t leave that cafe and she didn’t come to chase me. she wouldn’t back to that cafe to take the necklace and the incident, it would never happened. If only I did it. But it was too late, she was gone.

 

My life was ruined without her by my side. In these eight months after she’s gone, I kept blaming myself for what happened to her. I always tried to kill myself, but I failed. I remembered that day when I tried to killed myself by cutting pulse I ended up woke up in hospital. Before I concious, I saw Jiyeon came to my dream and she smiled to me. She asked me to keep alive. Jiyeon, after she’s gone, her love is still with me.

 

I snapped back to reality and took the necklace that Jiyeon gave to me before she died. I stared at it and smiled bitterly. It was the firts and last gift she gave to me.

 

“Myungsoo ah, what are you doing! Hurry up, we will move now!” I heard Hoya hyung, my cousin called me.

 

“Ne, Hyung! Wait a minute.” I replied.

 

I put everything back to that wooden box, but I kept that necklace with me and wear it. I grabbed the box and took my luggage. Then, I walked out from my room. I would leave Seoul and move to Busan. Eventhough I left that place, but the memories about Jiyeon would never gone and will always stay in my heart. I love you Jiyeon, and I always do.

 

-FIN-