~JaeJoong~

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I rushed forward as Changmin were breathing heavily, Yunho trying to steady him and as soon as both of them got into the livingroom, Yoochun were carrying Junsu on his back

"WHAT IN THE WORLD HAPPENED?!" I demanded to know as I tried to check up on the members

"They tried to stop the bus since the bus were about to hit the 2 small girls.. And they got injured instead" Yunho breathed hard

Yoochun soon returned with first aid kit and a big bowl with hot water and a towel

"Yah.. The article was up or what?" I asked

"I think so" Yunho said

"Why didn't you tell me?" I said angrily

"Who's gonna take care of Minji then?" Junsu breathed

I rolled my eyes

"I can't believe you. I could've called Donghae over or something"

CHangmin shook his head

"She's better off with you. We're fine.. Nothing broken just a few small bruises" Changmin said

"I'm calling Donghae" Yunho said

No one protested and all of us started to take care of the guys, the best way we could at least. About 20 minutes later Donghae arrived and started to examine them. I guess I was so immersed with checking the guys up that I had totally forgot Minji

I looked around and then remembered she was in the kitchen and I rushed into the kitchen just to see Yunho feeding her. I let out a sigh of relief

"Gosh.. I totally forgot about her" I mumbled and sat down

"Don't worry she's fine" Yunho said and looked at her

"She's... getting better isn't she?" I said and looked at her

Yunho nodded

"Mentally.. But not physically" Yunho said

"How come you guys managed to help Junsu and Changmin? I thought you were at work?" I asked

"We were but then changmin phoned us since Yoochun and I were having lunch together. He was breathing awfully heavy and he sounded exhausted, not to mention somehow damaged. So Yoochun and I demanded to know where he was and when we found them, they really were in a state where they wouldn't even be able to move anymore. They must have rushed right after helping the girls until they thought no one could see them and then they probably collapsed"

"I still think that they should have at least said something" I said a bit upset

Yunho sighed

"We need someone to take care of Minji. Besides we will all take turns" Yunho said

"So who's up next time?" I asked

"Me" Yunho said

I nodded

"Alright"

Later that night when Junsu and Changmin had finally gone into bed to rest, Yoochun as well while YUnho were down at the gym training, I was starting to clean the kitchen, the bandaids and the mess in the livingroom after taking care of the guys. Minji was in her room so everything was pretty nice at the moment. As I was washing dishes, I slowly drifted into my thoughts as I started to think about Minji. I had awfully been thinking a lot about her lately, not to mention that all 5 of us noticed that the more the bruises started to disappear, we could see her more clearly and oh my she was beautiful. It was almost hard for us to keep our eyes off her when she was in the same room cause her beauty locked your gaze on her..

But still being the fragile little girl, who was afraid of us, we didn't dare to joke around with her, play with her or such since we thought that it would be much better if we just let her take her own time to adjust herself ..

I suddenly felt someone right next to me and when I looked to the right I saw Minji smiling at me as her small, smooth hands took the plate from my hands and started to help me clean it

I stared at her

"It doesn't.. look so .. hard.. I think I'll manage to do that" She mumbled quietly

I was taken by surprise, staring at her shockingly. I did notice her swollen red eyes and the red dots, trademarks on her nose.

Simply, she has been crying

I turned off the water and she froze but she didn't face me

"Minji? Are you.. ok? Gwenchana?" I asked

She didn't answer

"Minji?" I asked again softly

She looked up

"I had.. a nightmare" She stuttered

Of course...

I grabbed the towel right next to me and wrapped it around her hands and we walked over to the kitchen table and sat down as I was drying her hands. She remained silent and I had no idea what I should say or do in order to make her feel better cause scars, you cannot remove them.. neither memories

"You wanna.. talk about it ? " I asked slowly and faced her

At first she didn't answer but stayed quiet, observing my reactions or something. It felt like she had let her guard down, the wall slowly falling as she were opening herself to me..

A sudden feeling hit me when I thought about it.. There was something different with her..
I looked at her and our eyes met. Totally drowning in her beautiful watery eyes, I couldn't help but to keep looking at her..

But then I saw tears being formed and a quiet tear fell from the right corner of her right eye

"Minji?" I whispered

She faced me

"JaeJoong?"

"What is it?" I asked softly

"Aren't I disgusting?"

"Mw ww wo h?" I stammered

"Don't you see me as a disgusting girl? A dirty.. A .. a.."

"MINJI!!!"

She stared at me frightened

"DON'T YOU DARE SAY THAT YOU'RE DIRTY OR DISGUSTING!" I said

She shook her head

"If i'm not .. What am I?" She whispered, barely audible

"W w hat?" I stuttered

"If I'm not a dirty, a disgusted girl that has been through this, then what exactly am I? Isn't the word the right word for me then?" She said

"N N n nn o" I shook my head

"I AM! LOOK AT ME! DAMAGED FROM HEAD TO TOE, PROBABLY BEEN SLEEPING, TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF HUNDREDS AND THOUSANDS OF MEN WITH DRUGS IN MY BLOOD ! IF I'M NOT A WHAT AM I?!?!?!"

She cried uncontrollably as she was staring at me. She wasn't sitting down, she was standing across the kitchen, crying her heart out.. I was still surprised that she was speaking about her feelings but what amazed me the most that she was actually opening herself up to me

"I don't even know who I am JaeJoong.. At night.. I can't sleep cause the memories keeps hunting me. And I..."

She fell down onto the floor and I instantly got up and crouched right in front of her and took her in my arms but as soon as my arms were suppose to embrace her, she pushed them away

"Don't JaeJoong.. I'm.. not.. clean.. I feel so.. disgusted with myself.."

I heard the members must have woke up due to her screams and they were standing in the doorway, watching us. I shook my head and told them to be quiet. This is what we needed, the information. We wanted her to open herself up to us

"I feel so disgust. So dirty.. I feel so.. -like .. I can't.."

I wiped away the tears on her cheeks

"You were a victim Minji. A victim that was forced into this life. The reason for the memory loss of yours... Nothing of these stuff is your fault" I mumbled

She shook her head

"I'm afraid of you"

I stared at her

"I'm afraid of you and the other guys"

"Us..? We.. why?" I asked

"cause I just am"

I shook my head

"You have nothing to fear"

"Exactly"

"Mwoh?"

"I have nothing to fear. But something deep down inside of me.. tells me that this is the reason why I lost the memory. Why I ... keep having these nightmares.. Why I.. can't remember anything from my life... And... knowing that I have your protection.. is making me feel. . calm. At ease.. And it scares me to death"

I shook my head

"Why?"

"CAuse I've never ever felt this protected and it's.. different.. A very.. strange feeling and.. I don't know how to handle that" She whispered

I sighed

"Don't do anything and just let us.. protect you" I said simply

She looked up

"We will help you gain your memories. And you will heal.. but slowly.. one step at the time"

She sobbed

"We won't let anyone hurt you. You've been through so much already. It's time .. for you to get some justice as well"

She looked at me

"Which means, You deserves to be happy and be loved as well" I said and embraced her