Where am i? I thought as i opened my eyes. I could feel that my eyes were both swollen. I looked around and realized..

This is not my room..

I got up and sat on the bed. This looks like a boy’s room.. I thought as i scanned the room. It was painted in black and white. This room sure smells good. I thought as i inhaled the scent of this room. I got up from the bed and looked at my own reflection on the mirror. I’m such a mess. I cupped my cheeks with my hands and shook my head to gain all of my conciusness.

“Oh? You’re awake?” i heard someone said to me.

I turned around and saw a tall figure, leaning on the door.

“Jongin-ah..” i said flatly to him. “Hey,” he let out a small smile. “How long have i been sleeping?” i asked him. “About 3 hours, are you feeling better now?” he asked. I didn’t reply but nodded my head.

“I’m sorry for being such a burden to you” i said to him. He shook his head and squeezed my hands with his. “No you’re not, Ji Geun-ah”

“I’ll be going now, thank you for....letting me stay here for a while” i gave a small squeezed to his hands and went out of his room.

But suddenly, i was pulled to a hug, from the back. “Just.. Take care and don’t do anything reckless, will you?” he whispered to me, almost like begging.

I flinched as his hot breath touched the back of my ear, “See you soon, Jongin” i said as i pulled myself from him. “Call me when you’ve reached home!” He shouted. I turned my back and let out a small smile to him.

“I’m home” i said when i opened the front door of my house. “Oh? Weren’t you with Sunjong before?” My mom asked.

I flinched when i heard his name. Sungjong Oppa..

I didn’t answer my mom’s question and headed to my room.

As i reached my room, i looked to see my reflection on the mirror.

I grew my hair this long; because you said that you liked a girl with long hair..

I took a scissor, and inhaled.

Goodbye, Sungjong Oppa.. I thought as i cut my long hair short.

I looked up again, to see my ‘new look’ on the mirror.

My hair’s now only shoulder-length long; and i even cut my bangs shorter (they only reach the tip of my nose)

Everyone will probably freak out once they find out i did this to my hair.

I jumped into my bed and curled up.

I feel so empty right now..

I can’t even cry; i don’t have the right to cry..

Sungjong was only my Oppa; and i was only his dongsaeng..

I’ve never had the right to cry on him having a girlfriend..

It was all my fault from the beginning, i shouldn’t have let my feeling towards him grew this strong..

Just then i felt my phone vibrated. I looked to see who was calling,

Kim Jongin.

Right, i haven’t called him, he must’ve been worried. Wait, why?

“Yeoboseyo?”

“Are you home yet?” he asked.

“Yeah, i’m in my room now” i said to him.

“Did something happen?” he asked again.

“Nothing happened.” I said flatly to him. “I’m sorry, Jongin, but i really need to be alone right now” i said to him. He didn’t say anything. “See you at school” i smiled through the phone and hung up.

I clutched my hand over my chest.

I’m so sorry, Jongin..