On the game between Life and Death,

Will you let love be your biggest weakness and fear? 

VICTORIA SONG

The thrilling story of a lifetime

Will come to its highlight now …

My heart races like crazy

And my head turns cold.
 

I was never afraid of anything. I’m not the type of girl that’d scream over flying cockroaches or spiders or frogs. I’d shrug my shoulders indifferently while all the other girls in middle school freak out over a brownout or a ridiculous ghost story.  And I’ll roll my eyes at gangsters and ert ahjussis and snatchers in the street.

                It’s not really surprising for the daughter, and thus heiress, of the leader of South Korea’s biggest and most ruthless drug mafia, is it? Yes, I am Victoria Song. Only daughter, only child to be precise, of the great Song syndicate’s big boss. I’m not sure if that’s a good thing, by the way.

                Fearless, they’d describe me. Strong and skilled, beautiful yet cunning, smart and sweet. But all those seem empty now. I don’t know. I suddenly feel some sort of tightening in my stomach. Some sort of fear.

                Perhaps, I’m not really as different from the other girls as you’d think. To be honest, I’d like to think of myself not as a strong and cold woman but as a normal girl –one who blushes over compliments, who giggles and smiles… who falls in love.

                And perhaps, too, Dad was right. Falling in love could destroy everything. It would ruin my perfectly built sword and shell. He’s always been right, anyway.

                But then again I can’t help it. I can’t stop this feeling.

I was never afraid of anything. But not anymore. If there’s one thing I’m scared the most… My biggest fear… is that I’d encounter him not as a lover, but as an enemy.

CHO KYUHYUN

As if I could catch her, she can’t be caught.

Though I stick with her like a shadow…

I become breathless

The moment I aim at her.

I was never afraid of anything. I’m not the type of guy who watches life pass by while drinking alcohol inside a bar. I’m not scared of getting hurt. I’m not the type to avoid fights in the streets, scared of losing, scared of getting bruised. I don’t usually go out and play with other men my age. In fact, it’s the opposite.

                Well not entirely opposite. I drink wine with eyes fixed on the computer monitor; searching for data, facts, clues… anything. I actually fight, just not on the streets, most of the time it’s in abandoned warehouses or dark bungalows. And when I do play, it is serious games. One that involves life. And death.

                For me, the great Cho Kyuhyun, who works for the National Intelligence Service of South Korea, everything is serious. No time to play. No time for fooling around. No time for love. I have just recently been assigned to look for information as to where the biggest drug syndicate of the country is hiding and I take on this task earnestly. But browsing through websites and hacking and a whole day of sitting in front of the computer is not nearly as fun as holding an actual gun.

                Perhaps, when we went for ambush that night, I came with the same enthusiasm and excitement in my heart. Being a spy is one thing I’ve dreamed all my childhood years. But to be honest, somewhere, within the pit of my stomach, I felt something weird. Something like fear.

                Because perhaps, too, I was also an ordinary guy in retrospect. One who feels anxiety, pain, happiness… and love. Though I felt it such a long time ago that I don’t quite remember the last one mentioned.

                But then again. It happened. At the time and place and instance that I never once imagined, not even in my weirdest dreams.

I was never afraid of anything. But not anymore. If there’s one thing I’m scared the most… My biggest fear… is that I’d lost her. Forever.