"Sungmin is not yours, Kyuhyun ah...He won't be..." Siwon said in his mind. He took the confession letter that Kyuhyun handed him after Sungmin
tried confessing to him. The paper is crumpled and trash-worthy (thanks to Kyuhyun's temper) but the letters are still readable and
he was able to read what is inside.

Anyone who reads this letter would be sure that Sungmin adores Siwon a lot. He crumpled the paper hard and looked away sharply before smiling
one-sidedly.


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"Umma, have you seen Sungmin hyung?" Kyuhyun asked one afternoon.

"Oh," Lee Umma smiled. "He's with Siwon. Your brother asked me if he can take Sungmin with him to go out and play."

Kyuhyun clenched his jaw and looked sharply away from the older woman. Lee Umma smiled and tapped him on his shoulder. "Magnae ah,
you should share Sungmin to your brother as well. You've been close to him recently, let Siwon know him more too. Your father and I
will be getting married soon, I don't want Sungmin to have any misunderstanding with either of the two of you."

He sighed while smiling even though at the back of his mind, he doesn't like the thought that Siwon took Sungmin away. He nodded at
the old woman before walking away.

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Sungmin found himself walking side by side with Siwon in an amusement park. It feels good to walk like this with Siwon, he felt like
he has always dreamt of this kind of scene with him. He looked down and smiled at himself. In this place, nobody really knows what
their relationship is; what they are, what they should be or even how he should look at the tall man beside him. Thinking about this,
it feels like he is on a date with Siwon.

He knows he should shake away these thoughts of dating Siwon already. He's Siwon's future stepbrother, in a matter of weeks or months
his mom and Siwon's dad will be husband and wife. How could he think of his own brother that way? But before being his brother, he
was his first love. First love! How can he even forget the beat of his heart when he first saw Siwon coming out of the car, with that
handsomely fixed hair and the confident walking? It felt like he was exploding from where he was standing. He likes Siwon and knew
he fell in love with him at first sight. And seeing him being a responsible student and representative of the student body, he knew
that Siwon has stepped in his heart even more. He wanted to have this man and that thought has always been here in his heart. He
knows he needs to trash those thoughts already, but he can't, he will just keep it deep in his heart.

He had a lot of secret wish to do with Siwon if he had accepted that confession. Sungmin sighed. What is he thinking about? He should
stop looking back to the time when he wanted this man a lot. They'll be brothers now. But... he looked at Siwon all smiled as he looks
at different rides, wondering which one should go first. He wished to walk with Siwon side by side. He wished to hold Siwon's hand
while walking. He wished to see Siwon looking at him in the eyes. He wished to feel Siwon's embrace. He wished to feel Siwon's lips
next to his. He wants to feel Siwon's kiss.

Kiss? He sighed frustratedly as he recalled how he was betrayed by his own self last time when Kyuhyun kissed him. Why does it have
to be Kyuhyun? Why can't it be just Siwon? Aigoo~ Sungmin ah, you useless, stupid fool! He should forget about it. Stop thinking about
that jerk. He eyed on Siwon again whose eyes widened when he saw the roller coaster turning 360. Siwon is such a charm. Anything next
to him looks beautiful because of his presence. Well, even with that derpy kind of look. Sungmin looked down and smile.

Right now, the secret wish of him walking side by side with Siwon is not just a dream. He knows it's not right to think about
it anymore but he shook away the thought of not thinking about it. As long as he doesn't say, Siwon wouldn't know.

Siwon knows Sungmin has been secretly looking at him from the time they came to the amusement park. He cannot deny that he can still
feel the older's deep admiration to him. He mentally smirked with the thought that Sungmin would always go for him. And what are they
doing here in this childish place when he doesn't have any interest in it at all? Tsch. Siwon ah, just do what you've planned to do and get
that bunny to come to you.

"It feels like we're a couple while walking side by side like this, don't you think?"

Did Sungmin say his thoughts loudly? It can't be, his lips are closed together. Sungmin turned to Siwon, the younger is looking at him
with a gentle smile. "Don't you agree, hyung?" Siwon said. Sungmin cleared his throat. It was not him who said those words... it was
his younger brother.

He saw himself confused in Siwon's eyes. And why is he smiling like that?

Sungmin smiled awkwardly. Why is Siwon thinking the same as him? It's not like he heard Sungmin thinking about those thoughts. They are
brothers now and... aigoo~

"Hyung..." Siwon said as he held Sungmin's hand. He wished to hold Siwon's hand but the latter being surprised, he immediately repel
and took his hand back. Why is Siwon holding his hand after saying those words to him? He looked at the younger with an awkward
laughter. He shouldn't be acting like this. Yah, Lee Sungmin, this is what you've been wishing for!

"Ehehe... Siwon ah..."

"Hyung... we should go out more often." Siwon said him making his eyes opened widely. "like that of a date. What do you think?"

What the- holy mother of starfish. Why is Siwon saying these to him? . What is he going to do? Sungmin's inner self is getting
dizzy as he listens to what the younger is saying. Siwon rejected his confession because they are brothers and now he wants to go
out like this... like a date or something?! Palpitate. His heart is palpitating...but seriously not because of joy.

"We... we're brothers, Siwon ah... d-didn't you reject me because of... that?"

What will Lee Umma think of him? How will Mr. Choi see him as? What will the whole school say? How will Donghae treat him? What will
Kyuhyun do?

K-Kyuhyun? Wait, he's the least person he needs to worry about.

What is Siwon thinking? He was rejected because they'll be brothers, right? Siwon said it'll be awkward to be in a relationship if
they'll be brothers...

"I like you, Sungmin hyung."

.

Just... holy !

Sungmin swallowed a bulk of saliva when he heard those words from Siwon. Why? I mean... what? Did Siwon really say that? He does
wish Siwon would say those to him. He had imagined himself to hear those words from Siwon after he does his confession. But Siwon
shook him off even before hearing whatever it is that he wants to say. He's not interested. That's what he say!

Siwon sighed deeply. "I keep on wondering why I hate to see Kyuhyun playing with you and I think I know the reason."

"But-"

"I like you, Sungmin hyung. Since the day you came to confessed to me. I already like you."

"W-we... I mean... Umma and your dad..."

"I know. We'll be future brothers, but I cannot stop this. I hate it when you're not happy. I hate it when someone gets your attention.
I especially hate it everytime I see you with someone else." Siwon said and clenched his jaw shortly as an image of Kyuhyun and
Sungmin kissing in the kitchen appeared. His eyes darkened but only for a second before changing back to their gently stares.

"You've almost confessed to me. I rejected you because I know we'll be brothers but..." If Kyuhyun can do it, why can't I?
"I really like you, even more than a brother. Hyung, you still like me, don't you?"

Sungmin met Siwon's eyes. From the time he laid eyes on the younger, he knows better he would love him for a longer time. Maybe
even if they are brothers. And now he sees himself in those big eyes. He smiled at Siwon and walked towards him for an embrace. He
should be happy since he's dream of becoming with Siwon has finally come true and for the record he is in Siwon's embrace. He should
be happy because Siwon sees him, not as a brother but as who he really is. Sungmin should be happy because Siwon is sharing
the same feeling but... Sungmin himself is thinking that something in between this might be wrong. But...

He has long dreamed of Siwon being by his side, smiling at him, reciprocating his feelings but... why is he feeling uncertain?
 
Siwon let go of him and held him on his shoulder. Sungmin met his eyes and saw that the younger is slowly aiming for his lips.
He closed his eyes and waited for the young man to reach for his lips. He had always wished for Siwon to kiss him. Maybe a kiss can
make Sungmin feel more at ease. Maybe when Siwon touches his lips, he'll feel better. Maybe having Siwon's lips next to him would
define their new relationship.

Maybe...

Maybe after he feels Siwon's kiss, he'll forgot that rotten jerk who stole his first and second kiss. , Siwon is on the way to kissing him,
 why is he thinking of Kyuhyun again?

Sungmin opened his eyes when he felt Siwon's lips next to him. Why is he disappointed? It seems like his once anticipation for
Siwon... has just been in his mind all along. He cannot feel the same magic he had whenever the young man will walk pass
him before. What has happen to his so-called first love?

Siwon looked at him with a smile and wrapped him in his arms. Siwon's arms are long and well-built but it didn't give Sungmin
the secure feeling that this man in front of him is really the person he has always wanted. What happened to the dream of being
the person for Siwon? "From now on, I'll be the one to take care of you." the younger whispered. "Sungmin ah..."

Sungmin looked down slightly. Siwon's lips, Siwon's embrace, Siwon's words even the way Siwon calls his name cannot even be compared
to Kyuhyun's.

Wait...

What?!

He looked up and was startled with what he thought to himself. Did he just compare Siwon to Kyuhyun? TO KYUHYUN? That no good
rotten jerk?! Alright, he has to admit that Kyuhyun's kiss is way better than Siwon's but for goodness sake, it is his first love
being compared to that person! What is he thinking about? Sungmin ah... snap out of it!

He breathed out. He knows he is just a bit confused. Siwon is his first love and now he was the one who come to Sungmin
to be in a different relationship with him. He knows his mind is just playing tricks. It's Siwon for goodness's sake, who
would even be better than him?

He smiled at Siwon widely trying to push away the thought he had awhile ago. Silly, Min. Even if Kyuhyun's kiss is better than Siwon,
please...that guy is just playing with you! Siwon is already here beside you, what more can you ask for?! He looked down as Siwon
wrapped his arm around the older's shoulder and started walking.

Siwon is always his choice, he is the best choice. He's just anxious because the older Choi's confession is too sudden. He hadn't have
enough time to process everything. What will Lee Umma think when she finds out? Will they be hiding it? Will they be telling the truth?
What will Mr. Choi say? What will Kyuhyun say?

He crossed his eyebrows. How many times did he mention Kyuhyun's name in his thoughts today?

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Siwon mentally smirked as he continuously walk with Sungmin.

"He's mine, Kyuhyun ah..." his eyes darkened with sly smile.

"He's mine."

*Author's note: author is very sleep. sorry if this chapter
is a little bit sloppy although...we're spying on someone who
might be a little confused.eheheeheh.

Late update for the week. Have a good weekend!!