You will never know about me, ever. But, you always have your own way to feel my presence near you.

I could probably watch you all day long, staring at your cute round face looked calm when you close a pair of your black eyes.

But you can never take a look with me, watching my face which always smiles up when looking at your face.

I might be able to touch your cold pale skin, cuddle you softly even be your blanket when you sleep.

But I would never hold your hands or lock my hands around your wrist just to give a bit of  a warm feeling when a quiet night greeting to you.

I might be able to play along with your oak tree looks like hair, dance along with rhythm tweet sparrows perched on a branch in front of your house every evening.

But I will never be able to comb your brown hair gently, put it back to be beautiful as before.

I may not be there beside you, could not be a real shoulder to cry on when you bellied to me.

But I am always there to dry your ugly tears which made the small streams in both of your squishy chubby cheeks.

I might just silence when you pull out the questions that came from your kissable pink lips.

But I always managed to calm your heart, give you unnatural peacefulness but real deep in your heart.

I probably would not be able to greet you when you are staring at the beautiful blue sky with orange mingled while waiting for my presence.

But I am always around you, take care of you in a transparent way and hoping you will smile at the evening sky.

I may not be able to eliminate the pain in your heart when the longing hugs you tight until you could not breathe properly.

But I was able to bring your smile back, give you hope to keep rolling the your wheel of life.

I may never be able to sing a lullaby song to you, close your long day with a childhood humming.

But I was able to cuddle you gently until you fall into a deep sleep, make a small rainbow arch in your pink lips.

I may never be able to wake you with my warm smile, wake you up from a dreamland with my deep voice.

But the moment I was able to pierce your skin, giving a cold sensation that always successful to make you fully awake.

I may never be able kiss your pale forehead softly, make your heartbeat turn crazy.

But I always be able to make your blood flow faster, forming a faded red color on both sides of your squishy puffy cheeks.

Maybe, someday you will find someone who cares about you and forget about my presence slowly.

But for now, let me be your wind which always loves you and care about you.

Be the only one that answered all the content of your letter underneath your soft cushion.

Your guardian angel,

Xi Luhan.