I couldn’t see her cry, that’s why I left her there. And to be honest, I wish I hadn’t. But I know that she’ll be happy. At least I hope she will. I didn’t want to prolong it. I knew there were crazy fans following me from a distance. Aish… why couldn’t they just leave us alone… leave her alone? It’s their fault that I had to resort to this. And they say they’re an ELFish... some ELFish… it’s as if they’re a disgrace to it. They should respect the one I love or at least that I love her. Seeing those comments, I don’t know what they would try to do to her. So I broke up with for her own protection.

It’s been four months now and this was going to be the first time I see her in a while. There hadn’t been any conflicting schedules so I wouldn’t have been able to see her but because of Inkigayo, we were able to see each other today. I watched from the side and on the monitors to see her. Dara looked incredible and smiling. I wonder if she had moved on already. Especially since she was now under the no dating contract…

I cheered for 2NE1, at least with Hyukkie. He was the only one that knew of my pain and was the one that told me about the netizens and sasaengs that were commenting about Dara with me. I sighed and I looked out, trying to see if Dara would pass by since they were on their way back to their dressing room. I bowed as each member passed by and I saw Dara and grabbed her arm.

She looked at me with wide eyes and I knew she was silently asking why I had grabbed her. I pulled her with me to an empty room, the broom closet to be more exact. “D-donghae…” she said, her eyes b with tears. I caressed her cheek and kissed her forehead. “I’m sorry that I couldn’t tell yo