I everyone. So this is a chapter full of drama and angst. It's a bit heavy but I'm a er for drama so here it is xD. Even though it might be a bit boring for some, it is necessary to get the story flowing so bare with it, will you??

Oh, and I wrote it from Junsu's prespective because writting it from any of the other's POV would make it even heavier and angstier (is that a word???)

On another note, as I've told you I decided to make a new story with two guy protagonists and a fictional girl, a love triangle. Given that any of you gave me suggestion's on who the male protagonists should be (YOU MEANIES =P) I've sort of decided I'll go with Kyuhyun and Myungsoo/L(infinite). WILL YOU GUYS PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK?

Anyways, thanks for keep being such beautifull readers ^^. I like comments like Cookie monster likes cookies, so gimme some okay? (so random xD).

DriBSK =)

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JUNSU'S POV

So that was the guy who had break Jae's heart irreparably. I could picture him with Jaejoong, they would look good toghether. But I couldn´t help but to want to slam the door in his face. Why the hell the people that had messed with us were all coming back? First Changmin and now this?

“I asked Changmin for your adress.” the tall men explained. Oh great, the bastards know each other.

“ Can... can I come in?” he asked, almost pleaded.

YC- “What? Are you serious? Why the hell did you come here?”

YH- “Well I heard something from Changmin and realised I couldn't avoyd it any longer. Facing you, I mean.”

YC- “Mo? Do you think I care one tiny bit? If you're here to try to apologize you're wasting you're time. I couldn't care less if you're dead or alive. And sure as hell I'm not the one you gave to apologize to, you scum.”

I could see that Yoochun was getting worked up. His face was turning red with anger. Maybe this guy had something important to say. Maybe he had a good explanation for his past actions and maybe he could make up with Yoochun and Jae. That way Jae would finally stop hurting. It was worth taking the shot.

“Why don't you come in? I'm just going to dress. You two take you're time talking.” I said as I pulled Yunho in and closed the door behind him.

“What? Yah Junsu-ah you can't just envite people to my house. Especially scum like him.” Yoochun protested.

“Oh, so you're Junsu. I've heard of you. Nice to meet you.” Yunho said, totally ignoring Yoochun's offensive words. I was a bit surprised by his words, but then again I didn't know how well he knew Changmin. I had just realized they we're from the same old company, so it was indeed possibe that Changmin had talked about me. Yunho was going for a hand shake, but seeing the rage in Yoochun's eyes I was pretty sure that if that man touched me Yoochun would tear him apart.

“I'll be right back.” I opted to say, and wen't back to yoochun's room.

I kept the door slightly open to be able to hear what they said and to rush to them if Yoochun suddenly started beating up the guy. He surely looked like he wanted to.

“So, Junsu... Is he... your boyfriend?” Yunho started. Why in the world would he start with that topic? Yoochun didn't answer. “I'm just asking cause I actually know a bit about him. He's one of my dongsaeng's oldest friends. Changmin, I mean. How you two ended up together is really funny right? Small world indeed.” He was mumbling nonstop. “I've heard so much of Junsu I feel like I actually know him.”

“You mention his name again and you'll be leaving this house in a body bag.” Yoochun growled not even trying to hide the anger in his tone.

Then there was an absurdely long pause. I figured it was time for me to get back and help the conversation progress.

“So... Yunho... would you like something to drink?” I asked, ignoring the fiery glares Yoochun was giving me.

“Wa.. water would be nice.” he drank the water in one go. It was almost pitifull how nervous he was.

“So Changmin is your friend?” I was clueless to what I should say so I tried to lighten the ambiance. Yunho seemed to get a bit more confortabel, but Yoochun was as stiff as a rock, by my side.

“De. We we're actually suposed to do a duet project together. But it all fell to the ground with that scandall... It's really nice of Yoochun to take him in his company.” He said, trying to soften Yoochun's position a bit.

“If I knew he meddles with people like you I would never care for him.” Yoochun replyed coldly.

“Yah, that's not nice at all.” I mumbled to him. He ignored me and I just focused on a very nervous Yunho again. “You said you came because you heard something from Changmin. What was that, if I can ask?”

He's expression saddened even more. He fixed his eyes on the floor and started talking, but not exactly answering my question.

“I can't even believe I'm saying this. I know I have no right to. And I totally understand you hate me, Yoochun. I, I just... I didn't knew what to do... I got so scared... I was such a coward... I've been torturing myself with what I've done for the past years...”

“Am I suposed to have pitty on you? You say you've been torturing yourself with the thought of what you've done? How can you if you can't even realize what you did? You weren't there. You didn't pick the pieces of Jaejoong one by one, day after day, you didn't have to tell him everything was gonna be alright when I didn't even knew if we would have enough energy to fight everything and everyone agaisnt us all over again the next day...” Yoochun said almost in a whisper. He squeezed my hand between his. If Yunho looked up and saw all the pain I was seeing in Yoochun's face, only that way he would understand the proportions of his actions.

“I know you've must have had a hard time. I didn't ever meant for you to be rejected by so many companies like that. I didn't even knew such a thing like your uality would ruin all your dreams and...”

“Oh, but you did know.” Yoochun interrupted. “That's why you betrayed us, that's why you protected yoursekf and though only of you. But the funniest thing is that what almost killed Jae wasn't the fact that we we're being rejected by who we are, not even the possibility of never becoming a singer. It was the fact that the only person he thought wouldn't never turned his back on him betrayed him without hesitation. I've been trough a lot, that's true. There were days I even thought we were the freak one's, and I forced myself to be what the people wanted me to be. I've suffered my share. But even though I felt my world was ending, I've never seen someone as broken as Jaejoong. And to this very day he tries to hide it, but I remeber his still that broken when he enters my house in the midle of the night shivering and unable to sleep because he dreamed about you!”

By then I could see shiny tears roling down Yunho's face and falling on his hands. He was trembling and his head hanging low. I wanted to beat him endlessly for what he did to Jae when people only found out Jae was gay becaus ehe was having a relationship with your's trully Yunho.

But at the same time I could see the marks of a men who had been living with the guilty for so many years he wasn't even able to remember how it was to not feel like the lowest person on earth. He had no escuse, he didn't had the good reason to justify his actions like I hoped he would. But it was time for all of them to face the past and put it behind them, stop suffering about it.

“I... I was so lonely...” Yunho said between sobs. “I didn't even realize what I had done until after I woke up from that fear of being rejected by everyone to. I couldn't believe I had done that... That wasn't me I swear it wasn't. How did i become so low?” he was tallking more to his self than to us. “How could I treat him like that when I loved him more than my own life?” Then he started talking directly to Yoochun. His face disfigurated with guilt and sadeness was disturbing. Only then Yoochun started to realize how Yunho's life had been destroyed to, and by his own hands. “After that I broke down. I wouldn't even get out of bed no matter how much they screamed at me and call me weak, I just couldn't. Things got so bad I started thinking living was not worth it. But even if I wanted to do something about it, I couldn't. They were watching me all the time, it became a prison. And I had no one, not one single friend. You weren't there...” Yoochun's grip on my hand kept getting stronger with every word Yunho said. “The time's I was able to get away I would just stand in front of Jae's house unable to do anything, to go talk to him and beg for forgiveness, to coward... When I debuted things only got worse. I was forced to look happy in front of a camera when inside I was falling apart. That was when Changmin appeared. Talking to him about anything was the only thing that kept me sane. Even though I never told him why I was like that, so revolted, so displeased with life, he understood me and beared with it. He didn't push me to talk. I'm so gratefull for that. I feel like I owe him my life.”
“But then when his scandal broke I couldn't help but remember Jaejoong. I had to do the right thing this time. I couldn't let the kid suffer what I've suffered. No matter what it took, I had to at least try and protect him. I told everyone in the company I was gay too and that ot wasn't a valid reason to reject someone. Secretly I hopped they would fire me. Maybe that way it would be easier for Jae to forgive me, maybe that way I could be with him again” his sobs became stronger. “But they just told me to shut up and hide it. They said I was one of the face's of the company, one of the money makers, that I could never leave...” for a while he just kept crying. Yoochun's eyes were staring at him, unable to look away from that broken man. I just wanted to go hug him and confort him.

“Then recently Changmin talked about Jaejoong. He.. he said he liked him. And... I just couldn't take it. I can't let him have Jaejoong. Junsu-shi does that make me an awfull person? The fact that I can't even let two people that I was unable to protect be happy with each other? Am I really a monster?” He asked me but I couldn't make my dried mouth to answer. Suddenly he fell to his knees:

“Yoochun-shi... Yoochun-ah... mianhae... please forgive me... I'll do whatever it takes... I can't leave like this anymore... I need to do something to make things right... I have to see him again... Yoochun-ah please...” he kept begging while his body shivered uncontrollably. I couldn't take it anymore. I got to him and helped him get up. He looked at me in shock, like it was the first time someone had given him a helping, caring hand. What have the monsters at that company done to that guy to make him unable to remember of how it was to have someone caring?

Yoochun was looking at me intensely but didn´t say a word. Yunho just started crying harder when he realized that maybe I didn't hate him.

“I... I have to go before someone realizes I'm gonne.” He said in a weak voice. “I don't want to have to give them any explanations.” he explained. “Yoochun-ah... let me see him!” he begged.

After staring at him for several seconds, Yoochun got up and said:

“I'm happy now. I don't need to hear any of this. I don't want to even recall it. It's him you have to beg for forgiveness. Don't come here again.” he turned his back on us and walked to his room without another word.

I walked Yunho to the door.

“You... can you help me?” he asked in a trembling voice.

“I don't know if I can.” he looked a bit disapointed but not sad. I think he realized I could medle too much.

“Am I a monster?”

“Everyone makes mistakes. Only the ones that don't regret it can be called like that.” I answered with sincerity. He smilled weakly at me before entering the elevator.

I entered Yoochun's room to find him in bed again. Even though he kept saying how he wasn't the one Yunho should apologize to, I know that losing his friend was devastating and that conversation was almost as painfull for him as it would be for Jae of he ever ended up having it with Yunho.

“Yoochun?” I called softly to check if he was asleep.

“You had no right. I didn't want him in my house, I didn't want to hear anything of that. You há dno right asking him in. Go home.” he said. I could hear the sadness and pain in his voice. Ignoring his words I got in bed and wrapped him in my arms.

“Komawo.” he mumbled before staying quiet and thoughtful for a long time.

After a few hours I noticed he had fall asleep. I got up and noticed my shirt was wet where him had layed his head. He was crying silently without me even knowing it. That whole situation was so much drama I couldn't even handle it.

“Aishhh, they should all just make up. SO many people crying...” I mumbled as I dialed Changmin's number on my phone.

“Hyung, it's saturday. Let me sleap.” he said in a sleepy voice when he picked up.

“You can't like Jaejoong.” I just said.

“Mo?” he asked, automatically more awake.

“You just can't like him. I have something really importante to tell you. You should be seated to hear this.”

“Yah Kim Junsu what is it?”

 I couldn't see all those guys complicating each other's lifes anymore. I was tired of all the drama and sadness and anger. I had to do something. So I told a secret that wasn't mine to tell:

“Jung Yunho and Kim Jaejoong love each other.”