Yoseob’s been in my house before but never really stayed for the night. He’d always go back to the dorm since I never really allowed him to stay overnight. I’m just being precautious. We’re still young but not young enough not to be aware of you-know-what. Besides, none of us are ready for that. Not now, at least. Anyway, he’d come over after every practice or so. He’d brought some of his clothes saying that he might need it when he comes over unexpectedly, in the future. I took it as innocently as I had hoped it would be.

I dressed myself in my favorite shirt of his with a pair of denim shorts. I took his clothes out of my closet and headed straight to the living room. He was laughing when I walked in on him. Then I noticed he was watching Hot Brothers with Gi Kwang in it doing his “american dance” yet again. Geez, that guy never gets tired of that dance.

I stood there for a while, smiling to myself at the sound of his laugh. His laugh that I haven’t heard for a while. I grinned as watched him so engrossed with what he was watching, only to come back to my senses as he turned to me, surprised.

“how long have you been there?.” He smiled, quite surprised.

“long enough to marvel on how weird your laugh sounds.” I smirked. Of course, he had such a soothing laugh. Just wanted to a bit, anyway.

“yah. I do not have a weird laugh!.” He defended that crazy smile of his still on his face.

I walked closer, and stood behind the sofa, I leaned in to him, as if I was gonna kiss him. As I saw him move his face closer, I moved away immediately handing him his clothes. I could see disappointment in his face.

“merong~” I teased.

“go get changed babe. I’ll get our midnight dinner ready.” I said as I stood back up.

He immediately grabbed my hand and pulled me close into a sweet kiss.

“wait for me. I want to help out. We haven’t cooked together in a while. I missed that.” He said, and I muttered a quiet “okay” to him as he took off and got changed. I searched my refrigerator for something to cook. It’s a good thing I went out for groceries the other day. I started cutting the ingredients when Yoseob walked in and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

“what do you want me to do, my love?.” He asked, spreading his arms.

“uhmm… let me think… love me for the rest of your living days?. No, kidding, you can chop 3 cloves of garlic for me, sweetie.” I said giggling at him while pointing at the cloves of garlic resting on the table behind me.

Much to my surprise, he hugged me from behind, kissed my neck and whispered into my ear.

“you don’t have to ask me to do that… I’ve already planned on doing that the moment I laid my eyes on you.” he whispered so lovingly in my ear. I couldn’t help but fall weak in his embrace. My heart was beating so fast, my cheeks were burning red already.

“chopping 3 cloves of garlic, I mean…” he continued. I felt my jaw literally drop when he said that. He started to laugh furiously when he saw my reaction.

“yeah, whatever.” I rolled my eyes and turned my back on him, and continued chopping.

“you’re lucky we just made up or else you’d be begging for your life right now!.” I threatened, jokingly, but slightly irritated.

He hugged me once again but this time I tried to shrug his hands off but his grip tightened and he leaned in to kiss my cheek.

“I was just kidding. You know I meant what I said.” His voice now serious.

“the chopping the garlic part?. Yeah sure.” I scoffed.

“no, the “loving you for the rest of my living days” part.” He turned me around as he said it. He looked deep into my eyes making me fall weak on my knees again. Damn, why does he have that effect on me?!.

We stood there like that for a few minutes until…

“Yah, okay okay, if you still wanna have time to sleep, we better start cooking.” I said, breaking free from his embrace.

“you know what, I’m not that hungry anymore. How ‘bout we just sleep for the night – well, morning, and just cook breakfast when we wake up?.” He said, taking a glimpse of the time.

“that’s a good idea… since I’m feeling a bit tired already. C’mon, help me clean up.” I said as I grab a hold of his hand and led him to the table to clean ingredients I had set out for us to cook.

by the time we finished cleaning, it was already a quarter past 1. I grabbed his hand and led us to my room. We brushed our teeth and washed our face before heading to bed.

I lay there cuddled in his arms, resting my face closely to his chest, tracing his collarbone. He lost so much weight for the past month. I even saw his pictures online… the abs… *gulp*

 I’ve always wondered if I had the same effect on him the way he has on me.

“I wonder if I have the same effect on you the way you have on me…” OOOPPPS. I thought out aloud.

His other hand that was caressing my back stopped momentarily as if he was taken aback by what I said.

“you have no idea what kind of effect you have on me.” He said oh so seriously that it sent chills down my spine.

“I never seemed to notice…” I said, hinting a bit of disappointment as he was always so cool and calm around me. While I, on the other hand, always end up making a fool of myself in front of him.

“then why the hell would I be calling you almost 20 times every day, send you messages almost every hour, drop by your house after every practice, fetch or take you to work, and make time for you even if I’m dead tired or really busy?.” He pointed out.

“well, of course, you’re my boyfriend. You’re supposed to do all of those stuff.” I said, weakly, tracing my finger up and down his throat.

He loosened his grip on me only to look down and catch my eye. He took hold of my chin, guiding my eyes to look at his.

“I’m not doing all of those just because I have to. I do all of those because I want to. It’s what I want to do. I want to be by your side every time you need me, I want to make you feel that even if I get out there and perform with other female singers, I’d still have eyes only for you. I want to make you happy by my side. I want to make you feel secured of my feelings for you. that’s why I never get tired of assuring and re-assuring you of how I feel. I may not say it all the time but I try to show it through those… even through tiny gestures I had always hoped you would notice…” I felt my heart skip a beat as I listened. His right hand was now caressing my face while the other served as pillow for my head. He pulled me closer as he continued to explain…

“you have no idea how much you mean to me, do you?.” he asked as he stared at me.

“that’s not it. I mean, I know that you love me. I feel it every day. It’s just that I wonder if you ever fall weak on your knees every time you see me, or does your heart ever skip a beat every time you hear my voice, or do you spend the whole day thinking of me… y’know, stuff like that. But, no worries. I get what you mean. C’mon let’s sleep. You must be dead tired already. Close your eyes now.” I kissed him lightly on the lips, trying to brush the idea off, but he pulled me in for a hug, making me lay on top of him.

“I’m crazy about you, JaeIn-ah. I feel my bones turn into jelly every time you’re near. It may sound funny but it’s the truth. My heart flutters every time I hear your voice or see your beautiful face. My heart beats like a drum every time you tell me you love me. You have no idea what kind of control you have over me, JaeIn-ah.” He explained, hugging me tightly.

“thank you, Yoseobie~” was all I could say… I felt speechless. I felt so happy I could not ask for more.

“I love you so much, please keep that in mind.” Yoseob said against my shoulder, the vibration of his voice tingling me. I nodded in agreement.

“yah, I could get used to this.” He said teasingly , referring to our position.

Realizing that, I yanked myself off of him as quickly as possible. He was grinning when I got off him.

“yah, you were the one who pulled me in!.” I defended myself.

“haha. Arasso arasso. Come here. I’ll sing you to sleep.” Laughing, he gestured for me to get in his arms and I did. I smiled like a kid as I felt his arms tighten around me like he was protecting me. And as soon as I settled, he sang the first verse of one of my favorite songs, 4men’s baby baby.

I could still feel him humming before I fell into a deep slumber. The next thing I knew, it was morning already. I woke up smiling, remembering what happened last night and how happy I am that we’ve both settled everything already. I turned to my side only to find his angelic face, facing mine. I smiled as I examined his face, as if I was memorizing every part of it by heart. I blushed at the sight of his peaceful and handsome face, unable to believe that he was mine. I kissed his lips and carefully got up, not wanting to wake him, to prepare for breakfast.

I did my morning rituals oh so quietly before walking to the kitchen. Since it was a special day, I decided to prepare his favorite meal – Ramen.

I had already turned the coffee maker off and set the steaming Ramen on the table when Yoseob marched in. still rubbing his eyes open, he examined the kitchen, as if he was a lost kid looking for his mommy. And when he finally saw me, he smiled.

“Good morning, my princess.” He greeted, marching towards me.

He gave me a kiss before he pulled away, suddenly remembering something, his face now frowning.

“no fair!. I said BOTH of us were gonna prepare breakfast.” He whined, his lips pouting.

I couldn’t help but laugh at his hilarious expression.

“well, I wanted to surprise you!. I haven’t done this for you in a while and I wanted to make it up to you.” I reasoned out as I rested my hands on his shoulder.

For a moment, he stood there, gazing into my eyes. His silly expression now replaced with seriousness. As if he was studying me in silence. His hands gripped my waist…

“Thank you.” he said, with sincerity and gratitude recognizable in his voice.

He leaned in for a kiss. And for a brief moment, I felt dizzy, emotions flooding my head… and heart. We pulled away smiling.

“arasso. Now let’s eat. You haven’t eaten anything since last night.” I said as I hold his hand and lead him to his chair.

“what do you want us to do today?.” He asked after swallowing a spoonful of ramen.

“I don’t know. What did you have in mind?. Aren’t you gonna drop by the dorm?. I’m sure the guys are looking for you already.” I replied.

“no worries, love. I already told them not to look for me and that I’ll be back as soon as I can.” Yoseob glanced at me briefly as he continued savoring his ramen.

“oh. Okay. How ‘bout we just drop by?. I haven’t seen the guys in a while. I kinda miss them already.” I suggested.

I turned to Yoseob and saw his smile turn into a frown.

“you miss them more than me?.” Yoseob asked, sadness visible in his eyes.

“no, silly!. Of course I missed you. I just wanted to let them know we’re okay now especially since Doojoon and Junhyung oppa had been calling and interrogating me ever since I started acted distant.” I looked at him explaining.

Yoseob reached out for my hand. “But I wanted to spend the day with you. Only you. No interference. I was thinking we could stay here and clean the house or something. Anything, just the two of us together. we could even watch a movie or take pictures, I don’t know. I just really want to be alone with you right now.” He pleaded, squeezing my hand every time he mentioned the things he wanted us to do.

“alright, my prince. I wanna spend this day with you, too. but how ‘bout your clothes?. I mean, you can’t go on the whole day wearing that. And how ‘bout giving the boys a call, huh?.” I asked him, trying to convince him to assure the boys he was okay since I know how worried they get every time a member goes missing.

“okay, okay. I’ll call them. Hold on a minute, I’ll just go get my phone.” He said as he got up and walked towards the bedroom to get his phone.

I started cleaning up and he was soon behind me pressing buttons on his phone. He turned the loud speaker on so I could hear.

 

“Yah!. You only thought of calling me now?!.” An angry voice shouted at the other end of the line.

“Oppa!. It’s JaeIn!. Calm down!. He’s okay. We’re okay.” I said immediately.

“Yah, I’m sorry I wasn’t able to give you guys a call last night.” Yoseob followed.

“Oh. JaeIn-ah!. Thank God you guys finally made up!. I swear you almost drove all of us crazy. Are guys really okay now?, Yah, come and visit us!. We haven’t seen you in a while!. Yah, Yang Yoseob!. Bring her over!. Aish. You guys really give me a headache!.” Doojoon continued to rant. Yoseob and I stood there, laughing at each other. Doojoon can be a nag sometimes. He even beats Junhyung at it.

“Yah yah yah!. We’ll come and visit you guys tomorrow!. We just made up!. Don’t bother us!.” Yoseob exclaimed.

“Aish. Fine fine!. Yah, Yang Yoseob!. make her cry again and I’m really gonna break your leg!. Got that?!.” Doojoon said protectively.

Doojoon and I have always felt comfortable around each other. I don’t know if it’s because we got the same blood type or something. We just have a lot of things in common and those similarities brought us even closer to each other. He was like the elder brother I never had. It even came to a point where Yoseob started getting bothered by my closeness to Doojoon. I tried to shrug it off since we weren’t exactly dating yet at that time but that eventually led to his confession of his feelings for me. Doojoon would always tell me that if it wasn’t for him, Yoseob never would’ve realized that he loves me, and that I should thank him for it. Yeah, sure.

“Oppa, don’t worry about us, okay. Calm down. You’re starting to sound like a dad.” I teased.

“yah, I called to let you know I’m okay, not to let you nag on me. Geez. I’m taking good care of JaeIn and I don’t need you to remind me that.” Yoseob pulled me closer as he said the last part.

“yah!. I’m just—aish!. Okay, fine. You’re on your own now.” Doojoon surrendered.

“Thank you~” Yoseob replied, smiling while looking at me.

“JaeIn-ah, tell me right away if he disappoints you again, okay?. I’ll kick his for you.” Doojoon said seriously, making me laugh.

“haha. Oppa, no need for that. We got everything covered. Thank you for the offer, though. I won’t forget.” I responded, still laughing.

“Aish. I’m gonna hang up now!. I’ll drop by later to get clothes. I’m staying with JaeIn for the next couple of days. I’ll call you again later.” Yoseob said as he finally ended the call.

“Yey!. We’re gonna come over the dorm!.” I said happily, wrapping my arms around him.

“we’re not gonna stay long, okay. I’m just gonna go get a few clothes and we’re gonna head back here.” Yoseob said as he returned the hug.

“arasso.” I said.

“now hurry up and get dressed.” Yoseob commanded as he slapped my bum slightly leading me towards the hallway to my room.

“okay, okay. I’ll meet you back in a bit.” I said as I kissed his lips.