I close my eyes and just sink into a wave of guys. 

But then the memories start coming back. And this time, I have a feeling that they won't be disappearing soon. 

"Hiro!!!!!!"

His smile...

His laughter...

His life...

I start to hyperventilate. No one can hear me.

Crowd.

Guys.

Guns.

Pain...

Blood, bruises, hurt.

Then, Shin-kun grabs my wrist and drags me out of there.

He says, "Are you alright?"

My breathing starts to calm down as he rubs my back and hugs me tight. Shin-kun is the only one that knows about what happened to me. He is not supposed to tell anyone, and I doubt he will. 

The guys don't really notice I'm gone.

Then Ri-chan comes up to me and drags me away from Shin-kun. He stares right into my eyes, and then kisses me on both cheeks and then I blush. He laughs. "No one can get Na~chan to smile and blush the way that I do!!!!!!"

I smile at him. 

He just smiles at me.

I know that I can trust him. Ri-chan will probably the one that I talk to next about my secret.

The secret that no one can know about, unless they have heard it from me. Not Shin-kun, but me. The only one that has the opportunity to say it when I want to.

My deepest and darkest secret.

Death.