Have you ever wanted to turn back time...

Have you ever regretted something so much...

Have you ever thought to yourself that what if I did this I could have prevented that from happening...

Have you ever felt so stupid because you reacted to quickly on your emotions...

Have you ever felt like crap for hurting the person you loved so much...

How did you feel when your most loved...cherished...important person in your life left you...

I've experienced all of this within a short time frame...and til this day it haunts me to no end...

I am Byun Baekhyun and this is my story of how I lost my most precious, loved, cherished...most important person in my life....

All because I was young and naive...I acted too quickly on my emotions...I didn't take the time to let her explain the situation to me...I only saw what I wanted to see...acted how I wanted to act...

Here I am...

Standing at the cliff on the beach that she loved the best...

This beach, she once told me that it was her favorite beach because this was the place whenever she was frustrated or had stressful times, she'll come and let out all of her feelings...

This is the beach....

I close my eyes and flashbacks of what happened in the past comes rushing through my head like the speed of light...

One...

By...

One...

"If you know her as well as you claim you do...you should know where she's at right now," Leeteuk tells the younger man, "I know I ed up things between the both of you and I meant to. That's because I still love her a lot...just as much or even more than you'll ever do," he confesses, "But I know I did wrong...so go find her."

Baekhyun looks up into Leeteuk's eyes. His eyebrows furrows.

The next thing Leeteuk knew was that he was on the ground and his jaw was aching from the punch that Baekhyun threw at him, "Bastard...," is all Baekhyun says before running off to that certain place where she'll be.

Baekhyun runs through the streets of Seoul.

Passes many shops.

Passes fans who tried to stop him for autographs.

He can still hear his fans screaming for his name from behind him. He shuts his eyes quickly before re-opening them. Ignoring the shouts and screams Baekhyun ran down the streets of Seoul. Ran as fast as his legs can carry him. Baekhyun runs past the line where the city of Seoul ends before everything turning into a vast sea....

He looks out and sees the certain beach that he knows he'll find her. Seeing the beach, his legs are filled with energy once again. Baekhyun pushes himself harder and harder

And...

Harder...

He reaches the beach and scans among the beautiful light brown sand for a certain someone...

"Noona?" he calls softly at first. Not seeing her in sight, Baekhyun runs the rest of the way towards the water and scans the shoreline up and down...

Up...

And...

Down...

For her...

"Taeyeon!" Baekhyun starts shouting, "TAEYEON!!!!!!!!!" Baekhyun's heart drops as no sweet ahjumma like voice answer him. He runs up and down the shoreline looking everywhere for a certain short girl...

"Taeyeon!!!" 

Fast forward....

10pm...

It's been said on the news that Kim Taeyeon's body was found...

11:59pm...

12:00am...

Kim Taeyeon was confirmed...

Dead...

I open my eyes tears making their way down my face. I look out into the vast ocean, my heart constricting still remembering of what happened...

Why? Why? Why? Why? I ask myself nonstop...

"Baekhyun..." I spin around to see my hyung Suho standing a few feet from me, "Let's go," he tells me. I nod and motion for him to go first. Suho nods and leaves me alone again...

Before leaving, I look back at the ocean...

If I have one wish...I wish to turn everything back around...again....

But...it's impossible...because time can not turn back around...