JJ pove: 

"Nooooooooooooooooo" 

"Duars!" Sound of the car hit me, I started her unconscious, I saw someone catch me, not clear on his face but I recognized him. He was shouting my name over and over again, the face was very familiar.The face of someone who i love,and the face of someone who disappeared from my life. 

            Then I saw myself from above was taken by that person into his car, but I can't see him clearly. And I was covered in blood, then the question arises in my mind why I could see myself like that? i'm dead now? 

            And when i wake up, I opened my eyes slowly. I tried to draw breath as deep as possible, and it turns out I was just dreaming. Then I take my handphone to see the clock. 

        0:01 pm. Ah, i think I woke up too early in the morning. Finally I decided to go back to sleep, but I just realized. Where are they?Where Junsu and Yoochun? Why did I sleep alone? I do not yet fully conscious, trying to stand up and look for them. when I want to turn on the lights 

"SURPRISEEE!! Saengil Chukha hamnida, Saengil Chukha hamnida, Saengil Chukha .... Hamnida ... .. Saengil Chukha hamnida! WOOOHOOO Hyuuuung .. Happy birthday: D "says two of the most people i love after my own family. 

"Blow hyuuuung!" Junsu add 

"Blow, blow, blow!" Was not only those who come but also the entire family. 

            Yes of course! Today is my birthday, and i was already getting older. I'm not a teenager anymore which can still have fun, I must think and prepare carefully for my future. and tears are falling down to my cheeks, and even then flash back when it appeared. 

"My boooo, happy birthday. Do not cry my friend! You're a tough man! You know I do not always by your side. So you have to be more independent, I know you're great man! Even tougher than me "said him last year.

            Ah no! I must not remember this thing on my birthday, I can't remember the sad things in my day! Not this day! This is my day! Blessed Jaejoong, my resolve to myself. 

                                                                           *** 

            The next morning I opened the phone, and saw a lot of messages from everyone. How glad my heart to see there are still many people who supported me. However, of the many I looked around for someone, no! In fact two people, no one of them message me for my birthday. Then I remembered my resolve. Ah, what do you expect to Jaejoong? 

"Hyung! What are you thinking about? "Someone startling" Whoa... so many wishes "Yoochun pulled mt handphone

"Ah you were startling! Not polite to play grab casual " 

"Hehehe mianhae hyung! Wow .. so many from girls!!! come on! you must choose one! " 

"Aissh...Just girls in your mind " 

"Hahaha it's normal! rather than you just thinking about Yun ..." I was startled to hear his words 

"Ah! where are Junsu ? I'm not see him, well he'll disappear again.where is he? We've got to get ready for the concert. "He said. I know he'd want to mention his name, but he didn't want to hurt me. 

*** 

"Jaejoong! Jaejoong! Wake up! Jaejoong pleaseeeeee! I'm sorry to leave you for a long time, I'm now here. I will not leave you anymore, I promise! but Iplease open your eyes!!!!! Don't leave me my bonjae! Don't leave the four of us "and people were crying 

Ah the voice, I still have not clearly seen, but I really knew the voice.

"Hyuuuuung .. wake up! don't leave us! We are here really need hyung! Wake up hyuung! I promise to not eat your food anymore "and another was crying in my arms, while two others hold that the right arm with very tight. 

"Hyuuuung! Wake up! Aiiish .. he sleep! remember hyung we want to have a live concert today" Junsu wake me up 

            Apparently I fell asleep in the change room. And dreamed again, dreams that are too deep and felt real. 

"what time is it now?" 

"Hmmm ... at 11:30 am, we only had half an hour hyung! Come on you must prepare your self " 

"Ah yes thanks to remind me" I answered lazily 

"Hyung you are so sleepy ????? Your eyes were really red! Sorry if ast night make you can not sleep. We're just want to make a small party, sorry if make hyung so sleepy now " 

"Ah yes,no problem, thanks a lot instead" I said to him. 

"Wait! Hyung it's really very sleepy so you drop your tears? Or hyung really cry? " 

"What do you say? when i sleep, i'm cry? Hahaha " 

"Hyuuuuung! Honest! Please be honest to me! Hyung definitely a bad dream right? Hyung there is a problem right? Hyung!please tell me the truth! " All of a sudden he hugged me and cried. What should I do? He makes me want to cry on his shoulder. But it can't do that! I can't make others to feel the pain like i feel now 

"Junsu ~ ah! You are over! I am okay just too tired.Don't cry, you were already too old for cryings small things like this! Let's get ready" Then I smiled at him 

                                                                      *** 

            When i'm ready for my self, but suddenly there was a problem. 

"Jaejoong, we do not become a concert today. All in abort! "Said my manager 

"Whaaaaaaaaat? Canceled?  But why? " 

"Unsold tickets as desired, just few audience who bought the ticket. If we insist, that is our loss! So we postpone until tickets sold out! Maybe we retreat until next week! " 

"What? Next week? "I asked with surprise. Why should there be problems like this on my birthday! Why? Why? Why be on my birthday? And I want to show the best to the fans today!Arrrrgggghhhh ... why could them could not tickets sold out on my birthday!?! What they all have forgotten about me? 

            Then I threw all the bad thoughts! I as the eldest here should not be seen very disappointed. I have to convince others, that this is nothing. 

"Hyung! What you can not sell tickets today! I  prepared everything for today! Don't you feel our feelings ???!" Yoochun yelled at our manager. 

"Yoochun already, this is not in the canceled all, just delayed. We'll wait until next week! okay!" and then I rubbed her shoulders and tried to smile. 

"Ah .. my head is sooo hurt .." Yoochun suddenly fainted. 

            No! I beg not today! Never again! What's this? Why did this all happen. God! What have I done to you so that you punish me like this in my day? 

            Then we took him to the living room, Junsu looks very panicked and continued to flutter Yoochun's face. I am a very panic trying to contact a doctor, but no signal! Eventually I left the room to find a signal and when I see them all! The cassiopiea with giant cake. And they're all wearing red. 

"Happy Birthday Jaejoong, Happy birthday Jaejoong Happy birthday birthdayhappy Happy, Happy Birthday Jaejoong" 

            I developed my smile, then I turn round and Yoochun, and Junsu was by my side 

"Ah you!" i can't explain my feeling

"I'm sorry hyung! I don't want to do this to you, but they! They forced me to do this " defend Yoochun said, pointing to the direction of Cassie 

"Ah you guys ... you guys .." Finally i cried, and my tears can't stop flowing. The tears that I held from earlier. While encouraging, I tried to talk to them. 

"Thank youu soo much, thank you .. .. I do not know what to say anymore" 

Then one of the fans say "how's yunho?? Did he wishes your birthday? "Deg ... that name .. again. And I just remembered my dream again, yes! The man, who is in my dreams! Who called me with "my bonjae" is he! yaaa! he!! Ah, but i can't mention his name

            Junsu suddenly grab my mike! 

" do you know? You know? How long have Jaejoong hyung resist her feelings? He was a very sensitive and gentle but also a very clever curse all the feelings! Try to understand his feelings!Appreciate him .. from us all the most widely the burden is he, I know how depressed he is with all this! Far from Yunho and Changmin! On the demand BC! Even last Yunho and Changmin hyung own that do not admit that so far Jaejoong hyung tried to contact them! We were all sad and disappointed. But he as the eldest of the most widely bear everything, and he never complained one bit! He who continue to support us to keep the spirit with his trademark smile even though I knew he was the most sick heart .. so I ask today, do not leverage the things that made her sad " Junsu said as he wept at length ... 

            And this time not only Junsu crying, but Yoochun too. Even them all! Then I hugged Junsu, Yoochun followed. Then I wipe their tears. And I take back my mike! This time I will devote all my heart, I'm ready! I will tell them everything about my feeling, including him .. .. YUNHO 

"I know how's changmin and.......Yunho hurt to us when we leave them!We are leaving them, not those who leave us! But ... if you know Yunho, Changmin, I never intend leaving you guys! I just can not be with you! Things that separate us, and if allowed to vote!i will take you with us here, but we can not impose the will of our selfish! But there's nothing we can do, Life must go on! And lastly I thank him profusely on all of you here, without you I do not know so what I am now. " 

            Do not feel I have revealed all the contents of my heart to them all. I really did not expect to be able to name it again. The name is missing from my heart, someone who used to always fill my days with smiles and enthusiasm. And one that, now disappeared .. like there are parts of my heart was broken and disappeared tpecahan nowhere to be found ~! 

            Then I hold my chest, I was never afraid to mention his name only I am afraid can never  feel the warm embrace, unable to feel the soft touch, and words of encouragement! Someone who really understands me, someone who really knows me, someone who always can feel my heart .. ah!you will not understand my feelings, how I feel very safe and comfortable when hugged by him, how do I feel like a woman when touched by him. Perhaps many of you who do not understand my feelings, maybe you think I'm strange. But here's what i'm feeling. And now I'm not story about my ex-boyfriend, Believe or not, i'm normal! But I just feel that way, Am i wrong??? 

          At least for today,I hope you guys remember my birthday .. I love you guys, my Changmin and of course you are! My Lovely Yunho <3 .. nothing to do but i'll always wait both of you back to us, yes I'm sure that day will come !!!!! In my heart DBSK will always be FIVE! ~ AKTF ~ 

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Yunho's Pove: 

"Kriiiiiiiiiiiiiiing" "ah what the sound of that??" I was shocked 

"Hehehe .. it's my alarm!" changmin give his 'innocent' smile to me

"Ah ~ what time is it??" I asked, half-conscious 

"00:30 hours" 

"Ah for what you install an alarm at this hour?" 

"I had not eaten before bedtime, so I decided to sleep just before midnight and wake up for eat .. hehe" 

            Aiiiish .. he was always like that, never changed. While he was out looking for food, I go back to sleep . However, my eyes could not be closed. Then I remember what day is this? 

            Suddenly I remembered. Jaejoong birthday! Ah, why did I wake up late, usually I was the first to say congratulations for him! Then I take my handphone to send him a message, Changmin suddenly take it from my hand. 

"What would you do hyung?" Asked Changmin 

"I .." 

"Want to congratulate Jaejoong hyung?" "No! Have you forgotten our agreement with SM? Are you looking for dead? " 

            I mused for a moment, yes Changmin's true! We agreed to not contact them forever in any condition! Or we are going to be fired and demanded more from them. 

"But they will not know Changmin ~ ah!" 

"Huh ... they will know hyung! our handphone are always on the track! Do all kinds! " 

            Then I remember what happened yesterday, when I ask the fans 

"What day is it tomorrow??" I intend to remind them that tomorrow is our concert. But they instead answer 

"Jaejoong's B'Day!" 

            At this point I can not say anything . My memories with Jaejoong repeated all in my head. And finally, the most painful!When he and both of them left us without permission.Changmin who understands my condition was directly for me. He is taking over. 

            And now my eyes filled with tears, All this time i never be sad to remember it. But that night, i can't stop my feeling. And Changmin who very not liked being touched or touching by men, that night, holding my shoulder and mengeluskannya. 

"Hyung! We must be strong! We'll get through all this. Be assured of at the time we will meet again.... even if it did not happen we have to stay alive! "changmin assured 

"Yes! You're right Changmin-ah! Thanks. Sometimes  you're more  mature than me " I said sure, holding his hand on my shoulder. 

            Happy birthday My boo! Although I did not say directly to you, I hope you know I don't forget your birthday! I will never forget you, too sweet to forget and too sick for remember. And I really hope he can hear what I said now. Oh God tell what I said to him,any how. 

"My boo, saengil chukha hamnida! I'm always love you .... My bestfriend, my brother, my ... .. couple! "With smiles and tears I was trying to sleep again. 

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