You make me like you in everything,
including myself.

Life is so boring. I walk alone at the empty street and saw 2 guys dressed up like gangsters. "hey pretty!! wanna join us to the disco!?" ask guy 1.

I look at them, "join?" and straight away I punch him on the face. The second guy tried to hold me but i kicked him on the shin. Then fight start to occur between me and them. One by one i punch and kick them until injured including me. "I think, you aren't worth to bring me!!".

In this life, it's dosen't matter anymore. This is not what i wanted.

"you bit*h", said 1 of the guy.

-

Dr. Kim clinic.

"you sure, you didnt like your life?"

"big deal!! it's just a minor injure. dont cry!! you such a baby!!" i said, while he band aid me. I look down and saw my outfit. I wear black sleeveless, shortpants torn jeans with a belts,stud bracelet, 2 earing on each side of my ears and my spicky hair. I looked like a girl gangster but in feminine way. Haha... whatever...

"SHUT UP!! THIS IS YOUR FAULT!! EVERYWEEK YOU COME HERE!!" said Dr Kim Junsu. He such a noisy guy.

"if everyone love theurselves, later you have to change your career!!"

"you..." he look at me, "i just worried about you!!"

"Dr Kim, your girlfriend is here!!" said 1 of his nurse.

You worried?? But this is not what I want it from you.

"I should go now!! you just worried about your girlfriend. I dont need your worried!!"

"Ri In"

This is not what I want to deal off

"Ri In, i sent you back!!"

"no need!!" i go out from his office. I dont have any method to keep my position strong after come a lady with dolce & gobanna perfume in our relationship. I... I not match with her.

'Kang', the sound of the tin that I kicked when i walk at the neighbouring street. I saw the tin roll and it make me remember,

Flashback~

"take this!!" i take the apple juice tin. I still remember that Junsu will love me forever.

""Junsu, my parent had divorce. I dont have appa anymore!!" i told him the situation that happen. I dont believe now i need to love my own self.

"Ri In!! dont worry Ri In. even your appa is gone, i will become your oppa. eventhought we are neighbour, i still love. i will protect you!!" he said.

End of flashback

I still remember about the promise.

-

"love yourself?? if i didnt injured myself, i dont have any chance to meet you!!"

"you..."

"..." yes everyone, now im back at Junsu clinic.

"you are bad!! if you like to be injured, here let me kill you!! it make my job easy!!" he scold me

"wait... im sick!!"

"you two are so close to each other!!" his girlfriend suddenly said from nowhere

"Dana!! you're early today!!??" he ask her girlfriend, Dana

"im alright now!! im going first!!" I stand up and start to walk out

"wait!! i can send you home!!"

"no need!!"

"Ri In!! dont do things that make worried about you ok!!?"

"yes... he's right!! you should take care of yourself!! since tommorow is valentine's day!!" Dana said while she hug Junsu from behind.

"Dana..."

"tommorow, Junsu wont be here because we need to celebrate valentine. So you dont harm yourself ok!!" she said

"emm... i will be carefull", i hate to myself because im a liar "happy valentine day!!"

-

The next night, i walk at the night street. Valentine day!!?? no wonder i saw so many couple going out and it make me bad mood.

"hello pretty!! do you still remember me?? i come to take a revenge!!" i heard someone said from behind. They come in good timing and without any second i make my move and fight with them.

"to let you know, today im not in a mood!! so prepare for it!!"

-

Im so bored. for what im doing this?? without my sense, i have arrive at Junsu clinic and i cant go back. I dont like Junsu with Mandy and i dont want to make Junsu life misreble.

"Ri In" i dont want anything...

"you sure dont know how to take care of yourself!!" like always he will lecture me while band aid me. what should i do again??

"after this, iw ill go to another clinic. i dont need you!!" i said, tears start to flow

"you cant..."

"why are you here?? where's Dana??"

"i have been dump!!"

"you... you stupid!! you dont know how to take care..." he know what im thinking and i tried to keep it. he know that i ruin his happiness

"i dont need your sympathy towards me!!" and i start to cry

"maybe... anyone than you, there is no one i like!!" he said

"you're stupid!!" i cover my face with both of my hand. i dont want him to see me in this state

"dont cover your face!! look at me!!"

at this moment, i feel so happy "i... i'm a bad person"

"dont say like that!! actually i scared my feeling towards you will cause damage your trust to me. that's why i need to become a good oppa..." he said while wipe my tears.

"but im bad... i hate myself because im a liar..."

"it doesnt matter!!" he hug me "i still love yu forever"

i push him and run away... "Ri In... im really sincere" that's the last word i heard

-

The next day

Junsu POV

"Dr Kim... Ms Ri In injured again... but..." I heard my nurse called me

"what!!!" I come out from my office, "Ri In?!"

She hurt again?! dont leave me

"i... i hurt myself!!" she said and saw her injuired finger to me. She changes. she didnt wear her usually outfit. today she wear a formal outfit that look much suit to her. I think Ri In didnt know that i never thought her as my dongsaeng... but someone that very important in my heart. I love you Jang Ri In.