GD P.O.V

 

 

 

 

 

It’s been already 3 months since we’re together.. and every day with her makes me fall in love with her  even more.. Next week will be the release of my solo album.. by the way, tomorrow will be the shine a light concert.. I am very nervous.. We already have the final rehearsal.. EunMi is also busy for the concert.. but I asked her if we could go somewhere later, and she agree but only if we finish ev erything.. that’s why I’m trying my best to finish it..

 

 

 

 

 

 

After working for 10 hours.. finally! We’re done.. we are all ready for the concert.. I asked EunMi where she wants to go.. but she said that she want to go to the Han River..

 

 

 

 

 

 

When we reached the Han River.. we took pictures of us..  she then took a picture of me.. and of course.. I also took a picture of her.. some fans even notice me… and I know that EunMi was so nervous.. but I whisper to her that everything we’ll be fine.. The fans asked me If I could take pictures with them.. and I said yes ..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

When the fans left..

 

EunMi: Aigoo, my boyfriend is really famous..

GD: true, and you should be proud of it..

EunMi: No way. Hahaha

GD: If I kiss you.. will you?

EunMi: wae??

Then I kissed her..

 

 

 

 

 

After I break the kiss.. she laughed.

GD: What’s funny?

EunMi: YOU.

GD: really? I am funny? Wae?

EunMi: nothing. I just miss my boyfriend..

GD: Yehey. My Jagiya miss me!!

EunMi: Be quiet! They might hear you.

GD: But..

EunMi: No Buts..

GD: Where do you want to go?

EunMi: Hmmm, Dinner!

GD: you didn’t eat with them?

EunMi: No, because when I asked them if Mr. Kwon Ji Yong already ate dinner.. and they said no.. so I didn’t go with them..

GD: I see.. Well.. where do you want to eat?

EunMi: Let me drive!

GD: Fine.. you’re gonna be the first person to drive my precious car..

EunMi:then Great!

EunMi then kissed my cheeks.. which made me smile..

 

After we ate our dinner, I sent her home..  
 

 

 

 

 

The Next Day

 

 

 

 

I’m very nervous.. the concert will start in 15 minutes.. and I still can’t find EunMi.. I asked my stylist if she know where the hell is EunMi.. She told me that don’t know.. but EunMi Left her phone behind.. I looked at her phone.. the wallpaper was me and her at the Han River..

 

She got a message…

 

I accidentally press it.. It was from Mr Choi..

 

 

 

From: Mr. Choi

EunMi, Mr. Lee Soo Man just called me, He told me that you’ll receive the payment as soon as the controversy is out.

 

 

 

 

I was shocked.. She works for the SM Entertainment CEO??!  IS SHE USING ME FOR MONEY??

 

 

GD’s stylist: Bong! EunMi is here.

As soon as I heard that.. I delete the message.. I went to EunMi as if nothing happened..

EunMi: Ji! Why are you looking for me?

GD: Nothing.. Nevermind..

EunMi: I’ll be watching the concert.. don’t worry..

GD: Ok

And then I proceed to the waiting area.. but EunMi called me and gave me a backhug.. she still give me butterflies, even if I hate her right now.. I really need her explanations..

EunMi: Ji, why are you so cold towards me? Is it that you are so nervous?

GD: It’s nothing,,

And I kissed her cheeks and went on the stage..

 

the next song..

 

lies..

Right now.. this is what I want to tell her.. I want to know why.. what are the reasons behind those lies?? What will she get?? what will be the prize of hurting me?? Why EunMi?? Why?? I love you so much..

 

 

 

Link --->> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SHUQtgKUzGQ

 

 

 

Lies by Big Bang (English Translation) 

A late night and rain falling down. I bring you back from my memories. I promised myself I would be fine without you, but I can’t help it. I take in liquor which I don’t even know how to handle trying to fill my empty heart. A day without you is too long. I pray that I may please forget you (that’s a lie).

Without you happiness cannot be found in me. I can’t even shed any tears. I don’t want to live anymore.

Yeah, this is bull, it’s pissing me off. I’m going crazy in thoughts of you. I want to see you, but I’m being told that I can’t, that it’s all over (I’ll be right there).

I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I didn’t know, but I know now that I need you. I’m so sorry, but I love you, out of anger. I pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing. I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I’m so sorry (I’m so sorry), but I love you (I love you more more). I’m so sorry, but I love you, will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?

I dedicated my all into this song for you (other people probably don’t know). By myself, without anyone knowing. (yeah, those words I said were lies). A loner left in the midst of it all. In my pocket is the breakup letter that’s all wrinkled and folded up in my pocket, hey, (and my habit of calling for you and wondering where you are). I’m gonna change, I’ll laugh everything off from now on.

I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie.I didn’t know, but I know now that I need you. I’m so sorry, but I love you, out of anger. I pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing. I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I’m so sorry (I’m so sorry), but I love you (I love you more more). I’m so sorry, but I love you, will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?

Oh oh oh oh oh, I hope this is all a dream. Oh oh oh oh oh, because I only add up to this much. Drop that babe, I still can’t forget you. No I don’t think I ever will, even ’til the day I die, yeah. Did the scars I gave you heal? I’m sorry because I never got to do anything for you.

I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I didn’t know, but I know now that I need you. I’m so sorry, but I love you, out of anger. I pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing. I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I’m so sorry (I’m so sorry), but I love you (I love you more more). I’m so sorry, but I love you, will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?

I love you so much, EunMi.. I hope you know that..

 

After 3 hours of singing, dancing, talking and running around the stage..

 

 

the concert is done! 

 

 

And  I still need her explanations..

 

After the concert.. we had a party.. and I was still acting cold towards her.. I didn’t really gave her attention..

 

After the party.. We went home.. and I sent her home.. During the whole trip I didn’t talk.. but she was talking on how good I was during the concert.. and all I did was just smile.. and finally! We're in front of her house!..

 

EunMi:  Bye Ji!I love you.

GD: Let’s talk tomorrow.

EunMi: Oh Sure.

And then she peck a kiss on my lips.. and I didn’t care..

EunMi: I love you!

GD: Bye..

 

I know she is wondering why I didn’t say anything when she left..  I have a right to know why she did this to me.. I need her explanations..  I need to no why! DAMN! BULLSH*T!

 

I wonder if she really loved me? Did she ever?? Is it all about pretending?? 

 

Then I receive a sms from Mr. Yang Hyun Suk. He told me that I need to go to his office, A.S.A.P. , As soon as possible, I asked him why.. he told me that a controversy just came out about the concert.. and I guess this is what the text message meant..

 

Why did she have to do this…? why?