“I am glad it cannot happen twice, the fever of first love. For it is a fever, and a burden, too, whatever the poets may say.” 
― Daphne du Maurier, Rebecca

You can feel the tears rolled down your cheeks. It was warm. Just like how you felt when you are reminded of Lee Gikwang. The idol? Yes, it's him. Lee Gikwang from BEAST. He was your first love or should I say is still the one? Nobody has taken over that place since he left. Since he left you alone and in pain. "For us, for a better future," he said. Is it really for the better? Cause all you feel is pain and agony. How is that a better future, you thought to yourself. You looked into the mirror and see yourself crying quietly. Where has the cheerful optimistic girl gone? And for the millionth time, the memories came back flooded to you.