Hi GUYS! HERE'S A DOUBLE UPDATE FOR YOU ❤

 

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For the rest of the week, I've been going in and out of the hospital to take care of Hana when Jaejoong's at work. And of course, with Jaejoong's consent which was surprisingly not that hard to obtain. Although, he was being super determined not too let me be anywhere near Hana ever again at first but after just a few words from her, he sighed and finally gave me the permission to do so after being silent for awhile.

 

Jaejoong has been sleeping at the hospital since because he didn't want to leave Hana's side. Hana insisted that she will be alright alone and told him to go home with me but being the stubborn he is, he strongly refused.

 

"No! You're my wife and I need to take care of you. Plus, you're sick." Jaejoong softly cooed at Hana.

 

"But, Hani eonni will be alone. Oppa, you cannot be like this." 

 

"She can take care of her own. Right now, I don't care about anything else except my dear family."

 

"Eonni's your family too." Hana said with a frown.

 

He sighed and kissed her forehead. 

 

"Sleep, my Hana. Don't think about anything else but you, me and the baby. Just the three of us, okay baby?" Jaejoong said while climbing in bed and wrapped his arms around Hana.

 

"Hmm." Hana replied coldly and turned her back to him before going to sleep. 

 

The next day, I visited Hana at noon because Jaejoong didn't have to go to work in the morning. He clearly told me only to visit Hana when he was not around because he has yet to forgive me about the accident and until then, he didn't want to see my face. Even though it hurt, I obediently complied because I didn't want him to hate me even more.

 

"Hana-yah~ I have a great news for you~!!" I said when I entered her room.

 

"What is it?"

 

"I talked to your doctor just now and guess what he said." 

 

She squeaked. "I can go home now?!"

 

"Yup. He said you're fine enough to go home." I laid the bento I made that morning in front of her and gave her the chopsticks.

 

"As-sa! Finally, freedom! Oh god, eonni. You cannot imagine how boring my life is at night here. I can't even watch my favorite dramas because the nurses always tell me to go sleep early and then take the remote with them." She said with full causing a few pieces of rice flying here and there.

 

"Aigoo. Yah! You're about to become a mom in a few months time yet here you are still spitting rice everywhere. I wonder how will you be able to handle the baby like this." I said while wiping away the food at the side of .

 

"Well, I do." 

 

I raised an eyebrow at her. "How?"

 

"With eonni's help, of course." She simply said and resumed to finish her lunch.

 

I felt my stomach churned at her words. She wanted me to help her raise her baby...Jaejoong's baby? No matter how much I cherish Hana and the baby but raising my husband's child whose the mother is not me, is a bit cruel. But then again, what is fair...right?

 

Hana waved her hand in front of my face to garner my attention. But I was still in dazed and all of a sudden, Hana let out a high-pitched scream.

 

"Eonnnnnnnnnni!" She said while holding onto her stomach.

 

"Oh? Wae? Apa?! Eodi?!!" I snapped to reality and was about to sprint to the door when I heard Hana bursted into a fit of giggles.

 

"Yah! Neo!" I placed a hand near the area of my heart on my chest as if to soothe the sudden increment of my heartbeat.

 

"Hehehe. Mianhae, eonni. I kept on calling you but you seemed as if you're not in this world so I had no choice but to do that."

 

"You almost killed me, woman!" 

 

"Mehrong!" 

 

Sighing, I shook my head seeing how childish she is. I couldn't help but to worry how can someone as childish as her to become a mom soon. I wonder how the baby would look like? The mother...or the father? 

 

"You sure you don't want to wait for Jaejoong, Hana?" I asked while helping her change into her clothes.

 

"Nah~ I'm afraid if we wait any longer, the doctor might change his mind."

 

I scoffed at her in disbelief. "You hate staying here that much, huh?"

 

"You have no idea, eonni. This place is no better than the prison!" She said dramatically with her palms up in the air.

 

I rolled my eyes at her and laughed. "Drama queen."

 

"Eonni."

 

"Hm?" I looked at her rubbing her tummy while smiling.

 

"Who do you think the baby will take after?"

 

I froze. "Umm. I don't...think it matters because both parents are equally gorgeous." 

 

"Jinjja?"

 

"Hmm. Do...you know...um...its...um...gender yet?" I asked slowly. 

 

"Nope. I want it to be a surprise." She said happily.

 

"Arasseo." I smiled when I saw how excited she was about the baby.

 

Talking about the unborn child made me so uncomfortable and thus the silence that suddenly enveloped us. I just couldn't bring myself to talk about the baby. Probably because I know Jaejoong would entirely ignore me once the baby is born. I have always wanted children of my own. Children whom are gifted by God to us because of the love my spouse and I have. I guess that dream will never come true so I better prepared myself mentally and physically. Taking a deep breath, I blinked away the tears that started to accumulate. Hana sensing the awkward silence, hugged me.

 

"Mianhae, eonni. I deserve to die for making such a great person like you suffer. I'm so sorry for interfering your marriage. Forgive me, eonni please. But I love oppa so much that I can't live without him. I couldn't picture my future without Jaejoong oppa. Don't ever forgive me, eonni oh. I don't deserve it. And I'm so sorry. Words can't describe how awfully sorry I am towards you." She cried in my embrace.

 

I bit my lip to suppress my tears. I didn't want her to see them.

 

"Yah! Neo, wae irae? I told you I totally understand you didn't I? Yah~ Stop crying. Its not good for your health and the baby. Oh?" I pushed her at arms length and wiped her tears.

 

"But eonni, your marriage...those people..."

 

"Aish. Gwaenchana. Its not your fault, nor is it Jaejoong's fault, okay. You guys love each other so I don't see why you can't be together? Listen, I don't give a about anything people say. I'm through with it. Yes, I admit I'm continously hurting because of you two so? What can I possibly do? Divorce Jaejoong? I did filed it before, many times in fact, but he refused. His refusal widened my perspective regarding this...this...filthy act. Why bother marrying each other in the first place if you're just gonna divorce later? Get what I mean? Unless if he either turns violence or he really wants it then, fine. But seriously, think about it. Say we fight everyday, but if one remains calm, we can always reconcile, right? Do we all really have to resort to that sinful act just because we are hurt, we aren't happy? 

 

What about the vows we said? We vowed to be together forever. Just because he doesn't love me doesn't mean I have to disappear. So what if he doesn't love me? Its fine cause I...I love him. I love him so much. I vowed to take care of him, to make him happy all my life. We can't always have everything the way we want in this world. Of course, having two wives is a ed up thing, I don't mean to discriminate or whatever but marrying the same gender is not? This is all fate, Hana-ah. I don't need anything else. I have no plans on leaving you two. I am contented with having you, Jaejoong and your future children no matter how many they are. I'd do anything for the sake of my family's happiness." 

 

There, finally I said whatever that has been bottled up in my heart. My heart was pounding really hard against my chest. My hands were trembling and my tears had dried. After my sudden so called 'outburst', the silence welcomed us again. 

 

Both of us remained silent, trying to register what was happening. Our silence didn't last long because the door suddenly opened by itself and surprised us both since we didn't expect him to be there. My eyes widened when a sudden thought hit me. 

 

No, no, no. No, Hani. He did not hear you. Don't worry. Stay calm and stay indifferent. 

 

"You ready, baby?" He walked pass me totally ignoring my presence.

 

"Oppa, wae yeogiseo?" Hana asked.

 

I can feel their gazes on me but decided to ignore them and just continue packing Hana's things. 

 

"To pick you up, silly." 

 

"Mwo?! Eotteohke ara?"

 

"Your doctor."

 

"Oh."

 

"Kaja."

 

Jaejoong, still not acknowledging my presence, took Hana's bag which was in front of me and dragged Hana out. I can hear Hana's protest outside.

 

"I'm not leaving without eonni."

 

"But, baby. You know I'm busy, right?"

 

"And? I don't see why eonni can't come along. We are, after all living under the same roof, oppa."

 

"..."

 

"I am not leaving Hani eonni here no matter what you say." Hana sternly stated.

 

Sighing, Jaejoong hesitantky muttered a yes.

 

Hana came for me and happily dragged me to Jaejoong's car. I was about to decline when Jaejoong coldly said, "Get in."

 

All three of us were silent for the first 15 minutes of the drive. I was getting quite uncomfortable with the growing silence but I dare not to start a conversation. I can feel Jaejoong's cold gaze on me through the rearview mirror from time to time, it was as if he was telling me to vanish at that exact moment. I swear if looks can kill, I'd be dead by that time. Taking a deep breathe, I gathered every courage and pride I have left and stared at him back with a straight face. Thankfully Jaejoong has always been the best driver alive. If he's not, we would've been long fallen down the steep hill...or so I thought because the moment Hana started to scream about the incoming car which was driving on the wrong lane, driving fast towards our direction, Jaejoong immediately tried to stir away from it but the car still hit us and in the blink of an eye, our car had really slipped down. 

 

When I opened my eyes, I see a little girl and her parents happily having a picnic under one large tree. I gasped upon seeing the child. She was so beautiful. Never have I seen someone so gorgeous as her. She had the prettiest smile ever but...where have I seen that smile before? It looked awfully familiar. As if she read my mind, she looked at me and smiled while hugging her parents. She dragged her father to play with her on the ground and I couldn't help but to let out a gasp.

 

Kim Jaejoong.

 

That explained the awfully familiar smile. She was his daughter. Thank God they survived. They looked so happy especially Jaejoong. Its been awhile since I last saw him happy like that. Thank God.