Nightmares pursued Dara all the way into wakefulness as she rolled onto her back, trying to escape from a dream where she stood in a churchyard, surrounded by hundreds of headstones, each one bearing the name of her father, or her grandfather, or her husband.

Her eyelids felt as if they were weighed down with iron when she made an effort to force them open, and when she finally succeeded, she wished she hadn't. Her head felt as if someone had buried an ax in her skull, and the sunlight pouring in from the window made her eyes ache. Wincing, she turned away from the source of the sunlight, and her gaze riveted on a thin woman in a starched black uniform, white apron, and cap, who was dozing in an armchair beside her bed. The maid, Dara realized dimly.

"Why are you here?" she whispered in a feeble, rasping voice she scarcely recognized as her own. The maid slept on, snoring softly, and Dara tilted her throbbing head on the pillow. Her gaze settled blankly on the table beside her bed, where a spoon and glass lay beside a bottle.

"What is that?" she whispered, more loudly this time. The exhausted servant jerked erect, saw that Dara's eyes were open, and leapt from her chair. "Laudanum, my lady, and the doctor said you was to eat the very minute you came round. I'll fix you a nice tray and be back in a trice."

Too sleepy to sort that all out, Dara let her heavy lids slide closed. When she opened them again, there was a tray beside the bed, and the sun had angled much lower in the sky. It was afternoon, Dara realized, feeling disoriented and fuzzy, but rested.

The maid was awake this time, peering anxiously at her. "Goodness, you've been sleeping like the dead!" she burst out, then clapped her hand over , her eyes wide with horror. Dara peered curiously at her, and awkwardly struggled into a sitting position so the maid could place the tray on her lap. On the laden breakfast tray, as was the custom, there was a red rose and a copy of the Times folded in half. "Why was I given laudanum?" Dara asked, annoyed with her slurred speech and inability to concentrate properly.

"Because the doctor said you should have it." Dara frowned in confusion, then automatically asked the same question she had asked each morning since she'd come to this house. "Has Sir George come to" Pain shrieked through her body and erupted in a tortured moan as her mind snapped into focus and she remembered Bradburn's last visit on Tuesday. She shook her pounding head, trying to blot out the images marching across her mind, the voices saying, " Sad duty to inform you that all hands on board were lost. Quick, get the doctor, Authorities duly notified, Ramsey, get her to bed"

"No!" Dara cried and jerked her face away from the maid, but the Times was lying on her lap. She stared at the bold print on the front page. "What's wrong, my lady? What do it say?" the horrified maid asked, staring uncomprehendingly at the words she'd never been taught to read.

Dara understood every agonizing one of them. They said that Kwon Jiyong the heir of Kwon Company who has been missing at sea is declared dead.

Dara's head fell back on the pillows, and she closed her eyes, oblivious to everything but the torment searing her mind. "Oh, mam, I never meant to give you cause to be upset," the maid whispered, wringing her hands. "I'll get the doctor. Mam Yejin has taken to her bed, so ill she be that he said he daren't leave her "

The last of that slowly penetrated Dara's desolation. "I'll go to her in a little bit," she told the distraught maid.

"Oh, no, mam Dara, you've been ill yerself, and it won't do no good anyway. Craddock told Mr. Ramsey that Mam Yejin don't talk. She can't. She don't recognize no one she just stares." Alarm overcame Dara's grief and, ignoring the maid's protests, she swung her legs over the side of the bed, grasped the bedpost to steady her swaying senses, then pulled on her dressing robe. In answer to Dara's knock, the physician opened the door to Yejin’s bedchamber and stepped out into the hallway. "How is she?" Dara asked anxiously.

The physician shook his head. "She's not good, not good at all. She is not a young woman and she has sustained a terrible shock. She will not eat or speak. She merely lies there, staring into the distance." Dara nodded, remembering her mother's behavior when, shortly after her father's death, his mistress had called upon them. Her mother had also retired to her bed, where she would neither eat nor speak, nor let anyone console her. When her mother had eventually emerged from her self-imposed confinement, she never was herself again. It was as if all the grief and bitterness were still bottled up inside of her, eating away at her mind.

"Has she cried?" Dara said, knowing that it was dangerous to keep grief bottled up inside. "Certainly not! Women of her station and constitution do not indulge in weeping. As Craddock and I have repeatedly told her, she must be strong and look on the bright side. After all, she has another grandson, so it's not as if the title will pass out of the family."

Dara's opinion of doctors, which had never been high, plummeted to an irretrievable low as she stared at the insensitive, pompous man before her. "I would like to see her, if you please." "Try to cheer her up," he said, oblivious to Dara's look of unwavering scorn. "Don't talk about Kwon." Dara walked into the darkened room, and her heart leapt in pity and alarm to behold the formerly brisk, robust woman who was propped up against the pillows, looking like a ghost of her former self. Beneath her crown of white hair, Yejin’s face was chalky and her pale eyes were glazed with pain and sunken into deep, dark hollows. No sign of recognition registered in her eyes as Dara crossed in front of her bed, then sat down on the edge of it beside her.

Frightened, Dara reached out and grasped Yejin’s blue-veined hand, which was lying limply upon the golden coverlet. "Oh, ma'am, you must not go on this way," she said in a shaky, compassionate whisper, her eyes pleading with the elderly to listen to her. "You must not. Jiyong would hate to see you like this." When she got no reaction at all, Dara's desperation grew and she squeezed the fragile hand tightly. "Have you any idea how proud he was of your strength and spirit? Have you? I know he was, because he boasted of those very things to me."

Not certain whether Yejin hadn't heard her, hadn't believed her, or simply didn't care, Dara redoubled her efforts to convince her. "It's true. I remember the occasion very well. After our wedding we were about to leave Rosemeade, and he asked where you'd gone. I told him you were upstairs and that I greatly feared you'd never recover from our marriage. He smiled when I said that you know, one of his special smiles that made you feel like smiling in return? Then do you know what he said?"

Yejin didn't move. "He said," Dara plowed on urgently," 'It would take more than our marriage to send my grandmother into a decline"

Yejin’s eyes closed and Dara's heart missed a beat, but a moment later two tears rolled slowly down her pale cheeks. Tears were a good sign, Dara knew, and she plunged fiercely ahead: "He knew you were courageous and strong and loyal, too. From something he said to me, I don't think he believed women were capable of loyalty, except for you."

Yejin’s eyes opened and she looked at Dara with anguished pleading and doubt. Laying her hand upon the heartbroken woman's cheek, Dara tried harder to convince her she spoke the truth, but her own control was slipping so fast she could hardly speak. "It's true. He was so certain of your loyalty to him, he told me that even though you detested our marriage, you would still flay anyone alive who dared to criticize me simply because I bear his name."

The faded eyes filled with tears that began to race down Yejin’s cheeks and over Dara's fingers. Several silent minutes later, Yejin swallowed convulsively, and lifted her eyes to Dara's face. In a broken voice she pleaded, "Did Jiyong truly say that about that?"

Dara nodded and tried to smile, but Yejin’s next words sent tears spilling from her eyes and dripping from her lashes: "I loved him better even than my sons, you know," she wept. Reaching up, Yejin put her arms around the weeping girl who was trying valiantly to comfort her, and drew Dara close. "Dara," she sobbed, "I never told him I loved him. And now it's too late."

For the rest of that day and all of the next, Dara remained withYejin, who seemed to need to talk about Jiyong almost constantly, now that the dam of grief had been broken. At eight o'clock the following evening, Dara left her elderly charge resting peacefully and went down to the blue salon rather than return to the depressing isolation of her own room. Trying to keep her aching sense of loss at bay, she picked up a book.

In the doorway, Ramsey cleared his throat to announce the arrival of Youngbae Kwon.

 A cry of joy escaped Dara's lips as she rose to her feet and rushed forward. Ramsey stepped aside as Youngbae appeared in the doorway, and Dara stopped dead.  Youngbae was coming toward her.Youngbae was now the heir of Kwon Company.

Fury, irrational and uncontrollable, flamed in her that this man should dare to call himself by Jiyong's title after such an indecently short time. Youngbae had benefited from this tragedy, she realized, and he was probably glad...

Youngbae abruptly stopped walking and stared at the blazing anger on Dara's pale face. "You're wrong, Sandara," he said quietly. "I would give anything to see him walk into this room right now”

Sandara's anger abruptly dissolved at the unmistakable sincerity she heard in his quiet voice and the sadness she saw in his eyes. Too honest to deny what she had thought, she said contritely, "Please forgive me, sir."

"Youngbae," he corrected, holding out his hand for hers in a gesture of greeting and friendship. "How is my grandmother?" "Sleeping now, but she's been up a little more each day."

"Ramsey told me you've been a tremendous source of comfort and support to her. I thank you for that." "She's been very brave, and she's taking care of herself."

"And you?" he asked, walking over to a side table and pouring some sherry into a glass. "Are you taking care of yourself? You look terrible."

A flash of her old humor briefly lit her eyes. "Your memory is short, Sir. I was never more than passable-looking."

"Youngbae," he insisted, sitting down across from her and gazing into the flickering fire. "Your grandmother does not wish to remain in Seoul and be forced to endure the strain of hundreds of condolence calls," Dara said after a few minutes. "She prefers to have a small memorial service and then to leave for Rosemeade immediately after."

Youngbae shook his head at the mention of Rosemeade. "I don't think she ought to shut herself up alone at Rosemeade, and I cannot remain there with her for more than a sennight. Hawthorne place is an enormous estate, with a thousand servants and tenants who are all going to require direction and reassurance when they learn of his death. I have my work cut out for me trying to learn to manage his investments and familiarize myself with running also with the company. I would vastly prefer that my grandmother accompany me to Hawthorne and remain there."

"That would be much better for her," Dara agreed. To set his mind at rest about her own plans, Dara told him she intended to go home after the memorial service. "My mother meant to begin traveling and enjoying herself immediately after my wedding," she explained. "She promised to write and let me know her direction, so if you will have her letters sent on to me at home, I'll write to her wherever she is and tell her my husband is" She tried to say "dead" and couldn't. She could not believe the handsome, vital man she had married was no longer alive.

With a determined scowl upon her face and Ramsey trailing solicitously upon her heels, Yejin walked slowly into the yellow salon the next morning, where Youngbae was reading the newspaper and Dara was sitting at a desk, staring pensively into space.

As Yejin gazed at the pale, courageous girl with the hollow cheekbones who had pulled her through her grief, her expression softened, then underwent an immediate, radical change as her glance fell on Gaho, who was alternately chasing his own tail and tugging at the dress of Dara’s black mourning gown. "Be still!" she commanded the undisciplined beast.

Dara started, Youngbae jumped, but Gaho merely wagged his tail in greeting and renewed his gleeful play, undeterred. Caught off guard by this unprecedented case of flagrant defiance, Yejin attempted to stare the rambunctious puppy into submission and, when that had no effect, she rounded on the stately butler. "Ramsey," she commanded imperiously, "see that this deplorable creature is taken for a long, exhausting walk."

"Yes, mam. At once," the stately butler said, bowing again, his expression deadpan. Bending down, he grasped the puppy by the scruff of his neck with his right hand, placed his left hand under the dog's furry rump, and held the squirming puppy as far away from his fastidious self as the length of his arms permitted.

"Now then," Yejin said briskly, and Dara hastily stifled her wayward smile. "Youngbae informs me you intend to go home." "Yes. I'd like to leave tomorrow, after the memorial service."

"You'll do nothing of the sort. You will accompany Youngbae and me at Hawthorne."

Dara had been dreading having to return to her old life and trying to go on as if Jiyong had never lived, but she had not considered going to Hawthorne. "Why should I do that?" "Because you are the wife of a Kwon, and your place is with your husband's family." Dara hesitated, then she shook her head. "My place is at home."

"It's a non sense!"  Yejin declared stoutly, and Dara couldn't help smiling at the return of the elderly woman's familiar, autocratic manner; it was vastly preferable to the hollow shell that grief had made of her. "On the same morning you wed Jiyong," Yejin continued determinedly, "he specifically entrusted me with the task of making you into all you should be, in order that you might ultimately take your rightful place in Society. Although my grandson is no longer here, I trust I have enough loyalty," she emphasized, "to carry out his wishes."

The emphasis on the word "loyalty" made Dara recall as Yejin meant her to do that she herself had told Yejin her grandson had admired that trait in her. Dara hesitated, caught between guilt, responsibility, and concern for her own welfare should she try to live at Hawthorne, removed from everything and everyone she knew and loved. Yejin was valiantly struggling to cope with her own grief; she could not help Dara shoulder hers. On the other hand, Dara wasn't certain she could carry the terrible burden alone, as she had done when her grandfather and her father died. "You are kindness itself to suggest I live with you, ma'am, but I fear I cannot," Dara declined after a moment's further thought. "With my mother gone away, I have responsibilities to others, which must take first consideration."

"What responsibilities?" Yejin demanded.

"Penrose and Filbert. With my mother gone away, they will have no one to look after them. I had intended to ask my husband to make a place for them at his house, but" "Who" she interrupted imperiously, "are Filbert and Penrose?"

"Penrose is our butler and Filbert our helper."

"I have long been under the impression," said Yejin with asperity, "that servants exist to care for their employers, and not the other way round. However," she unbent enough to say, "I applaud your sense of responsibility. You may bring them to  Hawthorne," she magnanimously decreed. "I daresay we can always use another servant or two."

"They're quite old!" Dara hastily interjected. "They can't work hard, but they're both proud, and they need to believe they're desperately helpful. I've, well, fostered that delusion in them." "I, too, have always felt it my Christian duty to ensure elderly servants are allowed to work so long as they wish to and are able," Yejin lied baldly, hurtling a killing glance at her incredulous grandson.

Converting Dara into a polished young socialite was a project she was bent on accomplishing. It was a challenge, a duty, a goal. She was unwilling to admit that the courageous girl, who had pulled her through her shock and grief, might have stolen a permanent place in her heart, or that she was loath to bid her goodbye.

"I don't think" Dara began. Realizing Dara was about to refuse again, Yejin pulled out all the stops: "Dara, you are a Kwon now, and your place is with us. Moreover, it is your avowed duty to honor your husband's wishes, and he specifically wished for you to become a credit to his illustrious name."

Dara's resistance dissolved as Yejin last words finally struck home. Her name was Kwon now, not Park, she realized with a burst of pride and pleasure. She had not lost everything when she lost him; he had given her his name! In return, Dara recalled with a sharp pang of nostalgia, she had solemnly pledged her word to Jiyong to honor him and to obey his wishes. Apparently, he had wished her to become a proper lady worthy of his name and to take a place in Society whatever that meant Tenderness swelled in her heart as she raised her eyes to Yejin and softly promised, "I will do as he wished."

"Excellent," said Yejin gruffly. When Dara left to see to her packing, Youngbae leaned back in his chair and leveled his amused gaze upon his grandmother, who reacted by drawing herself up stiffly in her chair and trying to stare him out of countenance. The ploy failed. "Tell me," he drawled in a laughter-tinged voice, "when did you develop this violent desire to employ elderly servants?"

"When I realized it was the only way to keep Dara from leaving," she replied bluntly. "I will not permit that child to lock herself away in some godforsaken village and wear widow's weeds for the rest of her life. She is scarcely young."