Broken Angel Musings

Yunnie...I don't know how much more I can take....I am broken

I see you on the television, and on the radio I hear your voice. I try and smile, but what is the use? It's just more salt in the wounds I feel I have created.

Chunnie and Xiah tell me to keep my head up and things will smooth out. Court is taking so long, time is flying by. Each minute I lose with you feels like a lifetime.

Chunnie had to go through the hardest loss I could ever imagine. I stood by his side with Xiah, I couldn't be weak. But I was, my heart was destroyed. Because I had no one to catch me when I fell. I missed you too much.

I see how handsome you look in your photo shoots and videos. Are you eating well? And resting? How is my Minnie? Please care for him. He has had to grow up so fast and I can only blame myself for it. I am sorry Minnie-ah.

Please give him a hug for me, I cried for days when I learned his grandmother had passed on. I am comforted to think Maybe Chunnie's father and Minnies Grandmother are watching over us all.

Your going to perform at Tokyo Dome tommorow and I am hurting. My entire being would love nothing more than to be on that stage with you, or even in the audience. As I write the tears fall.

I wrote a song for you again it's a ballad. Maybe someday one day we will sing it for our Cassies deh?

Yuhno I feel like I didn't get to tell you enough. I love you. You are my better half. The completion to my soul. I hope soon you can forgive me and Chunnie and Su for everything.

My heart was a blank canvas, white and innocent
You carved your name across it
You filled it to overflowing with love
Joyful colors flowed in the veins
Music and laughter swelled the hollow spaces
Every beat, pounding and calling only for you
A dark day descended like a storm
Love was torn and ripped away
The heart shattered and broken
Laughter and music, gone with the wind
Beautiful colors spilled through the cracks
The heart lays silent, black, and cold
I was a beautiful butterfly
Soaring high in the sky
You were the wind beneath my wings
Giving me strength and hope
I fell so far
I fell so hard
I'm scared and lost
Wandering in pain
Mend my heart so it can beat again
Heal my wings so I can fly again
Kiss my lips so I can sing again
Hold me close so I can love again