After that boy leave my phone ringing

1 New Message from Baekho

Aren’t you coming to class?

I grab my phone and reply him

I guess I’m not

Then I walk to leave the rooftop to my home, I don’t feel like studying.

my phone ringing again

why?? you skipped so many class already.

I reply him back

I don’t really feel like studying.

I put my phone back to my pocket and walk down to the road out of school.

his message come again

okay, see u tomorrow

see u

I reply him back and then put my phone back and I also arrived where I always stand for hours every day, It’s Ren house.

“Ren, How are you doing? Are you okay there?” I said and smile weakly, I always said that every day in front of her house, how I wish thing would turn back?

“I miss you so much, Ren” I continue saying and my heart getting more pain.

It’s so hard to erase her from my heart, my love for her is gain day by day and I don’t know when will it stop too.

after standing there for hours and talking like crazy person, I look at my watch and it’s show

4 PM, how many have I been standing here?

I sigh and walk to my house.

Ren Pov

I saw him standing in front of my house for hours, well... my old house.... when I went back home after school, what is he doing there? Is he really waits for me? No way, It can’t be real he doesn’t even love me for real. That all just lie!!!!

I sigh and walk back to my house, I live alone in new house after things happen.

My grandparent died last week, actually there only my grandpa who is have bleed pressure but too bad my grandma also has heart attack. Everything happened so fast than we can imagine. After my grandparent funeral, my parent decided to go to status and asked me to go with them but I really want to get out from here but I don’t want to live to them after know the truth.

Flashback

Few day after my grandparent’s funeral

“Mom, I want to talk with you” I asked mom with weak voice

My mom just nod without looking at me

“I want to be myself” I said

“What do you mean?” she asked me, she still look so sad

“I want to live in form of my natural ual” I continue

“you mean—“ before she could say it I cut her off

“ I want to be boy, live as a boy” I said

“Ren” my mom said looking at me shock

“Consider that ren died with grandpa and grandma, I want to live as Choi Minki, not Ren anymore” I said with pled eyes

“No, ren.. it can’t be” mom said shock head and look away

“Why?? You said that I have to girl cause grandpa and grandma want granddaughter but now they died so I don’t need to be boy anymore right?” I said with confusing

“No” I heard dad voice from my back, I turn around and saw him look at me emotionless.

“huh?” I still confuse with the situation

“mom used to said that you will be lost job in company if I don’t be a girl but that because grandpa right?” I said looking at my dad that now comforting mom, she is crying and it make me even confusing

“No, that just a lie to make you be a girl I don’t lost job even thought you’re not girl. Your grandparent really don’t know that you’re girl since the beginning they only know that you’re boy cause the result of the pregnant test is wrong until you born that we know that you’re boy not girl and as you know your grandma have heart attack so we don’t her to find out that shock things, so—“

“So you lie to me to make me become girl??” I asked them with disbelief look then dad just nod

“I really don’t believe you mom!!! How could you?? You never care of my feeling?? You also know how much I want to be boy!!!!” I shout at her, I don’t care now, I really upset with what her did.

I kick the table near my leg and make the vase broke and that make my mom more crying. Then I walk to my own room and slam the door

“AISH!!!!!” I scream my lung out!!! Why why  my life have to be like this??

Everyone always lie to me!!!

My first love lies to me!!!

Now my parent also lies to me!!!!!

I really just want to die!!! Is there truth in the world??

I throw everything that on my desk to the mirror and it broke into piece than my giant cloth press I throw everything out, all the girl’s clothes, all the bags and the shoes, I don’t need those things!!!! Tear keep falling down my cheek.

Now my room is in so much mess. I sit down to the floor and hug my knee and crying. I cry so hard, crying like there no tomorrow and without knowing I fall in sleep with that position.

End of flashback

After that night, my parent decided to move but I don’t come along with them cause I still angry with them. I just want to be alone now cause no one is there to trust, no one that I can trust. So after they leave I went to find a small apartment by myself and live there. They said they will give me money all I need, and put it in my bank account every month.

My apartment wasn’t small and also not huge, and it also near school. And I decided to become boy and my parent doesn’t disagree anymore, and they don’t even here too.

I get my hair dye blonde and cut it short, I change everything. My room that used to be pink now is all black and white and there no cute thing like before anymore too.

But I still went to the same school cause I don’t want to change school, I can’t caught the lesson well, I just want to return to my class. I don’t think anyone can recognize me.

But this afternoon I meet him at the rooftop, the place that he asked me to be his fake girlfriend!! I went there just to take some fresh air after walk around school like new student does.

I was confuse at first that he is crying, so I asked him but with my serious face

“Why are you crying?”

he look up at me and said

“It’s nothing”

“Nothing?” yeah, how can it be something cause I was just nothing for him, I never mean anything to him

I force laugh then walk past him

When I head off the stair, I feel my tear run down, why am I crying?? Why is it hurt so much??!! Heart, why you cry over that person?? Why you love him so much??

I run to the restroom, wash my face then after the moment, I come out and excuse myself from the sunbae as my guide said that I’m not feeling well.

But when I head off to home I saw him in front of my old house, I wonder why is he there? What is he doing there?? My brain can’t answer that….

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