I still can't believe that this is happening to me. First I was offered to be an idol. Now I’m working as an idol but it would end now because I’m in so much trouble. If I just went to my room last night this would be avoided

“Are you out of your mind?! Your fans would kill me thinking that I took their idol away from them. You know how crazy a fan can be for their idols. Please Ryo don’t do this to me. Find another girl I bet they would agree being with you. But please not me”

I said while I’m in the verge of tears.

“So you mean you won’t help me even if you caused me to be in this situation? They would think bad of me a lot more. Seeing me last night with you then the next day another girl again?” He said keeping a straight face

“Why can’t we just say that we are only friends? And last night was just an accident”

“You think they would believe us if we say that we are only just friends? Let me ask you do you remember what you did last night?”

“Uhm.. No?” I said while trying to pretend that I don’t remember just to save myself from humiliation.

“Well I’ll tell you. After you faint you fell right at me and guess what we even kissed. Isn’t that nice? We are totally in a relationship by sealing it with a kiss. So don’t you worry it wouldn’t be hard to pretend as my girlfriend since we already kissed”

“Okay if you really don’t want to help me it’s fine. I’ll lend you my clothes and I’ll take you to John. I’ll wait outside”

My cheeks are burning and I don’t know what to do! I think my head is spinning. I don’t want Ryo to be mad at me for being selfish. I need to think it over and decide or if not Ryo’s career will meet its end and I don’t want that to happen. But the fans will be mad at me and I don’t want that to happen as well. I’m just a regular girl who turns out to be an idol now. I’m just pursuing my career and now I think I’ll be a failure.

“Wait! Ryo”

Ryo turned to me then said

“I know that you would disagree but its okay I can handle it. Besides I’m always in this situation so change your clothes now Heidi and I will drop you to John right away”

“Ryo—I don’t want you to be in this situation so to keep the paparazzi away I will be your girlfriend”

That’s it I’m totally ruined. I can’t face my mom now, now that I have a fake boyfriend. I feel like crying right now. I don’t know what would it be like to be an idol’s girlfriend or to be precise an idol’s fake girlfriend. What would be my career now? I’m a newbie and then I already have a boyfriend. What would the people around me say if they knew that Heidi has a guy now? I can’t believe this is all happening to me. Well I just need to look at the brighter side. I already have a boyfriend which is new because I’ve never had a boyfriend until now. I just need to keep it real and all of this will be done in no time.

So after I changed my clothes into Ryo’s clothes I felt like we really are in a relationship. I’m wearing his clothes and I felt comfortable. I love baggy shirts because it makes me feel comfortable and it suits me. It doesn’t show that I wasn’t wearing my own shirt since it fits me well. All I need to do now is to be calm so no one would think that I’m nervous

“Are you ready Heidi?”

Well actually I’m not Ryo especially when a guy is standing beside me who is really charming. Ryo changed his clothes as well and we looked like a couple. He is also wearing the same print of my shirt.

“Uhm. Yea I’m ready”

So as I walked outside Ryo suddenly grabbed my hand feeling taken aback

“What is that for?”

“We’re a couple aren’t we? We need to act one so they don’t get suspicious”

Okay so right now my knees are feeling weak and if this continues I might walk like I have jellies for a leg. So as we approach a big room in the hotel—which I don’t know why Ryo’s is dragging me into because he said he is going to drop me to John. I saw a lot of paparazzi and a lot of flash of light hit me. I can’t see clearly since the lights hurt me eyes. Then suddenly Ryo covered me by his arms so that my whole head cannot be seen. He stays like that until we reached the chairs at the center of the room. So we are here for a press conference. As I sat down I saw my mom and John waving at me. Is there a possibility that my mom didn’t know what is she here for? Well she is here for to hear that her daughter is about to announce that she has a boyfriend! John stood and went to the center chair beside me and whispered

“Don’t worry your mom knows about it”

“She do? Isn’t she mad at me?”

“Oh no no no she isn’t she understands why you have to do this”

“Thanks John it helps a lot”

I felt like a knife is pulled out from my heart. Well since my mom knows it I don’t have to worry at all

“Heidi are you okay?” Asked Ryo

“Yes, when will this press conference start?”

“Right now” As he smile then sit down

Then the paparazzi took out their cameras then shoot some photos of us again. One of the press raised his hand and asked his question

“So all of us are wondering why are you two alone last night?”

I was about to hold my microphone when Ryo held my hand then took his microphone instead

“We are talking with each other in a place where no one can find us. Unfortunately you guys are good to see us there last night”

Ryo answered it without any hesitations. He really is good at things like this

“So we are right that the two persons we last night is you and Heidi?”

“Yes” Ryo said plainly

“And you guys are the one who we spotted—“The reporter hesitated then laugh but still continued to his question

“—kissing?”

That was really personal I think but I was surprised that Ryo still answered it. I hope he just shuts his mouth because I can’t stand it any longer

“Well you guys are not supposed to see that but Heidi is too charming that night that I can’t control myself. I’m sorry Heidi if I did that” As he try to smile sweetly to the press

Oh my God. Is he really the Ryo I knew? He really is good at lying but that didn’t stop me from blushing and grabbing my microphone.

“Oh Ryo stop me it. You’re embarrassing me”

I can see that Ryo was surprised to what I did. Well I just need to speak. I can’t let him do all the work.

Then the other press asked their questions

“So Heidi you are one of the new rising stars what do you feel about it?”

“Of course I feel blessed especially when John approached me and asked if I wanted to be an idol and when Ryo came into my life”

That wasn’t a lie. I thought

“How did you meet Ryo? Did you met in the taping since you are in a same project”

This time Ryo answered it.

“No, on how we met that would be me and Heidi’s little secret”

The reporters laughed but then I bet on their next question Ryo wouldn’t find a way to avoid it.

“So Ryo we heard that Mr. Jake your director is into Heidi as well. We asked him a while ago and he said that he also liked Heidi and he will be your rival to her. What would you say about that?”

That Jake! How dare him to say that in front of the press? He isn’t thinking, really!

What could be Ryo’s reaction to that? I mean not that I’m afraid that he would be hurt because we’re just pretending but I hope he doesn’t give me up. Please…

“Well I know that Heidi will always be mine so I’m not scared that Jake might take her away from me”

I hope he wasn’t lying when he said that especially when he looks right into my eyes. Well if he is lying I don’t care either. After that John told the press that it is time for us to rest we will be having a first taping later. So I met mom on my way out of the room.

“Hi Mom I’m so sorry I disappoint you I just—“

“Stop it Heidi I’m not mad”

“You’re not? I mean of course you’re not but how come you’re not mad at me? I’m in this mess and you won’t scold me?”

“Well Heidi I know that you’ve taken a liking to that guy and I wouldn’t mind if you and him wants to go into a serious relationship”

So that is why she isn’t mad. She thinks that me and Ryo is really a couple. I can’t believe John lied to her. I just can’t take it I should tell her that we are a fake couple

“Mom I need to tell you that me and Ryo—“

“—should go now”

John is with Jake and Ryo. Looking at both of them I can’t tell which is more handsome but if who has a kind heart we’re talking about then I’ll go to Ryo. So I still didn’t tell my mom the truth maybe I’ll tell her later.

I’ll surely tell her this time.

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Our taping was delayed by two days and today we really need to tape our first scene. So early in the morning John fetch me—just to be sure that I won’t go anywhere—then accompany me to breakfast. As we walked inside the elevator I saw Ryo looking at me and walked inside the elevator as well.

“Since Ryo is here I’ll leave Heidi to you. I have a lot more things to do since today is your first taping but please don’t-go-anywhere.”

John leaving us all alone in the elevator went outside first. The elevator was huge and I don’t know why does Ryo keeps on staying beside me when there is a lot of space inside the elevator. Luckily the elevator stop and the door opened and I hurriedly went outside and go directly to the dining area of the hotel because if not I might faint again. As usual there are people who keep on walking to Ryo to ask for an autograph. Then suddenly there is this boy who walks to me and asked

“Can I have a picture with you?”

As I looked at him he is sure that he wants to have a picture with me because he is looking directly at me. The kid is about 8 years old and he has a blonde hair. Looking at him makes me want to have a little brother then his mother approached me.

“He asked me to drive for him just to see you here today. He always talks about you even in school. He really adores you.”

“Is that true?” I asked the boy

“Yes, I really adore you Heidi! I wish I was Ryo so I could be with you always”

At that time I’m sure Ryo heard it because he suddenly looked at me and smiled.

“Well where is your camera you wouldn’t want to miss this day aren’t you? Do you want to eat with me? My treat.” I said smiling at the boy

I can tell that the kid is really happy that I asked him to eat with me so he hurriedly asked his mother if he can and took the camera from his mother.

“And you Ma’am you can join me too as well.”

So as we gave our orders to the waiter we took a lot of pictures and we talked like there is no tomorrow. I am happy that I am able to let this kid dream come true and I don’t want to see him hurt when the time comes that I would tell the truth to this entire people that, Me and Ryo’s relationship is a fake. I just wish that time wouldn’t come. I want this kid to just stay smiling. Especially now that he is enjoying his time with me and I don’t want our memories together to be a bad experience for him.

“So this is it. I had a lot of fun even if we spend a short time together. Keep smiling okay?”

“I will Heidi. If ever Ryo hurt you I will beat him to death”

“Okay. I’ll see you on my debut day?”

The kid could not believe what he heard. So I told his mother to bring his son on my debut day. The kid is already special for me because he is my very first fan. So I wouldn’t want my first fan to be lost in action on my debut.

“So we will meet again. See you soon” I smiled at the kid and turned to go to the set.

As I go to the lobby of the hotel Ryo appeared beside me. I wonder how he does that.

“Who’s that kid?”

“Oh, Just a friend of mine. He really is nice. He keeps on telling me that he wished that he was you so that I could hang with him all the time—“

“You won’t be sad if I go away?”

What was that question for and why does he look serious all of a sudden? Sometimes Ryo could be weird. But I like that side of him he looks so fragile—Wait! What am I thinking? Sometimes I could be weird too.

“Of course I will! “

“Really?” he said while giving me the smile of him that I always love

“Yes so let’s go now you don’t want to be scolded aren’t you?” I said before I do something crazy again.

As we arrived at the taping I saw Jake and John talking with each other. When Jake noticed that we already arrived, he immediately told Ryo to change his outfit and said that he likes to talk to me alone.

“I can’t leave Heidi to you”

“And why wouldn’t you?”

I can feel that this two might punch each other so I immediately told Ryo that I would be fine and go change his clothes. I can see that Ryo didn’t want to but still he went to his dressing room. Jake told me to follow him so I did. We went back at the hotel and went to this enormous room. I guess this is a room used for meetings. It has a long table and chairs on the center of it and an elegant chandelier on the ceiling. I just wish this could be done fast because I don’t have a good feeling about it in fact I really want to leave the place as soon as possible

“So what do you like to talk—“

But before I finished, Jake turned off the lights then closed the window. The room became pitch black. I can’t see anything especially I have eye problems when my surrounding becomes dark. For a normal person you can still see something on daylight even if the curtains are close but for me I couldn’t. I better go to an ophthalmologist but before I think of a solution to my eye problems I better find my way out first because if not I might end up in a really bad situation.

“You know when there is two people alone in a room anything is possible”

“Well you know, I didn’t told you that I know karate and I wouldn’t mind using my skills to you”

I should have listened to John when he said that I should avoid Jake but it is too late for me now. There is no turning back the only way out is I need to reach the curtains so that I can see clearly.

“So Heidi, you know if you just agree to be my girlfriend I wouldn’t do this to you. In fact I would treat you like a princess. I would give you all the things you want and more importantly I will be yours.”

What is this guy thinking?! Is he even serious? Who told him that I want him to be mine and I already have Ryo doesn’t he know that?

“I’m not any other girl Jake. If you think that you can get me like all your other girlfriends well you thought it wrong and besides I already have Ryo so just quit it Jake”

“Well if that is what you really want”

As he the lights Jake was nowhere to be seen. I’m already eager to get to the door when suddenly Jake was in front of me.

“Tell me why did you like that Ryo?”

What is this? Is he jealous so that’s why he is doing this to me? I could punch him so I can get out of here already but I don’t want to use violence but I’m sure John would understand if he sees the director bleeding. If I don’t get out of here quickly someone might think that me and Jake is doing the thing that I would certainly not do especially now.

“Why would I tell you?”

“Because it hurts me to see you with him”

On that time I see that when Jake told those words I knew he was sincere because I can see it right through his eyes. But still I shouldn’t trust him. John told me Jake is good at making a girl fell for him

“Heidi, do you really like Ryo?”

“What if I say yes? What would you do?”

“I’ll do this—“

Then suddenly Jake moved closer. I almost skip a beat when I thought he would kiss me.

“Now what are you done teasing me just to show that I’m nervous? Then you’ll say Heidi you are so cute when you are panick—”

And the thing that I was afraid to happen a while ago happened already. I don’t know if I’m going to get mad at him or just stay on my place like a little girl but I’m sure that I shouldn’t get overwhelmed because he did this to all his victims and poor me that I am one of his victims now because

Jake kissed me.

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The taping went well and we will be leaving the hotel soon to go to our next location. I still can’t believe what had happened yesterday. Ryo asked me if I’m okay because I always end up quiet and staring at things. John asked me if I’m tired but it is really not the problem. The problem was Jake is acting like nothing happened. He even talks to me when Ryo was not around. Sometimes he would ask me to eat with him but of course I always say I’m full. But what I am thinking the most is Jake became nice. He doesn’t tease me anymore and always checks if I need something. He acts like I’m his girl which is kind of annoying. Sometimes if I see his coming I’ll go hiding somewhere just to avoid talking to him. What annoys me most is him acting like he didn’t kissed me. I want him to say sorry for his actions but still he acts like he already won something like he owns me already. What? By kissing a girl that means you both are a couple? I hate it. I hate Jake. I hate him for kissing me. I hate that next to Ryo is him. I feel like I’ve cheated Ryo which is not at all. I’m really loyal to Ryo and I can’t stand that Jake is in between our relationship—okay I’m kind of dramatic about it but still I hate Jake!

“Heidi what happened to you this past few weeks? “

“You are not talking and always at the corner. You don’t even dine with us anymore whenever Jake is around and sometimes you just stare at things. Tell me what did you and Jake talked about yesterday?”

I don’t know what to say to Ryo but the sounds of the waves of the beach make me think clearer. The wind is gentle whenever it touches my skin it is all so relaxing if only I’m not thinking if I should say the truth to Ryo or just pretend nothing is wrong? Why am I in this situation by the way? I so hate you Jake! You should be the one who is interrogated since you are the one who caused this.

“Well Ryo you won’t get mad if I tell you aren’t you?”

I look at Ryo but his expression doesn’t change. He still wears his straight face and I don’t know if that is good. Ryo still not speaking until he said

“Of course not I would surely understand what you are about to say”

Thank goodness that Ryo is a very understanding person. So I told him everything of Me and Jake’s conversation yesterday but still I left the kissing part untold.

“Is that all?”

“Yes”

“Is that really all?”

“Well, uhm…. You see—“

“Heidi I know that you still didn’t told me the thing that you are hiding since yesterday. The conversation of you and Jake wouldn’t make you like that. So I’m sure there is something else”

How did he know that I didn’t tell all the parts of the story? But I don’t know if I’m ready to tell him. I’m scared that I might disappoint him or worse he won’t talk to me again after that. But I think I need to tell him since he asks for it.

“So Heidi what is it?”

“Uhmm… JakekissedmeandI’mscaredtotellyouthatyoumightgetangryatme”

“What? Heidi speak slowly I don’t understand what you told me”

“I said JakekissedmeandI’mscaredtotellyouthatyoumightgetangryatme”

“Heidi? Can you just tell me what it is?”

“Jake kissed me!”

And that’s it I don’t know if ever Ryo would talk to me again or things would ever be the same.

So today we are packing our things to go to our next location. My mom told me that she won’t be able to accompany me on my way there because she has work. She told me she will just follow when her work is done. So George, the chauffer, arrived on time as usual.

“Good day miss. Where are your things I’ll be putting it on the back so we could leave now”

As George took my things John hurriedly went to talk to me. He looked haggard and I think something went wrong.

“What’s the matter John?”

“My car broke down and the person who could fix my car is still at the city so you will be going first along with Ryo”

“What?! But why, doesn’t he have his own car? I mean there could be someone else like the other teams!”

“Heidi, Ryo was supposed to go with me and besides you are the only one who will be riding the car there is more room for Ryo there—“

“—I know that you and Ryo still didn’t speak with each other so now is the time for the both of you to clear things up”

John is right since that day we haven’t speak at each other. I guess he is mad at me for cheating on him. But really I didn’t want to be kissed by Jake and I didn’t ask for it. I just hope Ryo would talk to me again

“Okay John be sure you would follow us on the location if things get worse here call me so George could fetch you”

I went to George to tell him that there would be another person who would ride with us. So I told him to wait for Ryo and put Ryo’s things at the back as well. As I wait for Ryo inside the car. Jake suddenly opened the door and went inside.

“Uhm? What on earth are you doing here?”

“I want to go with you”

“No you don’t and besides there wouldn’t be a seat for you because Ryo would be coming with me”

By saying that Jake leaned close to me and if ever he kissed me again I wouldn’t hesitate to punch him this time

“So you like Ryo better than me to let him accompany you?”

“John’s car broke down and Ryo was supposed to come with him so now that John’s car couldn’t make it John asked me if I can let Ryo come with me instead and why am I explaining this to you? Just get out Jake!”

I’m sure Jake was offended by my rudeness but I thought it wrong because before he opened the door he went back at me and pushed me making me lay flat on my back at the seat.

“Jake what do you think you’re doing?”

“Just trying to see if I can still make you panic and I think I got my answer”

“See you later” He smiled his pure evil smile then went out.

I can’t believe he did that. So I didn’t reach my senses right away when Ryo opened the door. He saw me lying on the back seat then lowered his head close to my face

“What are you doing?”

I want to sit right up but I can’t because if I do my lips would touch his. So I just stayed on my position but then he removed his face near to mine and I sit fast before he do it again. So the trip was quiet and no one is moving. It felt like if one moves a finger it would turn on a bomb switch. I can do it for hours but the only problem is I’m hungry. So I just sit quietly but then my tummy embarrassed me again by making a really loud noise. I’m sure that Ryo heard it because he laughed so hard. I’m really ashamed for what I did. I just hope I could faint again.

“Here you go” handing me my favorite, California maki.

“How do you know?”

“Well I asked your Mom” looking embarrassed so he looked away

So I guessed we are in speaking terms again. We talked and laughed during the whole trip. We ate together and I even shared the California maki that he gave me. So the trip went well and after 2 hours of driving we reached our next location. This time it looks like a village with a lot of flowers surrounding it. I opened the window to have some fresh air. It feels so relaxing and the fragrance of the flowers makes me feel calm. So George went at the back to get our things. So I closed the window and took my bag and tried to open the door to have a better look at the village but then Ryo held my hand and pulled me. That was the time when all the things in my head went blank but I can hear my heart beating fast. My knees got weak and luckily I’m sitting so I won’t fall this time. I didn’t faint too. So this is what it feels like kissing someone you developed feelings for. It is gentle and it doesn’t make me feel troubled. It is different by just kissing someone, someone like Jake. So now I am sure,

I’ve completely fallen in love with Ryo.