I wrote this while thinking of Jungkook. Hope you enjoy :) 

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Smiles.

Smiles can tell you a lot about a person.

They can tell you their joys, their pains, their sufferings, their secrets that they don’t want the world to hear.

I often wonder what hides behind your smile.

What kind of things in life even your hyungs don’t know.

Maybe there are unanswered dreams from your days as a little boy in Busan, with an imagination so big you didn’t know what to do with it?

Or do you hide some of your darkest secrets behind that smile- swallowing them down, afraid of the way the world will see you?

Do you hide them, your inner demons?

Do you hide them like us?

For us?

For the ARMYs across the world who smile bright for you?

Who’s smiles have spread like wildfire, encompassing an amount of people beyond your comprehension.

Who’s smiles have lead to your dreams coming true- far beyond your wildest imagination.  

 

For all I think of what’s behind your smile, I think more of your eyes.

What kind of things have your eyes seen, or have not seen, that I could not even fathom.

I think first of the moments you’ve missed in your own life, moments you have not had the pleasure of witnessing

Childhood friendships that ended because you’re never in one place for too long

Family get togethers that had to be missed because of a tour
Or maybe a wedding you couldn't attend because you were on the other side of the world doing an interview.

These moments make my heart hurt for you

But then I remember all the memories you’ve made, all the special moments in life you have seen in your short 21 years

Moments that you probably never thought would become a reality

I think of the immense amount of success that you have seen in the past years

Amounting to mountains upon mountains of trophies and records

I think of the amazing times you’ve spent with your hyungs

Wide smiles and tearful laughter that speaks bounds to what a true friendship is

I think of the hundreds of thousands of faces you’ve seen

All of them that have gazed upon yours with nothing but love in their eyes.

 

I think of the these moments in bittersweet happiness.

For my cruel mind reminds me that this could end at any moment

My mind reminds me of this on a daily

It reminds me that soon a day will come when the speakers will go silent

When the microphones will be put away

When the studio will start to collect dust

I try not to think too much of these days, for I fear for when they come

I fear that I will not ever see another bunny smile from ear to ear

Or witness your eyes glisten like stars from the joyful tears brought forward by love

I fear that the music I’ve grown to love and depend on will be no more

And the love in my heart will be empty from you

I fear that these days will never end, that you and your hyungs will find other things to love in life

I fear that the army will change you, that it will never bring you back to us.

Back to the true ARMY

 

But for all these fears, there is hope

There is hope that love will prevail and two years of service will disappear like magic

There is hope that you will all return, unscathed and ready to make music like never before.

There is hope that the joy will envelope my body once more, exciting me like none other ever has

And these hopes will keep me holding on

These hopes will be the bond unbroken by time

These hopes will always lead me back to you