Baekhyun parks his car in his apartment's parking lot before heading towards his apartment. Their,apartment. He fumbles with his keys before opening the door. Pocketing his keys back,slowly enters his so-called home. It has been a month since he and his ex boyfriend seen each other. After 'that' incident,he never saw Luhan again. He heard from a friend that the Chinese man moved back to China. It hurts. But he really couldn't blame anyone for his pain. He was the one who started it all. He has no one to blame but himself. Silence greets Baekhyun as he enters the living room. No Luhan to greet him with his usual 'Yo baby' followed by sweet kisses to his face. And its...depressing. He shouldn't be sad. He shouldn't be. It was his fault anyway. But even though he was the one who ended their relationship— "Please Baekhyun,I'll do anything j-just...let's fix this,please!" Luhan knelt down,taking Baekhyun's hand in his,crying. "If you want,I won't be clingy anymore,just don't break up with me...please,I ... I love you. I love you,please ...Baek,I'm begging you.." "I'm sorry Lu... but I'm not happy anymore..." he said,retracting his hand leaving Luhan to sob even more. Luhan kept sobbing. Baekhyun ignores the pinch in his chest upon seeing Luhan break down. He's got a lot of practice just for this moment. It should be second nature by now. He should not be affected by seeing Luhan in pain. Luhan took his time before he finally,barely calms. He sniffed slowly raising his eyes to meet Baekhyun's blank ones. "A-are we really over?" he croaked. He sounded so hurt. And it almost made Baekhyun take his words back,almost hugged Luhan in his arms,but he stopped himself. He needs space. Yes,that's right Baekhyun,you need space. "I'm afraid so..." —he felt like he wasn't the one who initiated the break up because it dawns on him now,how much he misses Luhan. And his silly antics, his doll-like face,his clinginess,his kind heart and—in fact Baekhyun misses everything about Luhan. He misses his deer,even if he doesn't have the right to anymore. He knows he's an idiot,for letting someone like Luhan go. He's a jerk for ever treating Luhan like trash. A fool for ever thinking that he doesn't love Luhan anymore. A for not taking him back when he got so many chance to do so. What was he thinking?! Why did he hurt Luhan like that? He doesn't know. He really don't. All he knows is that he regretted everything now. Its too late to change everything. Luhan was not here anymore. He ended everything between them and he should move on. But he can't. Who was he kidding? tears are fallin' while I'm callin' can't make it alone,no so silent,nobody's home Flashes of Luhan backhugging him makes Baekhyun freeze. These memories are making it unbearable for him. It's 8 in the evening and he's currently watching TV. One particular scene from his favorite drama starts to show. The main actors were in the couch cuddling. Baekhyun swallows a lump as he feels his eyes starting to water. Tell me is it gonna be another lonely heart tonight? without you,without you cause I don't wanna wake up in the morning knowing you're not mine without you,without you 9 months without Luhan is hell on earth. He goes to work every day to distract himself but once he comes home,everything returns. The regret. The pain. The longing. The memories. His heart is suffering but he couldn't do anything about it. Gotta get you back to me Get away,my misery 2 years and a half. Without him. Baekhyun has turned into a complete different person. He no longer sees joy in life. No longer believes in love. No longer happy. If only he could turn back time. He'd trade anything