I am supposed to be happy right now. This is what I want, right? Or that’s what I want to think of? Or I am just convincing myself that I did the right thing. He left me and letting go of him is the best decision, right????

    It’s been a week or more since we broke up and we part ways peacefully but when I thought that everything is fine, there comes more questions that are left unanswered when I let him go. Am I going to be okay? Is he okay? Is he hurting? Or am I more in pain? Can I really live without him? Can he live without me?

    I know 4 months is too short to go all depressed and crying in the corner for the reason that the days that we are together are too short. But can you blame me when all those days and months that we have been together; he made me felt different things that I haven’t had before.

    Is it a sin if I wish that you’re still here beside me? Or am I selfish if I ask you to stay and understand everything that I want to do in life? I miss you Taeyeon. I miss us. Jessica thought and silently cried herself to sleep.