Chapter 5

Awaken Fears

Kihyun woke up early, as usual, he wanted to cook and clean up before the other woke up he comes out of the bathroom and was about to head to the kitchen when he saw Wonho sitting on the couch like a statue not moving he wasn’t even sure if the older was breathing.  He raised one eyebrow before asking the older if his alright when he got no answer he walked over to the older moving his hands up and down in front of him and noting. “ Hyung you alright,” he asked shaking the older a little Wonho snapped from his thoughts as he looks at Kihyun. “ what is it Kihyun” “ I was calling your name couple times but you didn’t answer you alright.” The younger asked stilling looking at Wonho a little worried. “ yeah yeah where's Changkyun,” Wonho asked looking around the room. “I’m guessing his sleep it’s pretty early for the others to wake up why,” the younger asked curiously why the older was asking about Changkyun.

“ Kihyun why do you dislike him and don’t ask who I know you who” Wonho said standing up and looking the younger in the eyes. “ will isn’t it obvious he stole Gunhee spot as the second rapper he paid his way in, you just want me to act like that never happened.” Kihyun said mad the older would ask him why he didn’t like Changkyun when he knew why. “ buts that’s not true, when you look at him what do you see huh does he look Like someone who would pay his way through. He looks too innocent and I asked the CEO if the rumors were true and you know what he said he said Changkyun won the competition fair and square it was his talent that earned him a spot in the group just like all of us.” Wonho didn’t stop once to catch his breath he was furious at himself and everyone for letting the youngest down. “ what’s wrong with you why are you all of sudden standing up for him.” “ because if we don’t change our ways and admit we were wrong and apologize to him now I feel like we won’t ever get the chance to,” the older said walking away not giving Kihyun one more glance back.

Kihyun stood there a little taken back to what Wonho said he thought about what Wonho meant when he said: "we won’t ever get a chance to." He shook his head and headed to the kitchen still thinking what Wonho said Kihyun knew Changkyun doesn’t look like he would pay his way in but it was the only thing that made sense to him, how can someone that come 2 weeks before the finals win. He rolled his eyes and cleared his head he didn’t want to think too much of it.

When Jooheon woke up the first thing he saw when he opens his eyes was Wonho sitting on the empty top bunk staring at Changkyun. “ Hyung what are you doing up there.” He asked Rubbing his eyes and getting off his bed. “Jooheon it isn’t too late is it” “ huh” “ it ain’t too late is it I feel like it is” “ Hyung did you finally lose your mind I don’t know what you're talking about.” “ we have to change if we want him to breathe,” Wonho said his eyes never looking away from Changkyun curled up figure. “ you lost it Hyung I’m going to the bathroom I think you should go eat or something you look creepy,” Jooheon said leaving his room he was confused he didn’t know what Wonho was talking about but a part of him felt like he knew and was a little afraid of Wonho words. He went into the bathroom laughing at himself for taking Wonho so serious.

“Morning Jooheon,” Kihyun said when he saw Jooheon walking into the kitchen grabbing a cup of coffee. “morning Hyung” the younger replied as he sat down. “ Hyung I think Wonho Hyung lost his mind and for real this time I mean he was already too emotional for a guy it was always a bit weird but I’m sure he lost it for sure.” Jooheon said smiling as he drinks his coffee. “ what you mean” the older asked as he flipped the eggs in the pan. “ his sitting on the empty bunk bed in our room staring at Changkyun he was saying some creepy words too.” Kihyun stopped flipping the eggs and looked at Jooheon a little confused. “what did he say” Kihyun asked looking at the younger a little worried. “ something along the line we aren’t late and we have to change if we want him to still breathe.” Kihyun didn’t know why those words scarred him but he felt Wonho knew something that they didn't and when Wonho don’t tell them things alright away it means it’s bad very bad. “ what do you think he means,” Jooheon asked when he saw the older looking a little worried. “ I don’t know probably just Wonho trying to scare us you know how he is,” Kihyun said going back to flipping his eggs which were about to burn. “ I don’t know about that I feel like there’s something more to it.” The younger said going back to drinking his coffee after a couple minutes of silent they started to talk about their schedules and forgot all about what Wonho said.

When Changkyun woke up he didn’t expect to see Wonho staring at him with his large brown eyes. He looked at the older confused and looked away when he saw the sadness written all over his face. “Hyung are you alright you look like you haven’t slept at all.” Wonho just blinked he couldn’t believe the younger was asking him if was alright when he was completely the one who wasn’t at all alright. Wonho got down and stood in front of Changkyun who looked at him confusedly.  Changkyun was about to ask his Hyung if was okay when he was pulled into a tight hug. “ I’m sorry Changkyun, I’m sorry we made you suffer, I’m sorry we hurt you, I’m sorry we didn’t take care of you, I’m sorry that I wasn’t a good Hyung. " Changkyun was taken back he blinked a few times before he hugged the older back saying it’s alright that he shouldn’t blame himself that he understood. When Wonho heard Changkyun say that he started to cry more and held the younger tighter. “ I promise we will change in that meantime I need you to hold on and breathe okay,” Wonho said as he pulled out of the hug to look ok at Changkyun. the younger didn’t know what Wonho meant but he shook his head and said I’ll wait for that day.

Wonho pulled the younger into one more tight hug before he fixes the younger messy hair and gave him a kiss on the forehead. “get dressed and come out for breakfast I’ll make you some pancakes. “ahh Hyung.” “don’t even say it Changkyun you are eating after getting dressed I don’t want my puppy to practice on an empty stomach. “ okay.” when Wonho left Changkyun couldn't help but smile he felt butterflies in his stomach as if everything would be alright he felt accepted for once in his life. he couldn't help but accept Wonho apology right away he was never one to hold a grudge, and he never blamed his team members for hating him he understood he took a spot that belonged to someone. he blushed as he remembered Wonho calling him a puppy and kissing him on the forehead.

“Morning guys,” Wonho said as he walked into the kitchen smiling. Kihyun and Jooheon looked at each other while Hyungwon and Shownu smiled when they saw Wonho smiling. “looks like someone woke up on the right side of the bed,” Hyungwon said as he drinks his coffee. “ don’t mind me I’ll be making some pancakes,“ the older said as he took out a bowl and the pancakes flower. “ when did you cook” Kihyun asked laughing at the thought of Wonho cooking. “ I can cook I just don’t,” Wonho said as he mixed the pancake and start pouring on the pan. Everyone watched with wide eyes as Wonho cooked like a professional when he was done he placed 5 pancakes on top of each other and poured the maple syrup on top of it and spared whipped cream on top of it and lastly placed a strawberry on top of it. He put the perfectly made pancake on the empty seat next to him and placed a cup of milk next to it. “ okay who are you and what did you do to Wonho Hyung.” Jooheon said looking at the pancake Wonho made a little shocked. “ haha funny Jooheon I just don’t like you guys enough to make food for you, plus I went to college to achieve my cooking degree so i know how to cook pretty well.” Everyone looked more confused when Wonho said that they knew Wonho went to college but they didn’t take him seriously when he said he had a cooking degree. “ okay this is so weird who did you make that food for anyway.”

“ for Kyunie and speaking of him hey Changkyun come here don’t you dare try to hide,” Wonho said as he got up to get Changkyun who was ready to run from the house. “ but Hyung I'm not hungry,” Changkyun whined for the first time he let his guard down as he tries to get away from Wonho who dragged him. “ Hyung i will let you hug me every morning but place don’t make me eat there,” Changkyun said trying to pull away. Everyone on the table watched a little surprised when they saw the way Changkyun was acting the whole 6 months they knew him he never showed anyone his cute side. Shownu watched happily he didn’t even know the youngest had another said to him. “ Kyunie you don’t have to give me a permission to hug you I can hug you whenever I want to and you are eating they won’t bite so come on,” Changkyun gave up and let himself be dragged to the kitchen. the younger eyes widen he saw the pancake and milk. “ eat up I don’t want my adorable puppy to starve,” Wonho said ruffling the younger hair as he sat him down. When Changkyun saw the food he forgot the others in the kitchen and started to eat it wasn’t until his checks were stuffed that he noticed eyes on him. He looked up his large light brown eyes looking at each member a little scared.

Jooheon didn’t know he was smiling when he saw the way Changkyun looked with his stuff cheeks he would never admit that the youngest looked so cute and innocent with his stuff cheeks. He remembered what happened to Gunhee the anger he had for the younger returned. Hyungwon didn’t know why he felt happy inside when he saw the younger look at him he also didn’t know why the younger remained him of a puppy. Kihyun held himself back from running to the Changkyun and giving the younger a kiss on the head. Changkyun remained him of a forgotten innocence one you want to hide from the world so one would hurt it. Shownu couldn’t stop smiling he could see Changkyun was finally letting down one barrier down and he can’t wait for the youngest to let the others down.

“ Can you guys stop staring at him you scaring him,” Wonho said giving everyone a death glare. Wonho words brought the others back to reality they look away and got up to get ready for practice. When they left Changkyun swallowed his foods smiling at the older melting his heart. “Eat up know before you kill me with your cuteness,” Wonho said pitching Changkyun checks he went to clean the stuff he made with pancake and poured himself a cup of coffee. Changkyun couldn't help but tear up a bit it was the first time in his life that he felt loved and it was an overwhelming feeling he didn't know what to do with. He turned around to look at Wonho who was cleaning and smiled he just stared at the older thinking maybe everything would be alright just maybe he didn't have to leave so soon. Looking at the older released unforgettable pain he hid he didn't even know he had something to live for until Wonho hugged him and told him everything will get better.

Wonho finished washing the last plate when he saw a pair of eyes looking at him he turned around only to see Changkyun staring at him with tears in his eyes. This got the older to panic thinking something was wrong with Changkyun he dropped the cloth he was holding and ran over dropping to his knees. “ Changkyun what's wrong are you okay,” Wonho lifted Changkyun head as the younger closed his eyes the tears making down his cheeks. Wonho whipped the tears of Changkyun cheeks right before the younger got to his knees hugging the older. Wonho didn't know what was wrong but he hugged him back asking if he was right. “ Hyung please tell me you're not pulling a prank I'm so tired of people telling me everything will be alright only to have it thrown on my face. I'm just so tired of getting betrayed over and over and always getting my heart broken.” Wonho held the younger so tight as if something would pull Changkyun of his hands and he would never see him again.” “  no Changkyun i wouldn't ever do that I'm just so sorry i didn't reach out to you sooner. I hate myself for not ever realizing how much you mean to us.” Wonho couldn't hold it anymore he cried holding the younger in his arms. Changkyun just laid his head on the older shoulders hoping the older meant what he said he felt his heart beating so fast while Wonho held him tight.

Kihyun stood near the kitchen door wiping away his tears, he accidentally walked into the kitchen when Wonho dropped to his knees. Hearing Changkyun says he was tired of getting his heart broken broke the older heart. As he stood there Wonho words from earlier sank in and everything made sense to him, and he was scared for the first time in his life knowing if they don't change the way they treat the youngest they might never see him again.

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Kyinnie96 #1
Chapter 13: I love this story so much. Please update this story.....
iamelly99 #2
Chapter 13: I love your story... Please update soonㅠㅠ
leeyab0o
#3
Chapter 4: Thank you so much for writing this story . O really enjoy this story .

Thank you . Love ya
annethundr05 #4
Chapter 13: Ok so this story still breaks my heart. This chapter alone made me cry. My poor Kyunnie baby, you'd have really been through it. Like I'm still so very happy that he has Wonho, he really is trying so same damn hard to help and protect him. Kudos my dear
Maddie12578
#5
Chapter 12: I can not wait for the next chapter. I swear I love this story and it just keeps on getting more and more interesting. :D
Taerbangbersamastan
#6
Chapter 12: Hello mister Kenton Catchcart,
How can u decided to adopted a child if u know u can't give him family warmth??
Taerbangbersamastan
#7
Chapter 11: I'm not blame Sam and Ben cause they're just a child when that happen.
But, where's that ing parents??!

This chapter is not angst but I can't stopped myself from crying.
Taerbangbersamastan
#8
Chapter 10: That diary...
It must be sad when it exposed**
Taerbangbersamastan
#9
Chapter 9: Joshh!!
Stop hating
Give love°°
Taerbangbersamastan
#10
Chapter 1: How can they neglected him like that.
Coming to practices with lack of nutritious would harm him ××