After having dinner with the other 2 days ago made Changkyun do everything to avoid something like that to happen again, he would stay behind when practice ends so he doesn’t have to face anyone. Shownu and Wonho would tell him he doesn’t need to overwork himself and that he should leave with them but the younger would refuse so they would let him stay over but never without a fight of getting him to come home with them. Wonho knew the reason Changkyun stayed and he really hated it in a way he felt bad that the younger choose to overwork himself instead of being around them. So after the 3rd night, Changkyun choose to stay behind Wonho stayed with him, the younger was awkward around him he didn’t know what to do. He slowly dances trying to ignore the older he didn’t even understand why the older stayed it made his anxieties level go up, every time he moves he moved knowing the older was watching him and because of he would lose his balance.

Seeing how the younger acted around him made Wonho really sad he wanted to kill the awkwardness and see Changkyun smile, like he did when they went out to eat couple nights ago. “ Changkyun can you come here” Wonho said after seeing the younger failing at the dance moves he had down only a few hours ago. “ what is it hyung” the younger walked to Wonho with his head down thinking Wonho would scold him for nothing dancing well. “ can we talk” the older ask patting down the floor next to him. Changkyun sat down biting down his lower lip he was so nervous that his hands got sweaty. Wonho turned to the younger facing each other “ what made you want to be a rapper.”  The older asked he knew the younger was an amazing rapper.  He remembers the first time they met him he looked so small and vulnerable it made Wonho think how he could be a rapper when he didn’t have the confidence to Wonho, Changkyun looked like a kicked puppy so he knew the company was using the younger for views. Then the unexpected happened after spending the night with Changkyun who everyone ignored they went down to the studios were mad clown asked Changkyun if he was a better rapper than Gun, everyone snorted when he said yes and they started to laugh when Mad clown asked if he was as good as Jooheon and he said yes. Mad clown asked the younger to freestyle for them he looked scared for a second before he took a deep breath. when Changkyun starts rapping there were few Jews that dropped and the others had wide eyes. He had a deep voice that didn’t fit his image he's rapping style was unique and it blew everyone away how he could easily rhyme. That’s when Wonho knew it was no longer a game that Changkyun was put in the show.

Before heading home both boys stopped to grab dinner from a nearby restaurant before it closed. After they picked up their food they headed to the park to eat and relax a bit. Changkyun felt a little comfortable with the older after they had there chat but he was still afraid to put down his barriers. When both boys seat down and started to eat Wonho couldn’t help but ask the younger questions about himself. “ so Changkyun tell me about yourself” Changkyun raised an eyebrow wondering why the older was asking him about his life but he didn’t want to be rude. so he told him how he was born in South Korea and his parents moved to Israel when he was just a baby how they stayed there 4 years before coming back to Korea again. And when he was 7 he got adopted and his adoptive parents moved to Boston. Changkyun catches himself when he noticed he said to much, he was just glad he didn’t tell Wonho about the 2 years in between when his parents sold him to the man. Wonho started at the younger with a shock he wasn’t expecting Changkyun to have an adoptive family. “ oh what happened to your biological parents” he asked “they just got tired of me nothing much. it’s getting late hyung we should head home.” Changkyun got up and throw his food away leaving Wonho in more shock and disbelief the older wasn’t prepared to hear whatChangkyun said he was taken back how Casual the younger said his parents got tired of him and gave him away when they didn’t want him anymore.

The walk home was quiet and the air around them was heavy Changkyun was beating himself for saying too much, while Wonho had a million questions running through his mind from what disgusting parents would just throw their child away to what kind of life Changkyun lived. When they reached home Changkyun ran into his room and hide away. The older decided to take a hot shower before heading to bed while in the shower Wonho couldn’t help but think about what Changkyun said at first he thought it was just the way the other members were treating him that made the younger look sad and Vulnerable but as he thought more about it he felt that there was something more something deeper that the younger isn’t sharing. And that’s was the first time it hit Wonho how was Changkyun holding it all together cause he knew for sure the younger didn’t have friends, who did he share and talk to about his feelings and it scared the older to know maybe Changkyun was hurting himself when things got hard. The older gasped and dropped his soap when he remembered how the younger never wore a sleeveless shirt matter of fact Wonho was sure he never saw Changkyun wrist the whole year they knew him. Shaking Wonho stepped out of the shower and dried himself before going into the younger room to see if he's overreacting he knew the younger was asleep so he planned to lift his shirt to see.

He quietly walked over to the younger and couldn’t help looks how peace the younger looked when his asleep as if nothing matter in the world. He bites his lower lip as he slowly lifts Changkyun sleeve up to relieve this wrist and Wonho wasn’t prepared for what he saw. This eyes never left the younger wrist as he stared with tears running down his cheeks. The marks on Changkyun wrist run deep his whole wrist was covered with new and old marks as Wonho lift more the marks became bigger and deeper. He was so caught up staring at the younger marks that he didn’t notice Changkyun move. It wasn’t until he felt Changkyun move his arm and curl into a ball still asleep that Wonho was brought back to reality. He felt his stomach drop as he saw burned marks on the younger back the more he looked the more he felt sick to his stomach.

He didn’t know when he walked out of the room and into the bathroom all he knew was he couldn’t longer breath he held his head down the toilet trying to throw up, when nothing came out he started to splash cold water on his face trying to erase what he saw from his mind but the images wouldn’t go away every sec he closed his eyes he saw them and he was scared to know how far the marks run. He sat behind the bathroom door his back against the door he brought his knees to his chest as his mind started to race “Changkyun. Changkyun omg Changkyun I'm so sorry”  Wonho rocked himself as he started to cry he felt so much different emotion hit him at the same time. he felt horrible the way he and the other treated him, sad that the younger cut himself to release everything because he was alone, angry at the person who did that to the younger back, scared that they will lose the younger if they did not change. That night Wonho didn’t sleep he didn’t know if he will ever sleep after what he saw. He wanted to talk to the younger hold him tight forever but he wanted Changkyun to sleep before he could ask him some tough questions.