18/07/18

Hey love, 

There's a lot going on today, double celebration as I should say.. 

It's Taeminnie's birthday now love! Also my lil bro's birthday.. Faith can be unexpected no? Anyway, I am fully aware that you're looking down on him from above right? Its his first birthday without you my love.. So please allow yourself to let him feel your presence.. Give him the comfort okay? Let him know that you are always with him. You're proud of him aren't you? He's your mini me my love, whenever he sings he sometimes gets your voice.. The voice that you left behind.. 

Besides the celebrations, I will never forget that this also marks your 7th month my love, although don't worry too much.. I am now starting to learn to live with the pain, please continue to be with me my love okay? I promise to live my life to the fullest. For you, for SHINee.

Know that everyday doesn't get any easier for me love and I'm not sure if it ever will be.. But I will try my best, for you. 

I love you so much Jjong.. 

I miss you so much more everyday.

I'm sorry.