I Want To Say Sorry (But I Love You So Much)
Description
“The three of them, they’re the only remaining members of M, and even though everyone in EXO loved the members who left, Jongdae, Yixing, and Minseok have a bond with them that the K members can’t really share.”
Or: the fall of EXO-M through Jongdae's eyes.
Foreword
So this is something I started working on a year and a month ago, and I only just finished, so yay for productivity!
This was one of the most emotionally draining things I've ever written, and hopefully has discouraged me from ever writing angst again because it honestly KILLS me. I started writing this as a kind of way for me to work through my emotions about the tragedy that is/was EXO-M :( and it kind of spiralled out of control and also became a way for me to deal with my depression? Which is probably a large part of why it came out so angsty and sad so sorry about that :/
This was originally supposed to be even longer, but recently I started feeling kind of weighed down by this fic because of how long I was working on it, so I decided to cut some scenes. I'm not super happy with the ending (I had originally planned more), but I think the ambiguity works with the overall theme of the fic lol
The title is a lyric from Promise by EXO-M, aka the song that inspired me to write this in the first place!
As always, thank you for reading! Comments and feedback are always appreciated and welcome! :)
(Crossposted from my AO3 account.)
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