"I'm leaving,"

"wh-what? What do you mean unnie?"  Chaerin ask me, looking shock, but at the same time, resign.  She knows what I'm talking about, but she doesn't want to truly acknowledged it, because to do so mean it really is the end.

I feel bad for her, and I'm so sorry it has come to this.  She put in so much for 2NE1, delaying her album and all.  When Minzy left, and Bom didn't renew, it was just us two.  Even though we were officially disband, it was us, me and CL, that stayed with YG, hoping to continue to carry on 2NE1's legacy through our solo career.  It felt like our trainee years again, but this time, we didn't have three other people to rely on, we only had each other.

But while YG let CL continue with her plans, and help her along the way, I was left to the side line.  I traveled myself, reconnecting with old friends, and strengthening relationships with acquaintances in hope of have some work.  But even with the offers, it still had to be approved, and it wasn't.  CL saw that, and she tries so hard for me, petitioning YG for me.  It hurts, it really did, to see her neglect and outright ignore her opportunities to help me.   I can see that she feels responsible, that she feels that it's because of her that YG neglect me.

I don't ever want her to feel like that.  And I am so done with her postponing her plans for me.  I'm tired of being neglected and ignore by my company.  I'm tried of people only seeing me as a pretty face.  It wasn't easy coming to this decision, but it's a necessary step, for myself, for CL, and for 2NE1's legacy.

I know my baby leader understand that, but understanding and acceptance are two very different things.  I only wish I could have done more, be better, simply so we would never be in this position in the first place.

I smile sadly, trying to convey everything I wish I could say,

I see her eyes tearing up,  so I pull her into a hug.

We cling to each other, my strong leader sobbing into my shoulder as I try to remain strong for both of us.

"I'm sorry Baby-Rin, I'm so sorry"

"Don't, not your fault" she stutter out, voice breaking under the weight of her tears.

"I promise you, one day, we'll stand on stage together again."

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"Noona, you're really leaving?" Taeyang asks, his normal smiling face replace with sadness,

"I'm sorry"  I feel like i'm saying that a lot.  I don't know why i'm sorry though, am I sorry I'm leaving or I'm sorry to bring such sadness, or I'm sorry I wasn't good enough so that this never would have happened anyway.

A hand squeeze my shoulder, "Don't say that, it's us that should be sorry."

Ah, T.O.P, most people don't think so, but we're really good friend.  We have a great connection.  Maybe because  we're both a bit cra