"I'm tired "

chaerin hanya memandang ke arah jong in yang tengah gelak sakan.

i regret telling him everything

"like the hell? he proposed to you? buta ke dia tu?" tanya jong in sambil rasa nak hentak kepala dia kat dinding.

"kau jealous lah tu ada orang suka kat aku." kata chaerin

"sorry? i tasted you before. everyone after me just dapat leftover je. i dont mind sharing .." kata jong in

walaupun niat di hati chaerin nak halau jong in keluar dari rumah ni sambil rembat dia pakai penyapu,

tapi fikiran dia terlampau focus untuk memikirkan cara macam mana dia nak larikan diri dari masalah ni

firstly, memang dia takde alasan munasabah

park chanyeol si idiot tu takkan terima kalau alasan chaerin ialah sebab chanyeol dah ada wife

takkan nak cakap macam tu kan? 

kalau park chanyeol buat kerja gila dia and ceraikan semua wives dia macam mana?

plus kalau dia cakap yang dia tak suka playboy, sah lah akan mengundang kemarahan park chanyeol.

sama je dengan membunuh diri namanya.

baik dia berhenti kerja je

and lastly, takkan nak cakap dia belum bersedia?

seriously chaerin buntu.

but dia taknak kahwin dengan chanyeol,

tiba2 telefon bimbit chaerin berdering,

chaerin takut nak tengok nama di pendail

macam mana kalau chanyeol call?

oh no, i cant.

im not prepared.

but instead, jong in yang angkat call.

"hello?..... huh?..... chaerin?"

jong in pandang chaerin.

"siapa tu?" chaerin tanya dengan nada yang sangat perlahan.

"boss kau nama dia baekhyun ke?" tanya jong in

chaerin lega bila dia dengar bukan chanyeol yang call.

but wait,

what?

baekhyun?

"sini phone aku!!" chaerin tarik phone dia dari tangan jong in

cepat2 dia letak kat telinga,

wah kemain ayu ye duduk angkat call

"yes? cari aku ke?" tanya chaerin

"ahh chaerin, can we have a dinner together malam ni?" suara baekhyun kedengaran

chaerin rasa nak semput,

dia perlukan oksigen

jong in pulak hanya tengok dengan menyampah

mamat tu ajak keluar makan je pun, dah melting bagai

"chae-"

"yes, i'm here. so nak makan kat mana?" tanya chaerin.

"urm, we'll decide later. nanti pukul 7:30 i'll fetch you." kata baekhyun

lepas cakap okay,

chaerin terus campak phone dia dan dia menari kat atas sofa macam orang gila

serious dia ni pelik gila,

tadi bukan main runsing fikir pasal boss dia park chanyeol.

now happy pulak sebab baekhyun ajak keluar makan.

"what the hell chaerin? can't you stop jumping?" tanya jong in

pening kepala jong in dibuatnya

chaerin hanya jelirkan lidah

"biarlah, aku tengah happy.." kata chaerin 

jong in ambil telefon bimbit chaerin tadi dan pandang

"baekhyun? boyfriend baru kau ke?" tanya jong in, ada sedikit rasa sedih pada suara itu

"nope, dia kawan office aku.."

chaerin doesn't know why she just bluff everything to jong in

maybe because she is happy?

"lahh kawan office je pun. ni mesti kau minat kat dia kan? tu yang meroyan bagai.." kata jong in

chaerin berhenti melompat dan jeling kat jong in.

"sibuk lah kau ni, baik aku fikir malam ni nak pakai baju apa." 

chaerin turun dari sofa tu dan rampas semula phone dia dari jong in.

"and please, stop approaching infront of me. you know we end this long time ago right?" tanya chaerin.
 
pandangan chaerin tajam

"but chaerin, kau tak kesian-"

"shh jong in, kalau cakap pasal kesian, dulu masa kau tinggalkan aku, kau ada rasa kesian tak kat aku?"

tiba2 rasa marah chaerin membuak-buak

jong in terdiam,

he wants to stay with chaerin

but he knows she wont agree

she will never want me anymore

"please, kita end cara baik kan? so why not-"

"we never end nicely. remember that kau dah malukan aku satu university dulu. best couple konon." kata chaerin

"i'm sorry.."

chaerin rasa nak nangis.

"too late, now get out" kata chaerin

chaerin menolak kasar badan jong in.

chaerin tak sampai hati, tapi bila dia ingat balik apa yang jong in buat dulu.

she is sure that he deserves it

chaerin tutup pintu dan terus kunci.

dia duduk kat sofa sekejap sebelum dia teringat perkara yang menyakitkan hati dia dulu

bila dia pergi university, semua kawan2 dia berbisik sesama mereka

chaerin tak faham kenapa sampailah dia nampak jong in sedang pegang tangan seorang junior depan mata dia sendiri

and its hurt

the memories went blur but the pain remain the same.

i hate you jong in.

i really hate you liar!

..................

"so.. reason kita dinner berdua ni-"

baekhyun meletakkan garfunya,

chaerin pandang baekhyun dengan mata yang bersinar-sinar

please tell me that i'm beautiful tonight.

i purposely watch make up tutorial for you baekhyun

baekhyun tergelak,

"why did you laugh?" tanya chaerin

"just realised that you wear make up tonight." kata baekhyun

"am i beautiful?"

"yeah, look different" kata baekhyun

chaerin dah tersipu malu,

ofcourse lah beautiful, semua ni untuk memikat hati baekhyun. Awww

"urm. actually.. i know about you and mr park." kata2 baekhyun buat senyuman chaerin terhenti

dia baru nak lupakan conflict siang tadi,

but then, baekhyun started it all.

"about the proposal?"

baekhyun mengangguk,

"did you tell him yes?" tanya baekhyun

chaerin terdiam,

"no, but yeah. i have to give him reason or else, he'll kick me from the company." kata chaerin

"he said that? he really said that?" tanya baekhyun 

"you know dia tu macam mana kan? what else can i say? i dont have any reason to give. so maybe.. a yes?" tanya chaerin

berbual pasal benda ni buat chaerin rasa nak nangis.

dia belum bersedia nak berumah tangga

"but maybe you can tell him that you dont have feelings to him." kata baekhyun

chaerin gelengkan kepalanya

"i cant say that. chanyeol takkan terima alasan macam tu." kata chaerin

baekhyun capai tangan chaerin dan pegang dengan erat.

dia taknak chaerin menangis masa dinner ni tapi..

"okay chaerin, no matter what, i'll support you okay? but you sure you gonna say yes?" tanya baekhyun

"well, i have to"

baekhyun nampak macam tak suka,

tak suka bila chaerin cakap dia terpaksa setuju