"my lips tremble"

"my eyes shaking"

"my jaws drop"

"my breath got stuck"

"my heart pounded very fast"

"my eyes started to fill with water,  but it just need a time to fall and be called tears"

"ANGRY,SAD, and CONFUSED at the same time make my face feels red. but its still can't undentified which emotions all over me"

"through instagram i know you were gone"

"i'm so sorry for not understand the life of idols"

"i'm sorry that when you need someone, i can't be that someone"

"i'm sorry that i don't know what illness that got you until you make this decision"

"i'm so sorry for making you sad"

"i'm so sorry for making your life miserable with a bunch of immatures kpop stans"

"i'm sorry that i don't appreciate your hardworks into the music industries"

"but you still managed it with the smile of yours"

"you managed it with the laugh of yours"

"you give me many hints about your sickness"

"you give me many hint of your depression"

"but still, i can't found it cause i'm an idiot that doesn't know anything"

"i can't found it because i thought it was a joke"

"i can't found because your angelic smile plastered on"

"