I couldn’t take it anymore. Not after he made me choose between him and my friends. Not after he flirted with another girl just because he was upset. I did everything for him, but it seemed useless. He treated me well, but not after we fought about his irrational jealousy over my friends. I thought we were fine after that, but I guess I was wrong. He became very possessive and overprotective of me after that incident.

It happened before summer last year. Jonghyun and I were busy doing school works apart. Take note, apart. And to add up on to that, we weren’t schoolmates anymore so we barely see each other. During those times, I really felt like we’ve grown apart. And it hurt so ing much. He got his new buddies whom I never met. He never bothered introducing them to me, or on either ways, he never introduced me to them. They’ve been hanging out so much to the point that we never even had time with each other. He ignored me for weeks. Every time I’d ask him if we could meet, he’s gonna say ‘Oh I’m sorry, Chaehyun. I’ll be with Dongho later.’ Or something like ‘I can’t pick you up, we have a game this afternoon.’ I’d be lying if I say it didn’t bother me, because it really did. But I tried my best to understand his situation, and besides, I know he has his own life. I don’t want him to miss anything in his teenage life because of me. But as time passes by, it became painful and.. more painful. All I felt was pain.

Someone told me that he’s always hanging out with some pretty girl named Sunny, whom he introduced to me as a friend. At first it didn’t matter because I trusted him, big-time. But as soon as I got the news that they’re becoming touchy, and more touchy; It alarmed me. Thoughts like ‘What if they’re together now? What if he leaves me?’ or something like ‘He’s cheating on me’ never left my once peaceful mind. I decided to confront him, but he just told me it was just a friendly skinship and I shouldn’t be jealous. So even though it hurt me, I just let it slide. The pain was slowly killing me to no end, that I decided to look for something to distract me. My friends would be a good distraction. I started talking to my friends again, until we got closer. It lessened the pain, really. I’ve been hanging out with my best friend, Hyoyeon once in a while during those hard times. She was the one who always listen to me whenever I have problems with.. well, Jonghyun. To add on to that, I’ve made new friends. Since Jonghyun was too busy to even show me his shadow, I never bothered asking him things like ‘How are you doing?’ or ‘Who are you with?’ I’ll admit it, I was more than happy to be on the side of my friends. I was less grumpy and depressed. It was giving me a light feeling, in the sense of feeling freedom.

Real freedom.