It's the beginning of summer when we are announced to debut as Wanna One under the management YMC Entertainment. The night is both Happy and sad if only we could debut as a whole 20 members it wouldn't have been more great.

By the way, I almost forgot. I'm Lai Guan Lin your suweg'ee rapper from Taiwan. 

Sitting here with my hyungs in this fancy chair still gives me goose bumps and nauseous feelings, I think "High" is the best description for this. I still can't believe how my supporters have voted for me and believed in me.

Boa sunbaenim is now giving hints to the 6th member to debut .. ah I can't focus yahhhhh, guanlin-ah.

After a few moments I just saw woojin-hyung coming forward. Kurae Our charismatic hyung is definitely a fixed pick. 

As moments goes by I know I should be paying more attention to woojin hyung's messages but something locked my eyes, Jihoon hyung. Jihoon Hyung has been my favorite Hyungs during this program, he's caring, thoughtful and of course jjang visual and always has a happy smile, but not like what I see right now, He's nervous? Omo uljimaa my hyung seems holding back his tears.

I almost lose myself to abruptly stand up. With this thoughts in my head I cant bare to watch him, I want to go to him and hug him and encourage him. I know you will debut-ah yaah fighting hyung ahhh!

I never once question myself what worth this hyung really is for me, until right now. I know he's now more than just a hyung for me, but I will leave it to that............ Will I??

Our MC hyung; Seong woo and Vocal Hyung Jaehwan-ee has been called and now we're down to 3 spots to debut . Boa sunbaenim drop a new hint " Never been out in top 11" . Yahh Daewhi? Jihoon hyung? Or Jonghyun Hyung? I curled my fist knowing that this hyungs fanbases are huge. Ahhhh. I want to hear a jihoon hyung . Not that I want him to be the center but I just wan't him to secure his spot. I don't want to debut without him. . . he's been my motivation and my strength.

Daewhi hyung secured the third spot and the level of nervousness rose up as well. Daniel-hyung, jihoon-hyung, jonghyun-hyung, and Samuel are left to vying for the remaining 2 spots. We can't deny that this hyungs are popular so the 2 remaining candidates for that spots are really unpredictable.

After a long moment of silence the cameras are locked into Daniel hyung and jihoon hyung now I can finally see my beautiful hyungs faces. Yahhhhhh I want to stand up and dance my traffic dance choreography. Yahh. We will debut hooniee-yah.

Happiness still goes within me, unaware that they are already walking upstairs. Wait what? Who is who? Never mind Jihoon hyung , pali ka- ! Come here!

He hugged the hyungs, I should receive one as well.....or more than? Hehehe. This thoughts in my head came poppin up I would not deny it I blushed. Yahh why are you doing this to me.

He's getting near to me. Woojin hyung hajima, its now my turn. Pali!

I Signed jihoon hyung a thumbs up! He replied . Omo

I hugged him and request a little favor.

*While hugging*

JIhoon hyung chukkahae! Jinjja Chukkahae!

Do you still remember, during the BIL performance if your team won over our team you'd be guilty. You can now be free from that guilt you are feelin'

Ahh. Beacause I debut ?

Annni! Give a popong! Hehehehehe

Mwo?

Jebal hyung! For friendship.

Uwaaa . what friendship is this.. . . yahh pali go down.

It is that moment I also secured a spot on his heart. . . am I??

The show ended and we get down and celebrate with our other co- trainees. I want to go together with jihoon hyung but he already get down. Fast? I have not sensed he was going down.

When I was about to call him , he give baijin hyung a piggy back. Soelma! Andwaee my heart-uuu ---

I turned my back to find sonhoe yah. I'll admit, I did walked heavily hearted.

I see everyone is crying for joy and perhaps sadness as well. Yahh my swaggy hearts melts.

After a few congratulations and tight hugs . one by one the stage becomes empty.

We are now in the hallway, and I accidentally; more of coincidentally bumped into Jihoonie eomma. "Annyeoong Eomma" as it register in my head.

Jihoon- Eomma: Aigoo , your handsome! Chukkahaee!

Aigoo kamsamnida. Jinjja-yo? Kekeke

After that conversation I was interviewed and then asked to proceed to one of the waiting/make-up room. I was expectant to see all of us in one room unfortunately we are divided into 2 rooms. As I searched around I couldn't find a fluffy pink boy around. Aigoo he must be next door...

Before I set my self to find him Sonhoe-yah came to me and handed me a bottle of water. "Aigoo Sonhoe yah. " a thought that I had seeing him right now...

However before I even say a comforting word, he brightly showed me a nice smile in the face. Aigoo. This dongsaeng is indeed tough!

We had a small talk and then she left me right away when Minhyun-hyung entered our room. Aigoo you can't hide your favoritism sonhoe-yah it hurts your homie hyung's feelings. Hehehe but I know how it feels so I understand you very very well. Hehehe

Right then I stood up and directed the door in search for my favorite hyung. I searched and searched and finally found him. He was having conversation to other trainees the other B class trainees. "Aigoo so you have gotten really close to them don't you? I'm envious joengmal!"

I stood near their door and waited for him so focused (that some says I'm so obsessive looking) while having a drink on the water sonhoe had given me.

The night goes deep and one-by-one the people in the venue start packing up and then takes their way home.

We are now here in one room cheering everyone's feelings sharing various experiences and laughs at each other's impressions. If only this night would not past. I guess I really had gotten closer with them and it's so sad to not see each other's faces in the dorm anymore. Right then a drop of tear falls down from my eyes. Aigoo I'm being emotional.