#EndofContract

After that day, I haven't talked to Jimin, nor go on dates with him. It was just all too hard for me to handle.

I guessed, I really liked him. 

I couldn't say that I wasn't affected by it, because people around me are worried about it. Especially, Seolji, my sister who gave me this idea in the first place. But I don't blame her too. I should blame myself for wanting more, for expecting more.

"Eonni~" She went into my room that night and I just got home tired and sleepy. I was on my computer desk typing my journal for today. "Eonni~"

"If you're going to talk about it, close the door." I said and finally closed my computer. 

"What happened?"

"I liked him a lot Seolji." I sighed and almost gonna burst in tears but I held it in because I don't want to get too dramatic in front of my younger sister. "I didn't know he dates other girls too. I was stupid to think that we're both 'meant to be'." I quoted.

"I'm afraid I forgot to tell you that eonni, I'm really sorry."

"Aigoo. You should have told me before I gave my heart to him." I playfully hit her head but to be honest, I wanted to shave her head for not telling me that Jimin's like a host. But I couldn't, that would be too much.

"So, uhm, what's your plan?" She asked me and I lifted my shoulders to form a shrug. "It's possible to terminate the contract."

"To terminate, means to cut the connection we had?" I asked and she nodded. I felt a sharp pang on my chest that I instantly said no in my mind. Though I'm hurt, I can't just forget him. 

"If you call for him, he'll still come. It's a rule to follow unless it's the end of contract." 

"Are they allowed to fall in love with the girl he dates? I mean, is he allowed to get out of that sort of business?" I suddenly asked. Now, ideas of wanting to know how Jimin feels for me came into my mind. Even for the last time, I should know what I should know whether it's bad or not. 

"They can eonni. The organization doesn't hold them like slaves. " Seolji replied with a proud grin. "Members of BMG have personal issues in them, they also have dating issues and such. It's a win-win relationship." 

"Win-win." I repeated and actually understood it quickly.

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After dinner, I contacted Jimin through KakaoTalk and he immediately replied. He was worried about me, but no matter how I wanted to feel happy about it, the way he looked at me before kept flashing in my mind , like a warning. 

"Hello."
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"Seol-ah~ long time no see."
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