I suddenly stopped.

“what the hell am I doing” I whispered to myself

I immediately stopped and looked around. I came back to start over and already a mess was created. All I wanted was peace. To start over. I can never get that. I will always be Taemin’s ex, and that title will never do me any good. I get pity. I hate pity. I look over to my bed where I realize a stuffed animal was. From back when Taemin had first met me. I wish I had never bumped into him.

*FLASHBACK*

It was a month before Christmas and everyone was prepping in hopes to be very prepared this year. Seoul loved Christmas. I was out with my sister and my parents shopping, trying to find Christmas trees and or presents for each other, of course we would never admit it.

The air was crisp and it somewhat hurts my nose. I scrunched it up

“Omo you’re so cute Hana” Ri said as she took a picture and laughed looking at the camera

“Aish HYORI-AH, you are so insufferable this time of year” I huffed and rolled my eyes

“You are such a buzz kill, live a little” she retorted back

We continued to walk by stored and peered inside at all the pretty things. It was dresses and dresses and shoes and shoes. The list went on. We would go into every store. Nothing interested me enough to buy my family. They were in a way stuck up. Hyori was a K-pop star and it got annoying at times to see it all go to her already huge head.

As we turned a corner, I see five figures moving towards us. To my left I see my sister getting excited.

“Taemin oppa is so hot” she whispers into my ear

*Flashback pause*

I literally felt so stupid realizing that Hyori always had a thing for Taemin. She saw me cry. She gave me advice. She convinced me to be the bigger woman and leave him to better myself. Was it all a lie so she could stay with him? My heart felt numb remembering. How had I missed all the signs?

*Resume flashback*

“Hyori-ah! Did you tell them where we were”? I hissed as I looked into her direction

“Aish Hana, don’t get your in a twist, those are my friends” she said rolling her eyes and walking towards them so elegantly.

“Hyori-ssi, ho