It seems we've all reached that moment in time.

Where we hate the people who love us the most.

It was the first time I ever had a girlfriend.

And honestly I was excited.

Jiyeon.

My lovely Jiyeon.

But there she was, cheating.

Cheating on me.

And what did I do?

I smiled and walked away.

I never confronted her.

Nor did I yell at her.

I took it all on Minzy.

My dongsaeng Minggki.

I yelled and shoved at her when she told me about Jiyeon.

I knew she was right.

But I hated the fact that it was right in front of me, yet I didn't want to let go.

Minzy never cried, not once in front of me.

"I have to be strong."

She often told me.

I heaved my heavy burden on her.

My hurt.

My pain.

My sorrow.

None of which she needed.

But what did she give me?

Her brightness.

Her happiness.

Her love.

What did I give in return?

A hole in her fragile heart.

Who knew how long she could withstand.

Alone.

By herself.

No one supporting her.

I was supposed to be her Oppa.

The one she would depend on.

But I neglected her.

I messed with her fragile system.

And left her.

Song Seunghyun, why the hell did you do that?

Easy.

I wanted her to feel my pain.

My regret.

And I really wish I hadn't.