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Chaerin has been watching her cellphone for half an hour

She doesn't speak

From time to time she frowns, with pain gestures and I know what is happening

I'm sitting at the dining table, at the other corner of the dining room of the 2ne1 apartment

The whole room is full of memories, joys and sacrifices

And as I look at it, I know that I have never been alone at all, although sometimes I believed that no one really could see me drowning

I realize now after so long, that the girl who now tries to hide her tears, has been drying my owns for years

And I know I can not do anything, leader's thing they say, you must be strong they say, never break on tears in front of your members

just when I work up the courage to call her name and try to approach the couch

The door opens and dara enters with her joy so natural

Without knowing she turns gray chaerin into the leader we all know

My time span of being able to see her real world ...

It's over

The three of us sit down and watch TV.

Bigbang has made their last comeback before the military service

All the songs are great as always

We three dream with the day to return to the stage under the name of 2ne1

It seems that little by little things begin to fall into place

We started working on a new album recently and hopefully we'll be there soon

After the first song, the performance of the last dance begins

And I realize how the expression of chaerin falls

The rumors of kiko .... The rumors of nana .... Those rumors of Dara herself who never realizes anything

They are probably back in her head

Jiyong and chaerin have always been something special in this that we used to call yg family

There was always something that no one could understand

Chaerin swears that has ever happened something between them

And I know for jiyong that it is true

His gaze has never fallen when he is with her

Even kiko once in yg yelled at him for it

"Who do you have a romantic relationship with? With her or with me? "

I still remember Chaerin's expression at the sound of her voice.

She defended jiyong and we all left them alone

Now everything is about to break

Jiyong sings now on television and chaerin can not look up

Thank god there is makeup I think when they make a plane closer and you do not see the marks of the fight that still exist in his skin ...

And in his heart

Chaerin gets up and goes to her room

Shortly after, dara is watching the last chapter of our favorite drama

But I can not concentrate

I'm going to be the oldest in this group for maybe the first time since we joined creating 2ne1

I apologize to dara saying I'm tired

I approach the room and I hear her holding back the tears.

To later hear her sobbing probably on the pillow, trying to stop the sound

While I sit down in the hallway I start writing on the phone

It does not take 10 minutes when I hear the door

I get up and leave space so that a jiyong running with a gesture of concern can pass

He says nothing but looks at me and I know what he wants to tell me

Silence reigns when a dara worried approaches us

I told her to be silent and that's when we heard chaerin

Jiyong pales and picks up the doorknob

I pushed Dara to her room and I go to mine

With the promise that tomorrow we will talk

The crying increases for a few moments until they cease completely

it has emerged effect, jiyong has emerged effect

I fall asleep with a smile in my mouth

Hoping this is a good step and not a mistake

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