Jungkook pov

Tbh… I really like taehyung, but I’m still confused about, my feeling for him, for my father, for my girlfriend, it’s all mixed up, I want to hat taehyung because he make my life like this, but I can’t I know he’s not at fault, I know I’m not deserve him but I still want him, but I also love my girlfriend, I’m so retarded.

When kotomi announced my name I thought that it’s time to tell taehyung about me, about the truth but I’m scared but I’m also scared that I’ll fall to deep and this lie getting more and more big and start eating me with guilt.

“so… jungkookie” taehyung said, he looks nervous that  it’s so cute it’s hurt

“yeah?” I asked him

“what should we do now?” he asked

“just let me nap on your lap” the I lie my head on his lap, it’s feels so nice and warm

“o..okay” tae said, face beet red

Napping on tae’s lap is so nice and warm but I still need to tell him the truth, I need more courage, but I’m scared he’ll hate me

“…. Tae ….”

“yeah jungkookie?” tae said, looking down at me smiling, ahhh he’s so beautiful, so precious, I don’t want to hurt him

“I want to tell you something…”

“hmm? What is it jungkookie?” he said softly

“actually…I’m…”

“you’re?”

“no…nothing hehehe I forgot what I wanted to tell you” in the end, I have no courage to tell him the truth, until the time is up I’m still not be able to tell him

And by the time kotomi announced jimin’s  and taehyung’s name, I felt regrets filling up my heart.

“why am I so weak” I mumbled to my self

I'M SORRY I CAN'T MAKE LONG CHAPTERS TT_TT

AND SORRY FOR ANY MISTAKES