I was feeling in the dumps a couple weeks ago so I wrote this on my phone~ Scenario: Donghae proposes to Sandara. This was formatted like one of Sarah Kane's quotes about a person wanting another.

This isn't a story. This isn't a dialogue. This is NOT an excerpt of anything. This is just a very long (and unedited) quote I wrote when I was feeling rather melancholic. And I want to be able to share this with my readers because I think it's pretty. I hope you like it. 

"I want you.

I want to look at you everyday, happy and content, because your life is just that good. I want to fall for you over and over again like that time I first met you rummaging through the trash bin because you had mistakenly thrown your movie ticket with the gum paper you crumpled while waiting in line.

And I want to watch the raindrops trickle down the window glass with you and tell you that you are beautiful just sitting there in my white shirt and take you outside to catch falling stars and make wishes for a future together when the clock chimes at 11:11 and order in some chicken on lazy date nights when both of us don't want to cook and cook some ramen for you when you're craving and place my toothbrush next to yours because you have finally agreed to leave some of yours in my place and open my eyes in the morning to see your face so close to mine and hear you snore even if you vehemently deny it and confront you about hogging the blanket when the night gets too cold and fight about the way you cook your eggs and make your coffee just the way you like it and hug you goodbye as you turn on your camera to record a new scene for a vlog you still haven’t edited and sort through all the laundry we finally decided to do together and tell you I like the fabric softener you picked and pick a new series to watch on Netflix and watch the cats chase around the infamous red dot they will never be able to catch and catch my breath when you do that thing with your eye when you stare and share my earphones when we listen to mellow music and listen to good songs and listen to not-so-good ones and let you critic the demos I have recorded when I was enlisted and record songs I have made for us with you and complain about how easily we get distracted and distract you when you edit videos and laugh when I see your pouty mouth when you don’t get what you want and want to just freeze the time--

So I could kiss you. Your lips. Your nose. Your eyes. Your neck. Your s. Your legs...

I want to kiss all of you. I want to make love to you...touch you down there, deep and hard until my name is on your lips and you forget who you are.

And I want trace your curves with my fingers and never let you forget that only I could make you scream your lungs out when I write good ing lyrics on your skin with my nails and pepper your back with wet, open-mouthed kisses--oh, the things I want to do to you.

And I want to relax on the porch with your back against my chest in a sunny afternoon and look up the sky and play guess the cloud shapes game with you and laugh when you tell me that rabbit-shaped cl