What words should I say?
What thoughts are you immersed in like that?
You and I remain here

Taeyeon threw her last cigarette. Smoked? Yeah, she did. After all this year she avoided that bad habbit, now she comes again with that

“Noona, why are you back to this habit?” Minho from SHINee asked as he also takes another cigarette

“Stressed enough, huh?” Kai raise his eyebrows to her in-law, actually

“Seems like that” Taeyeon sighed, Jessica might be freaked out of she finds Taeyeon smoked again

“Come on, Noona” Chanyeol rolled his eyes “What’s your problem actually?”

“No need to ask, Chan-ah” Minho laughed when the door behind them opened. There are Donghae, Eunhyuk and Heechul who joined them into sacred activity which is very secretive between idol in SM

Taeyeon bowed a little when Donghae eyeing her, she knows Donghae once had a crush to Jessica when they still being trainee. Much to Donghae’s dismay, Jessica getting closer to other guy, at that time Taecyeon, moreover Jessica ended up with Taeyeon.

Such a poor man Donghae was

“Long time no see you at this place, Tae” Heechul chuckled cutely which make Kai and Chanyeol laughing

“Need to escaped from something, Oppa” Taeyeon replied while Donghae still looking at her

“How is Jessica?” Eunhyuk asked “Seems like she’s become gorgeous anyway”

“That’s right” Minho added

“She is okay, just last week she need to rest because of exhausted”

“Her schedule is no joke” said Kai “Krystal often said that her sister like a robot”

“Maybe it’s her way to escaped from something” suddenly Donghae said while taking another cigarette

“Ah…” Kai is speechless while looking at Taeyeon, which is sighed and drifted her gaze away

Full of anticipation, your whispers
Like a dream we’ve drawn together, you and I
Will we be able to love?
 

After Jessica’s question on the early morning, which Taeyeon unable to answer, they still live together. As much as Taeyeon wanted to assuring herself that everything is okay, but Jessica wouldn’t let it slide

“Gosh…” Taeyeon leaned her back into couch while taking a book from bookshelves. Taeyeon likes to read, while Jessica probably just scanning the book then put it away.

It will make Taeyeon got the inspiration for the song, that she wants to sing

Sounds of door opened make Taeyeon raised her head into the entrance, to find the gorgeous woman back to their home

“Sica…”

“Hi, Taeng” Jessica just lets her little smile before headed to their bedroom

“Have you eaten?” Taeyeon asked which make Jessica stops in her middle way

“No” Jessica sighed “Not yet”

“It’s late”

“I’m so busy” simple reply which can make Taeyeon mad as usual. But for this time, Taeyeon just sighed heavily

“What do you want to eat?”

Enough for making Jessica creased her eyebrows

“Sica?”

“Ah” Jessica startled for a while “Chicken, fried chicken and French fries”

“Okay, but no Cola for you”

“Why?” Jessica whined

“You still have slight fever” Taeyeon closed her book and takes her phone “Let me call the delivery and go bath, Sica”

“Thanks, Taengoo”

Is that relationship which Jessica wants? Taeyeon doesn’t mad when she’s skipping her meal? Is this true?

Jessica sighed and bit her lower lips, to avoid the tears while closing the bathroom door. Why does it hurt more? When realized that their relationship growing cold?

Is that what Jessica wants?

Come to me baby
Come come to me baby
Us of the glorious past days

Taeyeon is making tea for Jessica when the younger eating her chicken. Their dinner is awkwardly quiet, as in usually Taeyeon and Jessica would be having a simple conversation

“So, how was your day Taeng?” Jessica decided to break the silence

“Well” Taeyeon put the cups beside Jessica “I met some producers and we decided to make another digital single for me”

“I thought you will make a song to the junior”

“I don’t know” Taeyeon shrugged her shoulders “Seems like they still wanted me to sing”

“That’s good” Jessica smiled “I would like to hear more of your voice”

“You could hear me whenever you want, Sica” Taeyeon chuckled because finally they can melt the icy atmosphere

“What theme of song, which you writing down about, Taengoo?”

“A person who believe that she or he will over from her or his lover”

Much to make Jessica stopped in the middle of her eat. Jessica raises her gaze to find Taeyeon who gulped her saliva nervously

“Taengoo…”

“Sica, I mean…”

“Did you write about us?”

“No… no I didn’t do it” Taeyeon shook her head but Jessica knows she’s lying

“If you wanted to write about us” Jessica sighed “Just write it”

“Sica…”

“If you want to be over me, just try it” Jessica stood from her seat and leaving Taeyeon at the dining room

“Sica!” Taeyeon is running to tugs Jessica’s arm, to make Jessica turning around

“What do you want, Taengoo? What do you want from our relationship anyway? And what’s not wrong with us?”

“Jessica…” Taeyeon walks closer to wiped the tears from Jessica’s eyes

“Don’t…”

“Don’t cry because of me”

“It’s hurt, seeing you cry because of me”

“I’m sorry…”

“I’m sorry for past 6 years, you deserve more than this idiot”

Oh remember, we liked
We cried and also laughed
So we can go back to that time in the beginning (You)
We were always together, we became alike
 

Was that breaking up line? Taeyeon isn’t sure because Jessica closed her eyelids while her lips trembling when heard Taeyeon’s last words

“No…” Jessica whispered

“Don’t…”

Before Jessica finished her words, Taeyeon already cut it off with her own lips. They are longing for about one week, no kissing each other. No touching each other

It makes Jessica lonely

But having Taeyeon’s lips at hers now, Jessica could feel that her heart finally finds the serenity

Taeyeon break the kiss, while Jessica’s arms still on her waist. Jessica still close her eyes when Taeyeon called her name

“Sica…”

“I love you so much” said Taeyeon almost on whispers which makes Jessica jerked for a while

“Taengoo…” Jessica opens her eyes and finds the brown orbs looking at her, carefully

Jessica is fragile inside and Taeyeon knew it

“I know I was very overprotective to you…” Taeyeon sighed in between “I have the reasons”

Jessica pulled for a hug and digging her chin into Taeyeon’s shoulder. She realized that, she doesn’t need the reasons actually

She just need Taeyeon answer her questions

“If you asked about, what’s not wrong with us. My answer is there’s no particular reason for me to loving you, Jessica. I love you with all my might. I love you whatever the condition is”

“Do you still love me?” Jessica asked while holding her tears