When the day grows old

Something feels empty

When we come back to that place

Something feels different

And I know what it is

It’s the sight of you

It’s the way you avoid with others

It’s the way you look at me

It’s the way how no one notices your pain

For me who isn’t yours

Alone and unvoiced, I want you

Alone and crying, I want you

Alone and dreaming, I want to you

But I can’t

I stay away

I know I hurt you

I know I scared you

I know

So I stay away

She comes to me

My dear friend

But doesn’t see me the same

I know she hates me

I know she loves you

I’m sorry, my friend

We talk

We yell

We whisper

We cry

Now she knows

But she can’t tell

She won’t tell

I have to do it myself

For you my love

I have to

If not to end your suffering

Then to ease your pain

Maybe then

You can see her

The black swan

The one you deserve

She goes back to you

It pains me to see you suffering

But I can’t do anything

I’m useless

I’m a failure

I’m a coward

But I have to do this

I just hope you’ll listen

You walk out

I call out

You ignore me

But it shouldn’t matter

There is tomorrow

I can tell you then

But it does matter

She said you’ll be back soon

She said you won’t go far

She said you won’t leave

All with worried eyes