You're Not Sorry
The Love I've Hidden in Songs
You’re Not Sorry (Taylor Swift)
For the last time, I thought you’ll be there.
Thinking that you would change, that maybe you’ll realize that I’m someone you shouldn’t be taking advantage of.
Boy, I was so wrong. So, this time will be the last. Not only I gave you your second chance but also the third and fourth plus too many chances I’ve now lost count. All that was put to waste.
Of course, I understand you but you must also understand me. I can’t be the only one in love in this relationship. I can’t be the only one understanding all the time. The only one fighting. I’m done.
Jiyong, I’m sorry but I can’t fight for this anymore.
All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taken me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around
“Are you on your way now? I’m preparing our dinner” I asked him.
“Not yet, Dara-yah. I’m stuck here in the studio. We still have to finish the recording, but I’ll be there as soon as this recording will be finished.”
“Okay. Hurry back please, I miss you, I’ll be wai-“ I stopped mid-way when I heard the other line was already ended. “I’ll be waiting for you to come home” .
3 hours after…
15 missed calls.
To: Jiyong
Where are you Jiyong-ah? Today, is our 3rd anniversary. Please tell me you didn’t forget it.
Hurry back home now, we rarely see each other. I have a lot to tell you. I miss you. Come back home now. I love you.
One message received.
From: Bommie
Where are you tokki?
To: Bommie
Home. Waiting for Jiyong, we’re gonna be celebrating our anniversary today. J
One message received.
From: Bommie
Oh gad. That bastard, I can’t believe him. I told you to break up with him. He changed Dara. Stop fooling yourself anymore.
I’m not fooling myself here Bom. I just love him that much.
One message received.
From: Bommie
Seriously, I’m gonna kill him now.
Please don't.
To: Bommie
WHAT? What are you talking about? And you know I can’t break up with him, He’s still Jiyong. The Jiyong, I love.
Where are you? Why are you reacting that way?
One message received.
From: Bommie
I’m in a club Dara partying with some friends when I saw your Jiyong here and his friends with girls around them.
No… He can’t be. He’s in the studio, recording their songs. No…
To: Bommie
Maybe they are his friends too. I trust him.
I trust him. I really do.
One message received.
From: Bommie
If feeling up each other is what you called friends, then okay they’re friends. But please don’t be naïve Dara, leave him.
I hate to see you getting hurt by him everytime. He changed. Face it.
No… Maybe Bom saw the wrong person… He’s not you Jiyong-ah?
To: Jiyong
Are you done? Are you coming home now? I miss you…
5 minutes…
10 minutes…
30 minutes…
To: Youngbae
Hey, is Jiyong with you guys? Are you done with the recording?
Please let Bom be wrong. I trust you.
One message received.
From: Youngbae
Recording? I’m at home. We’ve finished the recording yesterday. Why? Is there a problem, noona?
How could you? Fck, this is hurting me so bad.
To: Youngbae
Ah yes, I remember. Nope, there’s no problem. Rest well Youngbae, you deserve it. You all deserve it. :)
And maybe... I deserve to take a break too.
One message received.
From: Youngbae
Thanks noona. See you soon!
One message received.
From: Jiyong
Still recording babe, I might not be able to go home. You should sleep now. Goodnight.
You liar. You’re always breaking my heart. I can’t believe you can do this to me. They’re right, I’ve been blindingly loving you when all you’ve done was hurt me. Bom’s right, you changed. You’re not my Jiyong anymore. He’s gone.
One message received.
From: Bommie
Let him go, Dara. Let yourself go.
Maybe I will.
You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no no oh
30 missed calls.
From: Jiyong
88 unread messages.
From: Jiyong
Funny how our roles have switched. Why would you try to reach me when all this time I can’t reach you?
One message received.
From: Jiyong
Where are you? Why are you not answering my calls?
One message received.
From: Jiyong
Do we have a problem here, babe?
One message received.
From: Jiyong
Babe? I miss you…
One message received.
From: Jiyong
Babe?
One message received.
From: Jiyong
If there’s something I’ve done, I’m sorry.
Do you now?
To: Jiyong
Let’s end this. Goodbye Kwon.
You had me crying for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade.
I’m letting you go and I’m letting myself go from you.
Thank you for the memories Kwon. I could’ve love you for eternity if only you would do the same for me, but it seems that will be never possible.
I let you hurt me and still take you back everytime but when you lie to me and you never seem to be guilty about it.
3 good years, it was enough for me. I love you but maybe I should start loving myself.
I don’t know what changed but you’re not the man I used to love. The man who promised that everything will be the same, that nothing will change us. The man who promised me a lifetime of happiness.
The man who promised me that I’ll be the only woman he will love.
I guess, promises are really meant to be broken.
I will look back at our memories and never regret loving you because you are worth it.
But I wish, that when you look back at our memories,
You will realize that I loved you with all of me and that you will be sincerely sorry to the love you wasted.
Because right now,
I love you but you’re not sorry.
A/N: Hi! I've turned this into a compilation of one-shots that I'll be writing as I interpret songs according to what they are making me feel. Hope you enjoy reading this! Please do give me ideas and recommend songs that might break this drama-filled of the first three that I had. :) Or you can suggest a song that you want me to write a story about featuring our loving DARAGON <3 <3 <3
I apologized for the mistakes especially the grammar. :) Hope you enjoy and give me some feedbacks!
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