"Jessica...are...you...there?" 

The question was asked through Jessica's dropped phone. Her knees felt weak, she couldn't control herself now, her whole body ran out of energy, especially her heart broke into millions pieces, she could feel tears came out of her eyes nonstop. But when realization hit her, she wiped her tears, grabbed her favorite violin and ran hurriedly toward her car. As soon as she got into her car, she placed the violin at the passenger seat, and she began to drive in very very high speed like a flying jet pack. The faster she wanted to arrive the hospital, the motion became slower and slower. Now, she was stuck at the red light, she couldn't help but breaking herself down onto her car wheel. She still couldn't get over the shocking news she just heard.

Flashback : 27th June 9:00pm

Jessica P.O.V 

It's 9 pm already, but I'm in my practice room prepare myself to join 'Violinist Contest' tomorrow. But I couldn't focus,I kept on thinking about my girlfriend whom I just made her mad a moment ago. But what bothering me is she seem impatience and totally NOT stubborn at all, not like her usual self, and I can't help but wonder what's wrong?

"Jessie, it's been really late and you still haven't eat yet?"

"Stop bothering me, don't you see I'm practicing?"

"Yes, but at least you need to fill your stomach, it's not healthy to skip dinner."

"Man! You so annoying. Leave me alone."

"I-I'm just c-concern."

"No thanks. Now just get out of my life and stop bothering me again. Stay away from me."

"S-sorry then, s-sorry to b-bother you."

Usually if she couldn't change my decision, she wouldn't leave, but this time, she just left and said sorry?

I sighted. Now, there two of me appeared in front of me, one was the evil Jessica, another one was the angel Jessica were arguing with each other.

"Now, we made her mad. What are we gonna do?" The angel started.

"Nothing. Keep on our practicing." The evil replied nonchalantly.

"What?! Hello? She is our girlfriend." The angel argued.

"Don't you think she was too annoying?"

"Man! She's just worried about us. Beside we love her, don't we?"

"Yes, but..."

"Beside she is our energy source. How are we manage to win the award without her by our side?"

"We'll win with our talent."

"But we need her to attend at the competition, don't we?"

The evil-me seem speechless for a sec, then....

"But you hurt her, you have an affair. Remember?" The evil Jessica fired back.

"I-I w-will f-f-ix I-it." The angel stuttered.

"Can you?" The evil retorted.

The angel-me totally speechless. 

Wait a minute!

Could that be the reason she so weird? 

Dammit!!!!

She obliviously saw me kissed my new P.A. 

'Damn Jessica!!! Are you nut? Are you out of your mind?? She's so perfect and that not enough for you????? Bastard!!! You don't deserve her at all!!!!!'

I cured myself and mentally slapped myself either.

End of flash back.

"I'm sorry....damn sorry..." I mumbled.

Flashback : 27th June 9:10pm

"Hi, sweetie." I quickly pick it up since it was my babe Tiffany that I wait so long for her call.

"Jessica, I'm not Tiffany, I'm her sister." The other line replied while sobbing.

Wait, but why was she use Tiffany phone to call me? And above everything, why was she sobbing?

"O-oh yes, Sunny unnie, is there anything wrong?" I asked nervously.

"J-Jessica, y-you n-need to p-prepare yourself." Still sobbing.

"Yes. Unnie, what exactly happen?" I was totally curious.

"Ti-Tiffany was gotten h-hit by a truck. She's in Seoul hospital now." She replied yet still sobbing like from the beginning. But wait...what did she just said?

'Tiffany was gotten hit by a track.'

I dropped my phone and kneeled down, my tears started flowing, my eyes stopped at the white violin that she gave me as a birthday gift.

"Jessie, here is your 20th birthday present. Ta-da~" she took out a white violin.

"I love it. But don't say that you use your salary to buy it?!"

"Just promise me to use this violin to win the damn award, okay?"

"I promise. And I never break my promise." There our first kiss went.

I wiped my tears and took the violin that we called as our child and ran toward my car. I used the flying speed driving toward the hospital. Again I saw her in front of me again.

"Jessie, you know how dangerous to drive in this speed."

"Come on, sweetie. I'm an expert driver."

"You're not. You're a violinist." She whined.

"Okay, okay, I'll slow down my speed now, happy?"

"Promise me that don't ever drive on this speed again."

"Ye-yes, sir I mean ma'am, no MOM." She just smacked my shoulder and we both cracked into laughter.

"I-I'm sorry, Tiffany, I'm really so sorry..." I shuttered as I cried myself out onto the wheel.

End of flash.

Still Jessica P.O.V

Finally, the red light turned into green, it mean I could go now. I still drove really fast, which mean I broke my promise, no, it was not the first time anyways, I broke many promises, what kind of girlfriend am I?

"Jessie, I want you to always by my side, can you?" She said as she leaned her head upon my left shoulder.

"Of course, I'll always by your side in every seconds of life."

"Tiff, it's all my fault, sorry..." Now I'm just like Sunny who just talked with me by the phone—sobbing really hard.

"Hwang Miyoung, you need to stay alive, you still need to punish me about breaking our promises..." I muttered.

I told her her to stay away from me, and now she was gonna do it for real, FOREVER, please..., god save her please..., I didn't wanna lost you.

Without noticing, I arrived the hospital. I quickly ran off the car toward the front desk.
"Where is Tiff, Tiffany? Where is she?" I shouted at the nurse.

"Miss, calm down...who are you looking for?" The nurse asked me politely.

"Tiffany Hwang Miyoung." I shouted at the nurse again.

"She is still in emergency room, Miss." She replied. As I looked around, there I spotted Sunny, her sister, the one who informed me. I quickly ran toward her.

"Unnie, is she okay?" I immediately asked the sobbing girl.

"S-she s-still...i-in there..." Now, she's crying on another person shoulder who I noticed as Taeyeon unnie, and she's patting her back, tried to calm her down.

"Don't cry like there is no tomorrow, Tiffany probably will be okay." Taeyeon unnie tried to comfort her. Minutes later, she fell asleep, maybe tired from crying. And Taeyeon unnie set her down.

"Jessica, follow me." Taeyeon unnie gestured me to follow her to the corner. As soon as we reached the corner, she gave me a hard punch on my stomach, and I couldn't help but curled myself down, groaned in pain.

"Don't you ashamed of yourself? Jung Jessica! You just told her to leave you, and now why are you dare to appear yourself here?" *Sighted* "I really don't understand, why on earth exist such a jerk like you. Now, just leave! Tiffany wouldn't want to see you. Neither would her sister and me!" Taeyeon unnie yelled at me and through another punch on the corner of my lips, I could feel blood. After that she left angrily. I just let my back leaned the wall. Again,my tears began to flow when I remembered what Taeyeon unnie just said.

Yes, I'm a jerk, a very big jerk who hurt an innocent girl's heart, the innocent girl who loved me with all her heart, the innocent girl who I usually ignored her caring, but at least I still love her. NO! If you really did love her, you wouldn't treat her like that. I cried super hard, it's the first time in my life to cry this hard, except when my parents passed away,I've already lost my parents. Tiffany, I don't wanna lost you. I cried nonstop until I managed to calm myself down, I returned to where Sunny's been a while ago. But, I didn't even see a single shadow. I started to look around. There! I spotted her walking along with Taeyeon unnie. I quickly followed them until they reached at room, and there Sunny walked in. Tiffany must be in the room! I must see her! I must apologize to her! Without any longer of waiting I ran toward the door, but I got blocked by Taeyeon unnie.

"Didn't you get what I've told you? She won't forgive you anyways." She told me firmly at me, clearly she didn't want me to bother Tiffany.

"Please...unnie...I just want to see her." I begged.

"See her? You still not ashamed to hurt her again? You little brat, why can't you let her has a peaceful rest, hah?" She whispered harshly and angrily.

"Please, unnie, just far away...yes, just a far away look...please...I just want to make sure she's okay..." I begged again. She just sighted. "Fine." 

I walked inside the room, I could see Sunny was sitting on a chair near the bed, and Tiffany was lying on the bed. I rushed to get closer to her, but a hand stopped me, she just coughed, I responded with a nod, remembered the agreement. I sighted, looked at her again, and turned my back lifeless, I'm about to walked out until a voice stopped me.

"Wait. Jessica..." Sunny unnie called me, I just titled my head a little to show her that I was listening.

"Do well on your performance tomorrow. I guessed it's her last hope on you." Sunny said.

"Yes..." I muttered.

"And, I don't think she could joined the show." My heart dropped. "Moreover, we gonna moved back to the state soon, I think it's our last meet."

What?! 'Back to state'? Is she really left me? Forever? But, what can I do? It's all my fault. *sighted* Jessica Jung, just let her go.

"Yes, I see." I nodded "Have a safe trip." I muttered and walked away lifelessly. 

As soon as I got in my car, I saw the violin, I broke myself down again.

(The Next Day) 

('Violinist Contest' backstage)

I was in my waiting room, waiting for my turn. All I wished was Tiffany's appearance, but it's impossible. I sighted and fixed my outfit. Everyone were clapping, I scanned the whole audience, and I didn't see her, I knew it.

"Hello ladies and gentle man. My name is Jessica Jung, I'm the represent of SMEnt music and art college. I'm here to fulfill your wish, and I'm not gonna disappointed you like I usually did." I was also really confused too, I just splat all my inner words.

I began my performance. I could feel that this is the best performance I ever did. I figured it out. The missing is "feeling", I never played it with all my heart; or my emotion.
The performance ended, it's time to announce. Instead of nervous, I'm completely disappointed, not about Tiffany, but about myself.

"Time to announce. The violinist who gonna hand today trophy is...Miss....Jessica Jung from SMEnt college. Congratulation!" The host announced.

"Thank you. Thanks with all my heart. Thanks for everything you did for me. And, I'm sorry about things I did wrong to you, my one and only girlfriend." I didn't dare to say her name out loud. I shamed of myself,very badly.

3 years later

Jessica P.O.V

It's been three years since she left me, I mean since I hurt her. It's been three years since I drown myself in my stupidness. 

I missed you so much, Tiff...

I missed how you bugged me about this about that...

I missed your cute pouting...

I missed your annoying whining...

I missed your attractive eye-smile...

I missed saying 'I love you' to you...

I missed hearing 'I love you' from you...

I just missed....you, Tiffany. I missed everything about you.

"Excuse me, miss." The same voice. The one I yearned for every second in these 3 whole years. I recognized that it's Tiffany, her loud and husky voice that I would never forget.

"Y-yeah?" I turned around. There she was, standing face to face with me, giving me her eye-smile. She looked even more beautiful with her red hair.

"Err... Are you the working in this violin training center?" She asked. Still kept her eye-smiling.

"Y-yeah. W-what c-can I help you?" I failed to not stutter.

"Err... I want to learn to play violin. So, can you err...kinda open the door, please?" Damn that eye-smile Tiff. I guess she couldn't recognized me since I wore a black cap covered haft of my face.

"Oh-oh yes. Sorry." I hurriedly opened the door for her. For my clumsiness, I accidentally dropped my cap which she helped me picked up and gave back to me, still smiling. 

What? 

Didn't she recognize me?

"I know it's a little bit late to ask, but what is your name?"

Eh? My name?

She's good at pretending.

"Jessica. Jessica Jung." I whispered.

"So you're American too, aren't you?" She seemed to be excited very much.

"Y-yeah." I muttered, still couldn't believe she could play pretending so well.

"Wow! I'm an American too. Where are your from?" Tiffany, you were hurting me. Stop this. It hurt the both of us.

"San Francisco." I flatly answered.

Now, I leaded her to the couch. I told her to sit down while I would get her some drink. Caramel coffee, she ordered, just like I expected.

"Too bad I'm from L.A." I've already known. "But we both California girls." She was squealing while clinging onto me. She acted just we just met each other.

"So, why are you here?" I asked her coldly.

"Of course I'm here to learn how to play violin, you dummy!"

"Why are you coming back Tiff?" I muttered under my breath.

"What? Tiff? How could you know my name?" Seriously Tiff?

"Snap! I forgot that unnie told me that I lived in Korea sometime before."

"What?" I was totally confused. Like totally.

"Okay, look. I lost my memory. The doctor call 'amnesia'. Unnie told me that I lost my memory because of an accident back in here. But I had no idea. You seem to know me. Can't you tell me what happened to me before?" She requested with her puppy eyes.

Wait?! Amnesia? Lost memory?

"Sorry for not introducing myself to you. My name is Tiffany. Tiffany Hwang. Nice to meet you. Can we be friend...again?" She offered with a smile.

My mind and heart were fighting each other, whether to say yes or no.

"Why not?" Lastly, my heart won.

"Can I call you Jessie? It would easier and shorter. Can I?" She asked with puppy eyes. Tiff, you knew I couldn't denied that.

"Then I'll call you Tiff." We were back to friend zone.

She started from nothing while I started from the broken piece.

Suddenly, I felt a tight hug. She's hugging me. I returned the hug as tight as I could. I missed the hug too much.

...

I missed you too much, Tiff.

End

 

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