Epilogue

''There's no way.'' can you believe that heechul and siwon are now lovers?

They show up infront of me saying they are getting married. My mind can't function properly right now. All i know heechul is like a back then, sleeping with random people. And now what the hell?

''I hope you'll give us your blessings, for real for me i don't care if you don't, 'cause there's no way we'll stop our wedding. But this big guy right here wants to and he also wanted to apologize.''
he said pointing at siwon who can't even look at me properly.

''It's been seven years, don't worry about me.'' smiling i patted siwon's shoulder who shuddered at my touch.

''Yes it's been seven years and you're still suffering.'' heechul said.

''Please let's not talk about this.''

Siwon confessed what he have done to my doll one year after he did that..thing.

There's no way i'll forgive him and if there's a way, bring back my doll from the dead. But i should act professional now, we've grown up.

''Kyuhyun you're now a very successful man but i don't think you're happy.'' that hit me like a bullet.

''I am happy.'' i said smiling up to my ear. I know it's fake.Who cares though.They are not here to just talk about the past.

''No, you're not.'' it's siwon who said that. This was the first time i heard him talk after all these years.

''Who are you to say that?'' i quickly covered my mouth. My anger consumed me and mostly sadness that i've been feeling for the past years. Even my family can't make me happy. I'm just like a broken glass that even everybody tried to patch me up, there is just no way i'll get back in my normal form.

''I'm really sorry.''

''Apology accepted.''

I know i'm lying all along but there's no way i'll make myself look more pitiful than i already am.

And even i make siwon dissapear from this world there's just no way i'll get sungmin back.

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''Where the hell are you?'' hyukjae's voice, i heard people clapping in the background. Even donghae's voice who kept on shouting.

''Home.'' all i said while carresing the thing in my lap.

''It's heechul wedding for 's sake.'' Two weeks was gone like a wind and today is heechul's wedding.

''What am i suppose to do?''

''Get your in here!''

''No.''

'' you.'' i just scoffed and hang up. I might ruin my friend's special day.

''When will you ever wake up?'' i whispered in the wind as i look at the doll in my lap.

''When will my dream ever come true?'' Almost everyday, i kept on dreaming that he's moving besides me. Smiling at me saying i shouldn't be sad anymore.

But it was just all dreams. Before i had dreams that i wanted to dissapear and now all i want is my dream to come true. This is another deal. And i think what i'm currently dreaming is hurting me more than my nightmare in my past.

It's making me cry more.

It's making me feel like i am the loneliest person in the world.

It's making me believe in things that will never happen.

It's suffocating me but i just can't stop from hoping he'll come back.

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''Sir, one of our branch in the south said that they still need more dolls.'' looking up from my paperworks i nodded while my secretary left.

Yes, what heechul said before is true. I'm now a very successful man. Not as a doctor but a business man. I gave up on my dream and fixed sungmin myself.

Before i kept on thinking, do i love him? He's just a doll.

The answer is already obvious. I wouln't waste my time learning how to customize every part of a doll. I kept sungmin all to myself, i never showed him to anyone after what happen.

I don't want anyone to fix him. I'm the one who really broke him. Yes in the end, he's back in his own form, but now he's just a mere doll.

'', i want to go home.''

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I climbed up to my room as i put my car's key's in my desk. There's a feeling that i can't recognize right now. I knew that i turned off the light here in my room earlier. But why is it ?

''I shouldn't be bothered by that.Maybe i'm just really getting older.'' i know i'm talking to myself but who could blame me, i live alone.

I removed my coat as i sat in my bed. I looked at my sorrounding, searching for sungmin. I remember i  left him in the bed. My heart was beating crazing right now. There's no way someone stole it!

Standing up, i searched around the room and finally there he is. In my study table? Hmmm. I miss him so much. I grabbed him and sat on the bed.

I would never get tired carressing his soft cheeks everyday.

This simple things can make me live even though i feel like killing myself everytime.

Sighing, i hold his little hand. I hope someday you'll also grip on my hand tight.

''Please come back.''

He's smiling at me, yes i knew this was a dream. Yes this is a dream.

''This is not a dream.'' his little right hand grip tightly on my index finger.

''I took too much time right?''

Yes..

I'm finally smiling.

-END-

A happy ending ~ ^.^